Chapter 4

That night we shared our first kiss. It was everything I hoped it could be. Tender, soft. Her lips were the softer I ever touched. Wet, with a sense of strawberry from her lipgloss. We kissed and kissed until we

broke apart to catch our breaths and to understand what happened. Ashley was the first who talked.

"Spence?" I was completely lost

"Spence? Are you with me?"

"Yeah! Sorry I just had to feel that was real"

"It is real. You and me. Eh.. I know that we kissed.. but.. eh… how you feel about this?

I was so overwhelmed. She actually wanted an answer from me cause I didn't say anything. I just kissed her and she looked me kind of strange.

"Ash.. I loved you from the first time I lay my eyes on you. From the first time I heard your voice.. I didn't know what to do. You were with Mark and I didn't, I couldn't do anything about this. I didn't know if you

were feeling the same about me. So I compromised with myself and let it be. I'd rather have you as a friend as not as something else"

"Spence…"

And then she kissed me again. More passionately this time. She leaked my lip and wanted access to enter my mouth which of course had without asking. We kissed another minutes although for me was like ages.

We parted again for breath and to look to each other eyes. Blue met brown..

"Spence.. the night we met, you know.., it was the worst night I ever had. But at the same time the best. I met you. Although it was eventful. I met you. I didn't understand why but as the time passed and we

getting closer and closer I felt like home. It was warm. I liked you from the very first time I saw you. But my feelings were true and I couldn't understand why this beautiful girl makes my heart skip every time she

looks at me, every time she speaks to me, every time she touches me. I wasn't true to myself though. I knew I had to do something with Mark. I never loved him. I thought I liked him, but not love. And that's why

we had that fight over you. Because I told him I had feelings for you."

Oh my God, I couldn't believe that this gorgeous girl, my angel, let her heart open to me and told me all these things.

"So.."

"So.."

"What happens next?"

"I don't know. I just needed to see you, to touch you, to say that I love you, to kiss you"

"But what does this mean? Are we together now? You and me? Girlfriends to be?

"If you want to.." and she made a sad face. She thought that I didn't want to have her as a girlfriend? Silly Ashley..

"Of course I want to Ash. There's nothing else I want us to be right now. I wanted it way too long" and I kissed her again.

"Girlfriends?"

"Girlfriends"

"So is there anything you want to do girlfriend?

"Actually.. yes! I want to sleep because I have an early class tomorrow"

"Ah.. but why Spence? I can think something we can do."

"Ash.." She tried to get up and leave but I grabbed her hand and drew her on my bed

"What? You said you wanted to sleep"

"Yeah. But not without you. I want to feel you when I close my eyes and sleep"

"On second thought.. yeah! Why not. It's not that I can have my beautiful girlfriend cuddle with me every night"

"That's my baby"

"Goodnight Spence"

"Goodnight Ash"

"Have nice dreams"

"I'm sure I'll have. Lots of you"

And then we fell asleep, holding each other. I never thought that a single touch would make me so whole. But it wasn't a touch. It was her touch.

R&R

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