A lot has happened in the last couple. First of all, I cant even believe i'm a full blown New Yorker. After moving in with Quinn i decided that i didn't want to give up school and i felt even though i hated being in Louisville I still wanted to continue my education but decided to change my major from Law to Music Production and Recording. At first when I told my parents of my intentions they went ape shit but after a couple months of the silent treatment they warmed up to the idea and encouraged me to go after what i wanted. That fall i enrolled in NYU with Quinn and began my studies. I spent a lot of time with Quinn, Rachel and Kurt. We had made a rule that no matter how busy we were we would always set a day in the week to hang out and catch up. We spoke about school, gossip and our love lives. After a couple of successful dates I was able to officially add one more person to our group outings: Emily.

In case you're wondering Em and I completely hit it off after we met that night in "Islas". She was also a student in NYU and originally from California. She was majoring in International Business and was probably the most school spirited person i had ever met. She was captain of NYU's swim team and soccer team not to mention President of the Future Business Leaders of America Society. She was the girl every guy wanted to date and every girl envied. Even though her popularity portrayed her as a heart breaker she was the last thing from it. Em made me feel like I was the only girl in the world sometimes. She was so attentive and loving and always managed to put a smile on my face. After our 3rd date she asked me out and even though the minute she asked me i couldn't help but think of Brittany i said yes. Emily slowly helped me mend my broken heart with her kindness and love. Im not going to sit here and say it was all rainbows and sunshine with her cause lets me honest have you met me? We have had our share of fights due to jealousy or random things but she always managed to find a way to make it better. What i liked about her was that she remembered every single detail like such as the first day she walked me to class as her official "girlfriend" or the time she first made me smile. She also had a way of showing her love in the most cutest ways possible for example, staying up all night and helping me edit my music piece for my final (even though she had no idea what she was doing she stood by my side) or when she scored the winning goal at the women's soccer championship game and ran to the bleachers to crash her lips against mine. Slowly but surely she began winning over my heart but no matter how much i tried to think otherwise i knew way deep down inside part of it would always belong to Brittany. After about a year and a half of dating we decided to take our relationship and move in together and decided to look for an apartment close to Quinn that way i would always be able to hang out with her. Quinn insisted on me staying with her apartment keys for when i ever wanted to visit her. I did tell her i could always knock but she gave me the Fabray look that told me it was better just to take the key and shut the hell up. Even though at the moment I teased her for being so mushy I secretly felt the same way. I had grown so close to Q that i considered her my sister, along with her Rachel,Kurt and my parents were the only ones i had managed to keep in contact with after high school. I decided to completely cut off Britt after i had heard her relationship with Sam was still going strong and they had both gotten accepting into UCLA. Even though it completely killed me to ignore all of Britt's text messages and phone calls it hurt even more to know she was still with him and he was the one lucky enough to be by her side. So i made the decision to avoid anything that involved her, I specifically told everyone that i didnt want to know anything about Lima. That way i was able to avoid the torture of knowing how happy trouty made Britt.

Years passed, and we all graduated. Rachel and Kurt graduated NYADA and began they journey on becoming famous on the Broadway stage, Quinn graduated valedictorian of our class and moved on to be the youngest partner in one of the most prestigious law firms in New York. During the last year of college Emily was interning with Lacoste export/import department and after graduating she was hired right away. As for me, i graduated and began working with Sapphire Records in New York. I have to admit even though i initially moved to New York to become a singer being able to be in the music business was a dream come true. I loved meeting new artists and producing mind-blowing tracks with them. I got my big break one of the songs i had written and produced made iTunes top 10 and managed to stay for 4 months. Within a year of being in the company i moved up to Assistant Producer and couldn't be happier. Life was great, I had the perfect job, the perfect friends and not to mention the perfect girl... but for some reason something was missing...

PRESENT DAY- January

" babe im home!" I yelled as i dropped my purse on the couch and took off my heels. I sat in the couch and rubbed my feet cause spending the last 10 hours on my feet really numbed them out.

