Every cloud has a silver lining
Ok, so I was wrong. She didn't change her mind. So it must be different this time, right? Or not.
We got into an argument. It's always the way, isn't it? You think everything's ok and then you find out that she's really been lying to you all along. He proposed to her. The bastard proposed to her. Why couldn't I ever have the guts to do that? She knew it, knew that I would've got down on one knee, right there and then in Truncheon if she'd stayed. That's why she didn't tell me.
She said no but that's not the point anymore, is it? We're exposed now. So much for keeping it light and pointless. We both know that there's so much more that we have to talk about still and what's worse is that we want to talk about it.
You ended up not taking me to the prom and not going to my graduation and leaving again without saying goodbye.
I'm sorry. I fucked up. Yet again. Just another Jess Mariano screw-up. She should be used to it by now but I could hear her, pouring her heart out, screwing with my head and there's that sinking feeling in my gut. I've disappointed her again, like I've disappointed everyone else.
I liked it when nothing mattered, when no one cared if I screwed up, when no one was proud of me or dependant on me. She had Dean. She was fine. If I hadn't walked into her life, she'd have gone to the prom, her boyfriend would have been at her graduation…mentioned in her valedictorian speech. I made sure she was ok. She wouldn't have been in a car accident.
I'm sorry. I fucked up. But so did you.
I don't deserve this Rory!
It's ok for you, all those people who love you, who'll care for you when your heart is broken. What have I got? I've had my heart ripped out by you. Who's gonna fix me, huh?
But every cloud's got a silver lining, right? Something that makes all the crap worthwhile?
I just can't see it right now.