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The evening was tense at Esposito's apartment, when Kevin and Javier found themselves, for the first time after the incident with Liam, alone. Kevin was in the kitchen trying to make something for them to eat, while Javier went around the apartment making sure all the windows were locked.
When he came back Kevin just finished making eggs and bacon for them, while taking toasts out of the toaster. He fixed each of them a plate and put it down on the kitchen table "I know it's more breakfast than dinner, but… it's all I found…" he said apologetically.
"It's OK" Javier answered quietly and they both sat down to eat in silence.
When they were done eating Javier took the plates to the sink while Kevin made his way to the couch. He sat down, but didn't turn the TV on. Javier came and sat on the other side of the couch and Kevin couldn't help but cringe at the distance Javier put between them.
"Javi" he started to say, but Javier raised his hand stopping him.
"I meant the kiss Kevin" he looked at him directly and Kevin wanted nothing more than to look away, but couldn't avert his gaze from Javier's brown honest eyes. "It's been building for a while now and I don't know how you feel or what you're thinking… but I meant that" he looked openly at Kevin, waiting for his reply.
"Javi… I…" Kevin started, but didn't know how to continue. He looked down at the floor, tried to take a couple of deep breaths and closed his eyes, trying to sort through his thoughts. "I wasn't imagining those few months, was I?" he looked up at Javier.
Javier could only shake his head 'no'. He didn't trust his voice at the moment. He had no idea what Kevin was thinking and that scared him. He usually could tell what his partner was feeling or thinking, but right now, it was a totally unfamiliar ground and he didn't know if he should say something or just wait for Kevin.
"Look Javi" Kevin started turning to face his Hispanic partner "I meant that too, but I… with everything that's going on right now, I don't know if I can get myself emotionally invested in something like that right now" he said quietly and Javier was sure he heard sadness in his voice.
"Kev, I don't want to lose you" Javier said and grabbed Kevin's hand "If you don't want that, if you're not ready, I'm still going to be your friend. Your friendship means everything to me" Javier finished softly, squeezing Kevin's hand.
Kevin didn't look away from his partner. He needed to make him understand "That's not..." he started "I'm just saying… let's take that slow OK? I don't know what I'll do if I'll lose you Javi" he could feel his eyes starting to water. It's been a while since he felt so safe and comfortable with a person that wasn't one of his sisters. The fact that Javier knew the truth about him, even if not the whole truth, but the important stuff where out there, and the fact that he was still there and wanted to even deepen their relationship overwhelmed him.
"Hey, Kev, it's OK" Javier moved closer and wrapped both his arms around his younger partner "Whatever you need, we'll do, OK? And I'm not going anywhere".
He could feel Kevin's nod against his chest. They stayed like that for a few minutes, until Kevin raised his head and looked deeply into Javier's eyes. He could feel himself leaning in, saw Javier doing the same and within seconds could feel Javier's lips on his. His hands moved automatically to grab Javier's shoulder and neck. Javier moved his hand to rest it on Kevin's chest and used the other one to balance himself, while putting it on the back of the couch. Javier's body heat was sending shivers down Kevin's spine and his tongue was granted access to his mouth. He grabbed Javier by the shoulders and pulled him closer. Javier moved himself to Kevin, helping the younger man to lie down on the couch. They made their best attempt at not breaking the kiss and somehow managed to do that while finding themselves lying on top of each other.
They kept on kissing for a few more minutes. Hands wondering everywhere they could reach, they both could feel the excitement of the other. They were out of breath, but neither wanted to stop. Javier moved his right hand under Kevin's shirt, wanting to feel his skin under his fingers "Kevin" he whispered. Kevin held his breath, while Javier's hand wondered south, His own hand moving under Javier's shirt, feeling the muscles in his back "Kevin", Javier whispered again.
Suddenly he felt Javier pulling away. The look of confusion and hurt that was shining through his blue eyes made Javier's heart ache "We said slow" he smiled down at his pouting partner.
Kevin nodded his head, both of them trying to calm their breathing "look, it's late, we had a long day and tomorrow will probably won't be any easier, why not just go to bed" Javier said softly, not able to look anywhere else but at Kevin's blue eyes.
The mischievous look that appeared on Kevin's face made Javier chuckle "To actually sleep, not to have sex" he said slowly and there was that pout again. Javier kissed his partner slowly, not letting it get anywhere else than a simple kiss to reassure both of them of the events that happened that night. He got up and reached out his hand to help Kevin to his feet. They made their way to the bed in Javier's bedroom, leaving the guestroom unattended for the night.