" Im in the kitchen" i heard Emily say. I got up and walked over to the kitchen and saw her standing over the counter and chopping some vegetables which i figured was to make stir fry cause she knew it was my favorite. I walked behind her and gently put my hands on her waist and nuzzled my face to her neck and kissed her lightly. Emily chuckled at the gesture and dropped the knife she was using to turn around in my embrace and kiss me softly on the lips. I smiled into the kiss and i let go of her waist to cup her cheeks to intensify the kiss. I I moaned into her lips as i gently sucked on her bottom lip and nibbled on it as i let it go. Em's hands were grabbing on to my hips as she broke the kiss and started to make her way to my neck. She pressed soft kisses from my ear to my neck and slowly began sucking on my pulse point which made me push my hips against hers. She lifted her head to look at me lovingly in the eyes before planting a soft peck to my lips and turning around to finish cutting the veggies.

"babe, dont go. Other than cooking like a boss i have no idea what im going to do with out you for the next 6 months" i said as i shoveled another mouthful of delicious stir fry and closed my eyes in satisfaction. Emily laughed as she sat across from me and stared at me with that adorable smile that made her dimples show.

"i dont know what im going to do with out you either, but its a once in a lifetime opportunity. Lacoste asked me to fly over to Italy and take care of their export/import department and if it goes well ill be promoted to head of the department here." she explained as she saw that i was beginning to pout " come on baby, its only for 6 months and we're going to talk every single chance i get and youll coming to visit me in March and well be able to spend some romantic nights in Rome" she said as she walked over to me and began kissing my cheek " and ride the gondolas. kiss on my temple. and visit the fountain of love. kiss on my forehead. have a candlelight dinner. kiss on my other cheek. and end the night with an amazing night of passion. full-blown kiss on my lips." I couldn't help but smile into the kiss. Damn this girl has game. Even though i was going to miss her like crazy i knew it wouldn't be right if i got all bratty and started a fight for nothing. "Either way babe Quinn is going to come be with you for a couple of days, and there's always take out. Just make sure you dont try cooking again, you almost blew the kitchen up" She chuckled as she made her way back to her seat. I couldnt help but burst into laughter at the memory Emily coming in frantically with the fire extinguisher to put out the fire. All i wanted to do was make cupcakes.

We finished our dinner and made ready ourselves to go to bed. Emily's taxi was going to pick her up at 5am and take her to Kennedy Airport. We brushed our teeth and went to bed. One of my favorite things was cuddling with Em. She was taller than me so i was always the smaller spoon just like when i cuddled with a certain blonde. Even though i perfectly fit into Britt's arms i never felt safer lying with Em. I knew she would never hurt me and she would always be by my side. I was beginning to mentally recite all the reasons why being with Emily was the right and safe choice and slowly drifting into a deep slumber.

I was awaken by a soft peck to my lips and when i woke up i saw Emily standing over me all dressed and ready to go. " i just wanted to make sure we got a proper goodbye before the taxi came" she said as she kissed me once again. I smiled and pulled her into a tight embrace and kissed her neck in short kisses. We made out until we heard a car beeping outside which told us the taxi had arrived. I got out of bed and walked her over to the door. We hugged again. "bye babe, ill miss you. ill call you as soon as i land. I love you Santana" she said as she tightened her arms around me

"Ditto" I said.

"you know one day you're going to end up saying those three little words to me, and the day you do im gonna post that on a calender and petition it to be a national holiday." she chuckled as she bent over to grab her suitcase. With one last peck to the lips she was gone.

I know what your thinking. I've been with Emily for almost 5 years and i still havent said those 3 words? It's not that i don't care about her cause i really do, it's just that saying you're in love makes everything more complicated. The last person i said i loved was Britt.. and we know how that ended up. I made my way back to bed because it was 445am and it was my day off and a girl needs her beauty sleep. Quinn was bound to arrive around 1pm to go out for lunch and to drop off her stuff because we had planned to alternate staying in each others apartments until Em came back. As I was slowly drifting off into sleep i was awaken by the door bell ringing and my phone vibrating at the same time. I glanced to my phone and saw it was a message from Quinn.

San, im so sorry! Q-

"Quinn, you better have a good reason for coming and knocking on my door at the crack of dawn." i yelled as i made my way to the door and flung it open without even bothering to wait before i was turning around and walking into the living room. I stopped when i didnt feel Quinn follow me and when i turned around i felt the blood being drained from my body. I felt like i couldnt breathe

" What are you doing here?" i managed to say before the room started to spin. I felt my knees go week and everything went black.