A/N: First off, thank you for all the alerts and reviews! You're really amazing!
Secondly, I have not forgotten about 'Lost Along the Way' I just want the ending to be perfect, if possible [x
So I cannot guarantee it will be up by Monday night.
This story seems to be flowing out quite quickly.
I'm not encouraging any Cori, except for the friendship (;
Don't hate Jade, she has her reasons.
I'll shut up now. Enjoy!
I don't own Victorious. }:
The dark room looked like a storm had just hit. Clothes were everywhere, furniture was turned over and there were pieces of unknown glasses scattered all around the floor. No matter what she did, Jade couldn't seem to control her anger. She lay across the undone bed staring at the blinding white ceiling trying to avoid her own thoughts.
The brown haired girl really drove her crazy. The way she fixed her stupid hair and that stupid but adorable smile, and the stupid little laugh she let out when she was nervous. Jade bit her lip. The sad look in the brown eyes before she took off... It wasn't right. It didn't belong in those eyes.
Jade huffed and turned on the radio in her pear phone. She skipped the first two songs annoyed by the constant repetition of them at school. She bit her tongue when the next song began to play. Stupid app wouldn't let her skip the damn song.
So close, a perfect start,
So undeniable
Fallen apart
"Why won't you change?" She tried shaking the phone in attempt to shuffle the music.
So right from wrong
So beautiful
Truly defining
So hard to let go
"Damn it!"
She's always knocking door into my thoughts
Jade quickly wiped away the tears that blurred her vision, shaking the object violently.
I don't wanna love her
I don't want her in my life
I don't want her near me
But she's so deep inside
Giving up she threw the phone across the room and turned over on the bed to face the wall. Cat was right, as much as she hated to admit it, the red head had a point. Jade didn't know how much more she could take this. She wasn't trying to do anything. She was just being herself and the half-Latina was making it difficult to be anything but nice.
"You really don't have a heart, do you?" The words echoed in the Goth's head. She sat up and pushed the hair out of her face sighing. "You don't know how much this hurts me, Tori," she whispered. For crying out loud, Jade! Why are you being so damn hard headed? She screamed in her head.
"Because I don't deserve it! I don't fucking deserve it!" she growled at herself, kicking the wall.
"What don't you deserve?" asked the soft voice.
The Goth turned around startled at the familiar voice. She quickly composed herself and stood facing the tan girl who was standing by the doorframe. "What are you doing here?" the pale girl snapped.
The brown eyes scanned the nearly destroyed room before meeting the angry looking blue eyes. "I just wanted to stop by and talk." She lifted rubbed the back of her neck nervously.
"Well you stopped and you talked. You know the way out," she nodded to the door and began to turn away.
"Jade," Tori took a step closer to the Goth.
"What? What now, Tori?" Jade demanded, facing the girl again.
"We need to talk about…" she paused trying her best to stay intact. She chewed on her lip and fidgeted with the pocket on her jeans.
Jade knitted her brows. She stepped closer to the girl, barely allowing any space between them. "Say it, Tori." She pronounced every vowel in the girl's name slowly. "We need to talk about..." She raised a brow staring at the girl with cold blue eyes.
Tori inhaled a sharp breath. "We need to talk about us," she managed. Her back was now leaning against the wall as she tried to distant herself from the girl.
"Well that wasn't so hard," the Goth said the mocking voice the tan girl disliked so much.
Tori clenched her jaw. "Jade, please! We need to talk about us. I told you I lo-"
"No," Jade growled slamming her fist against the wall close to the brunette's head. "No! Quit saying that!"
The half-Latina flinched and shut her eyes. "I can't! I just can't, Jade!" She slowly opened her eyes and looked at the dark haired girl who had her forehead pressed against the tan shoulder her.
Jade was trying not to let the girl see how much those words affect her. She didn't want to infuse fear into the brunette. It was the last thing she wanted to do, but those were her only instincts. Keep it together, Jade, she told herself.
"Jade," the tan girl whispered cupping the pale face and raising it to look into the blue eyes. "Please, tell me what I did wrong. Why are you treating me like this?"
The pale looked into the brown eyes. She wanted to scream at the girl, beg her to leave her alone. But she found her body had other plans as one of her hands reached under the tan chin. Her thumb brushed underneath the girl's bottom lip. "Tori," she whispered, her lips barely hovering over the Latina's. She searched in the brown eyes and remembered why she was doing this. "How many times do we have to have this conversation? I don't want you."
The brown eyes glanced between the rosy lips and blue eyes. "If you didn't want me we wouldn't be doing this right now," Tori whispered.
Jade fought back the urge to break down and admit to the girl she was right. She just couldn't do it though. She had her reasons. She just couldn't risk it. The pale girl's lips hovered over the brunette's before they retreated. She stepped back, the cold mask back in the blue eyes. "Maybe I just wanted to have a little fun with you."
Tori knitted her brows. "For six months? You can't tell me you didn't feel a single thing during those six months."
A cold smirk appeared on the pale girl's lip. "I was just messing with you, Vega. I was bored and figured, 'why not, should be fun.' And it was. Now the fun is over. Do you understand? We're done. I'mdone. Quit trying to fix something that was never broken to begin with." She nearly sneered the last words as she looked into the watering brown eyes.
Tori set her jaw. She turned away from the raven haired girl. "I don't believe for a second that it meant nothing to you, Jade." Her voice was small as she stood by the door. "Maybe it meant nothing to you, but to me it meant the world to me." Tori faced the girl once more and let out a hurt laugh. "I guess I was stupid enough to for allowing myself to think for a second that I could love and be loved in return." Broken brown eyes met angry blue. "It was silly of me to think you could fall in love with someone like me." She smiled sadly and closed the door behind her leaving the pale girl alone.
Jade's jaw dropped open. Her hand had twitched in desire to reach for the girl. She had wanted to stop the broken hearted girl from walking away. More than anything she wanted to take the girl into her arms to hold her while she whispered mending words, true words, and real words.
All the girl could do now was stare at the empty space where the girl she desperately need had stood. It felt like the burning in her chest was getting worse. The more she hurt Tori, the worst the aching grew. How long was she going to continue this? Could she really handle pushing the one person who really cared for her away? Jade walked over to the drawer and looked at the picture. This was all wrong. It wasn't right at all. Those brown eyes needed to be lit again. She held the picture to her chest and fell to the floor sobbing. "I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm so sorry." The room was quiet with only the small echo of the three words the Goth whispered to herself. "I love you."
So?
Hate?
Love?
Whatcha think?
I kinda have an idea where I'm going with this...
What do you want to happen next?
Oh! The song lyrics I used were from a the song, "I don't Wanna Love Her," by Brinck
I thought it fit. ^_^
You know what to do!