They stopped at their favorite coffee shop on their way to the precinct the next morning. Things were comfortable after last night. Although nothing more than kisses happened, somehow Kevin felt closer to Javier, if that was even possible. They decided that they won't make a big deal out of it. If someone will ask them, they won't deny it, but they aren't going to tell everyone straight away.
They decided to make their way to work by foot, it was a nice morning and since they got up a bit early they had the time. Their conversation was light and when Kevin laughed at something Javier was saying, Javier couldn't imagine a better sound than that. They used a short cut they found a few months back and when Javier noticed they were all alone and not visible from the street he grabbed Kevin and pushed him against the wall. Kevin's look was priceless, the shock and passion in his eyes, just turned Javier even more on. He grabbed Kevin's face with both hands and kissed him. Kevin's hands found their way to Javier's waist and he pulled him closer.
"Javi" Kevin said, out of breath.
Javier moved to kiss his neck, his hands wondering down his chest and stomach.
"Javi, we'll be late" Kevin tried again, this time instead of pulling Javier closer he tried to push him away slightly.
"I know, I know" Javier said resting his forehead on Kevin's and resting his hands on his hips.
"Tonight bro, I promise" Kevin whispered, before Javier moved away from him and they resumed their walk.
Just when they were about to exit the alley there was a shuffle behind them and an all too familiar voice to Kevin's ears "Well well, I thought Liam was messing with me". Yes, that was definitely Bobby S's voice.
Kevin and Javier turned around and found out they were facing not just Bobby, but also Liam, Kean and 3 more guys Kevin didn't recognize.
"Hey Bobby" Kevin answered, trying to sound as calm as possible, but Javier could hear the slight tremble in his voice and the panic he was trying to hide. He took a step to the left, getting closer to his partner.
The three guys Kevin didn't recognize pulled out their guns and aimed it towards the two detectives. When Javier went to reach for his own piece it was Bobby's voice that stopped him "I wouldn't do it if I were you" his voice was calm and he kept looking straight at Kevin.
"What do you want Bobby?" Kevin asked, not breaking eye contact.
"That's a good question Fenton, I think my answer depends on what it is you want".
Kevin shrugged his shoulders, not bothering correcting him "I don't want anything from you Bobby".
Liam and Kean's laughter made Esposito's stomach turn. They both took a couple of steps forwards, the 3 other guys right behind them.
"Look Bobby" Kevin tried to keep things from escalating "I don't want anything from any of you, I'm just doing my job"
"Your father would have been so proud" Bobby's voice was filled with venom and sarcasm "It wasn't enough that you ran, but you became a cop? Just for that Fenton you deserve what's been long time coming" he finished and with a slight nod of his head the other five men in the alley were suddenly all around Kevin and Javier.
Liam lunged himself at Kevin, but he managed to bend over and lend a punch to the bigger man stomach. One of the guys he didn't know grabbed him in the waist and tackled him to the pavement. He could feel his head connecting with the floor and things around him became blurry. He blinked a few times, trying to get things in to focus, but just as he was about to get up, a kick in the chest knocked the air out of him. He found himself on his hands and knees, grabbing his chest. Another kick to his stomach made him lose balance. When the third kick came he was ready and grabbed Liam's leg with both hands and tried to pull as hard as he could, making him lose balance, but the kick to the head that came from behind made him made his lose the hold and he could feel blood trickling on his face. This time the dizziness got worse. He tried to listen to the people around him, tried to figure out Javi's voice out of all the voices above him, but it was getting harder. He felt himself being grabbed by the shirt, felt himself being pulled up, but as soon as that happened, he could feel his head being connected again with the pavement. This time there was no voices around him and no dizziness just darkness. The last thought that went through his head was that maybe Javi managed to do some more damage to Bobby's men.
Javier knew that if he just as much as try to look towards Kevin, he was doomed. He kept his focus, he knew Kevin could take care of himself and the best thing he could do right now was face his 3 attackers. He decided to not wait for them and threw the first punch. It connected with the guy's nose that stood to his left, which gave Kean an opportunity to hit him on the head with the butt of his gun. Javier felt himself falling to his knees. It made him dizzy and unfocused and before he could do anything else a kick to his face sent him crumbling to the floor, blood flowing from his nose and darkness surrounding him.