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I am so sorry for not updating sooner! Things have come up and I thought that I had added this chapter a while ago until I re read the story. Its not the best but I hope you like it!
Edward and Alice:
They continued to travel North for a full day without stopping. Neither of them had said anything since the attack. They were both being driven by the adrenaline. They were no longer the people who everyone thought them to be - they were animals.
After they fed on the humans Edward had left them in clear sight, he wanted them to be found. He knew that there was a good chance that someone from his family would find them while they were hunting, they'd be attracted towards the scent.
Once they had crossed the Canadian border and then travelled up into Alaska they took a break. Alice settled herself onto a large rock that faced the sea. As she stared out into the open waters a vision came to her at last. Carlisle was tracking them - he was going to bring them back home. After seeing this Alice quickly thought about other things in deep concentration. She hoped Edward had not seen the vision - he would take her and go where Carlisle couldn't find them.
Soon her thoughts drifted back to Carlisle, she knew that he was going to find the bodies. She knew how disappointed he would be in the two of them and it broke her heart. She hoped that he would forgive them for it and not hold it against them. A wave of disgust washed over her - she shouldn't have done that, they were innocent people who probably had families waiting for them.
Edward had similar feelings. The adrenaline had faded and he could finally think rationally again. He was angry with himself - disgusted that he could lose his control like that. Carlisle was like a father to him, and Edward was like his first child. He had broken what they had for so long. His thoughts eventually worked themselves over to Bella and Renesmee. He knew that Bella loved him more than anything in the world. She didn't deserve this, not after what he put her through when he left the last time.
Edwards thoughts were interrupted my Alice's vision. Carlisle was definitely on a path for them and would reach them in a day or two. Edward got up and found Alice. "We're leaving, we'll head East, then South. We can't let him find us."
"No, I'm staying right here Edward. I don't know about you but I want to go home. I want Jasper."
After she said that Edward had realized that they were living a lie together. They had never really loved each other - it was just a crazy fantasy. The bond they had was more of a friendship than a romance and when thinking about it the bond wasn't near as strong as his bond with Bella.
He could see that in her thoughts she wanted Jasper back, she wanted the life they had left behind back more than anything. She didn't care what Carlisle did to her when he found them - it would be better than living as nomads for the rest of their lives and better than eating humans.
"Fine then. You can stay and wait for Carlisle if you want. Just don't be surprised when he doesn't welcome you back with a warm smile."
"I never expected him to." Alice whispered back
"Tell him not to bother finding me, I can't go back there Alice."
"But he wants us back Edward!"
"He's more angry with me than he is with you. Knowing Carlisle for as long as I have he'll probably find forgiveness for you making a mistake. You were adopted into our family. I'm a whole other matter."
"Where are you going?"
"Away. Far away. Maybe I'll come back someday if I'm wanted, but not yet."
And with that Edward was gone. Alice was too overwhelmed from what had just happened to move. She was happy that Carlisle wanted them to come home, that he wanted to try and fix their family. So she sat alone on her rock and waited for Carlisle to come.
She hoped that Jasper would forgive her, he would be the only one that knew how bad she felt about the entire situation. They had been together for so long. The image of his face when he had caught them was burnt into her memory, she had never wanted to see him like that. She may not have loved him as much as he had loved her but she cared for him. She wanted to be with him more than anything else in the world.
She knew that she didn't deserve Jasper's love, after this she never would. The Jasper she knew would put on a charade and not show anyone how upset he was even though it would radiate off of him. Maybe if she talked to him he would want her back. For now these were only dreams of something much more than she had.
It was the middle of the night when she heard footsteps approaching her. When she sniffed she smelt a familiar smell, it was Carlisle. She was nervous about how he would react once he found her since she had only seen him leaving to find them. She had wanted him to find her but she knew he had most likely seen the bodies. She sat and stared straight ahead at the sea, too scared to turn around.
"Alice."
She knew that tone, he wasn't angry with her. She turned around and saw him standing about 15 feet away from her. Instinctively she ran to him and hugged him before bursting into tearless sobs.
"I'm so sorry Carlisle," she sobbed "We weren't thinking."
"It's going to be okay Alice. I know it was an accident."
For several minutes he stood there and held her, he had expected to find two hostile vampires after seeing those bodies. He knew that Alice was sorry about it and he wasn't prepared for how upset she was going to be. After Alice had cried it out she let go of Carlisle. A million questions ran through her head but there was only one important one. "How's Jasper doing?"
"Better than I had thought. He's starting to come around again."
"Do you think he will forgive me Carlisle?"
"He's in a lot of pain Alice, it's certainly possible though. Where is Edward?"
"He left Carlisle, he wanted me to go with him but I couldn't. He doesn't want you to find him –" Alice broke off and dropped into a heap on the ground.
"Come on now Alice. Everyone's waiting for us to get back to the house."
"They wanted us back?"
"It's the only reason I came to get you guys - things just aren't the same without you. You're part of our family."
Alice felt a surge of relief come over her, they wanted her back. But what about Jasper? Did he want her back? She did not know what to expect when she got back home, her and Jasper had never gone through something like this before. She knew he loved her and he would do anything for her but she didn't know if he wanted her back after she hurt him.
Carlisle had decided it was best not to go after Edward. If he had made Alice go home alone then she might of had a hostile greeting without him there. Besides, if Edward did not want to be a part of their family then he had the right to leave. This was not over though, Carlisle knew Edward wasn't thinking straight, he wasn't himself.
The pair ran in complete silence. Carlisle was sure to hold onto Alice's hand while they ran to make sure they both made it back. As they reached the tree line Carlisle slowed to a stop so he could talk to Alice.
"Now Alice, we're going to have to go inside. Are you ready for this?"
Alice felt as if she had a bullfrog down her throat and could not speak. She nodded to him.
"Don't worry about what they are going to say. All you have to do is stay behind me and I will talk to them for you. Now come one, I'm sure they're waiting for us."
Carlisle grabbed her arm and walked with her slowly to the front of the house. He could not imagine how difficult it must be for her to do this. He knew that she needed her time to collect her thoughts and it would be hard to do that in a room full of people you have just hurt. He sensed how scared she was which made him want to protect her. He would talk on Alice's behalf until she was ready to say something.
Alice now faced the front door of her own home and she was terrified. A million scenarios ran through her head on everything that could possibly happen when she walked through the door, most of them involved her decapitation. She wasn't even going to get a vision to calm her down since she couldn't decide on what she was going to do. It was tempting to break free of Carlisle's grip and make a run for it but he would probably catch her again anyways.
Carlisle's voice brought her out of her panic.
"Here we go Alice."
She watched as his hand slowly reached down to the doorknob and turned it. It seemed like forever until she heard the door click open and had the familiar smell come rushing through the opening and surrounding her.