Ok guys im having serious writers block so if u guys have any ideas let me know

sublimely,

Sabby-san

~~~Kagome's Soul Chapter 4~~~

~~~Kagome's POV~~~

The sun is setin and Inu Yasha had left to "hunt". But I knew that he wouldn't be back to night. Sometimes I wondered what I ever did to Kami to have this happen to me. To see that man I love betray me over and over again.

Every night that he leaves me and I feel the need for pain. I wonder why?

So I give into the inevitable and tell the group that I am going for a walk. I grab my bag and head out. I walk far away enough that they wont hear me and Shippo wont smell my blood and I sit down.

As I sit there I think about what I'm about to do. I think why am I so weak? Why can't I stop what im doing to myself?

I pull out my blade and stare at It. It was perfectly silver, no hint of what his purpose was, what it had done. I slash It down my wrist and close my eyes as the numbness swept though me. I sighed in relief as all the days stress slipped away. All the insults that Inu Yasha had through at me buzzing in my head and the pain starts to fest again. So to block it I bring the blade back to my skin and slash. As the blood flows I look up to the sky and make a wish. "Please, If there is a Kami please help me. please..."

~~~Sesshoumaru POV~~~

*Grrrrrrrrrr That stupid bitch!!!!* Sesshoumaru leaned back in disbelief at the girl. That she would cry out to kami in her time of need. But then again she was a miko. His beast struggled to rip out if its cage and go to the girl in her time of need.

But as he sat there he looked at the book that lay so innocently in his lap and cracked it open to read more.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Kagome's Diary~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear Jeff,

Today is the day that I died. Well in truth today is the day that I tried to die.

To day I sat in the hot spring and I felt all my unrequited love crash around me

All of the pain I go through. And this terrible long.

A longing to be loved like InuYasha loves Kikyou. To be held like he holds her.

But I want to be held, loved, and cherished for who I am, not for who I look like.

But who would love me….

Me?

Just me…

So as I sat there, I stared at the water and I reach my decision.

I dunked under and try

To except the numbness of death as my lungs cry out for air.

But my attempt was to no avail. For as I was just reaching Death's door an arm retched me

Up and it was the concerned eyes of Sango that I saw.

"What where you doing Kagome?" she asked me. I looked at her "I was rinsing my hair." I lied.

She shrugged and let the matter drop the rest of our bath went as it normally would. Only later

As I lay in my sleeping bag would I let my tears fall.

Sincerely,

Just me.

I held the blade

; I put it to my wrist.

I want to forget everything that you said.

Like how you wanted her over me and lose all our precious memories.

I pull it across my skin as I stare.

Tears come streaming down my face.

Oh, how I loved you like no tomorrow. But your love faded away.

You stand there holding the hand of the woman you have always loved;

reading my tombstone that's covered in flowers saying that I died too young.

A little tear rolled down his cheek. Screaming filled the air. You say "I loved you, now your gone forever, wow this life isn't fair."

He holds up my blade; drops his head in shame. He wants to forget everything that he said...

~~~Sesshoumaru's POV~~~

I stared at the sky and contemplated what I had just read. In a split-second decision. I got up and not letting myself think about what I was about to do I marched towards my brothers camp. All the while telling myself that I was doing the right thing. But was I really, or was I just following in my father's footsteps.

~~~~~~FIN~~~~~

Stay toned for the next chapter.