Dreams
Chapter Three: Planning a Wedding and Family
We are trying again. Alice has dug up our old planning. I don't think she ever put it up, just put it aside. Edward and I have finally set a date. It excited me so much I drove over to my brothers the day after we decided and told him the exciting news. He is kind of still upset with Edward because he had me upset in the first place and made me call off the engagement. He isn't as mad anymore though.
The date that we set is December third. I love that we are going to have a winter wedding. The flowers are going to have to be flown in though, because we are doing it in the middle of the winter. We are also putting a fake snow paint on all of the flowers. I saw it online and it just made me fall in love with it.
I have now decided on my maid of honor and brides maids are. The maid of honor is officially my best friend, Stephanie, who's daughter is my flower girl. She is so cute in her little dress. The my first brides maid is Alice, of course she accepted me before I even accepted everyone, including Edward. My other bridesmaid is going to be my step-daughter, she insisted I call her that, Renesmee. It makes me so happy to see how she has accepted me fully. If it wasn't for her, Edward and I would have never made it.
Bella disappeared from the house. Esme said that she will be back when we go on our honeymoon. She doesn't want to be here during the festivities because it hurts to much to know that Edward is moving on from her. I understood that she is heart broken and so I didn't ask anything else, or even try to contact to get her to come. I set her up a seat for her at the family table if she ever shows up.
My parents, I had invited. the first reason is because I will always love my mama, it doesn't matter if she got back with the man who didn't claim me as his, or who hit her. I still love her. The second reason is, even though he didn't claim to others, to my face he did and I want someone to hand me over to Edward, as well as have the father daughter dance with. He can claim to not be my father any other day except that day, my wedding day.
I looked at all of our plans, everything seems to be in check except I don't have my dress yet. I looked at many dresses and none of them was what I wanted. Me and my wedding party have decided that we are going to go and look at more places for my dress. Alice acts like she doesn't care while we are at the stores. It makes me suspicious because she loves shopping. I look at her and ask, "Alice why do act like you don't care about my wedding dress, are you getting tired of planning weddings." Alice smirked at me and said, "of course not, I love weddings, but I will not tell you why." I rolled my eyes at her and said, "fine well I give up until you tell me what is going on, I will not be going shopping anymore."
Alice rolled her eyes and walked off. I thought that was weird, I could have sworn that she would have thrown a fit to that suggestion. A moment later she came back in the room with a sketch book in her hands. She opened it up so I can see it. It was a beautiful dress. It had lots of beads on it. It was a cut that went very low down my chest. I knew Edward would love to see that, maybe just him though. It didn't have a back though which sometimes got aggrieving because when Alice likes to dress me, she likes showing a lot of skin.
I rolled my eyes at her and said, "that is beautiful, why didn't you just show it to me." She smirked and said, "then I would miss all of the shopping trips." I laughed at her and looked at our checklist. She then said, "we just have to finalize the decorations, I will take care of it though."
I was excited I knew that we were going to have a beautiful wedding. I then got the chills thinking about the honeymoon. I begged Edward to take me to Paris, but he told me that he will take me when I have turned. I tried to play the card where he said, he would give me any experience I want. He then went on about how it was dangerous because I am human, and therefore am not supposed to know about him. He explained the people trying to kill the whole family because they thought we were breaking a rule that was made to protect their secret.
I tried to argue that he took Bella somewhere in the general location but he told me, "they already new about Bella." He told me that his family breaking the rules once is bad but if they find out that they did it again it will be unforgivable. He also told me that it doesn't help that we don't have an idea of when we want to change me. I know I want to be changed but I don't know when, I want all of my dreams.
I also thought it was funny that I am "older" than Edward. I will keep ageing, for a while at least but he never will. I think he likes the idea of me staying like this, because Bella wouldn't. I am excited for everything to go through. I want the wedding, the family, everything, and I'm getting it.
We are now finished with all of our planning and the wedding is in two weeks. I looked at Alice and asked, "do you think I will survive?" She looked at me confused for a second then looked at me a little glumly. She then said, "I will not tell you no but would it really be that bad to be a vampire instead of a human?" I laughed at her being a vampire is not why I want to post-pone this.
I looked at Alice and said, "I don't have a thing against vampirism, I want a family, I want two children or more, not one, not none. I always had this perfect family in mind. I also don't want to miss that much of my baby's life either when we do decided to have children." Alice smiled at me and said, "so you do want a family, I never thought about trying to have more than one, it is very dangerous the first time, and then we have to think about the damage that your body will take from the delivery."
I frowned, that isn't what I wanted to hear but she is right. I looked at Alice and asked, "so I shouldn't try more than once." Alice smiled at me and said, "that is you and Edward's decision." I smiled and was excited to start a new family and my wedding.