A Love Lost 2: The sequel
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Chapter 4:
Trunks world began to turn upside down; seeing Pan that night at his sisters was a big shock and it sent waves through his entire body. He couldn't get her out of his head; she was plaguing him and he didn't want it, he didn't want her in his head.
The day she had left he was angry; he wanted to run and to the airport and tell her he was sorry and beg her to stay but his pride was in the way; he had been hurt one too many times. He began to withdraw from everything; his social life, his work, everything was deteriorating and he didn't care, all he wanted was her.
His mom tried to talk to him; tried to get him into some sort of therapy just so he had someone to talk to, but he of course refused. He called her a week after she had left; wanting to come to visit, needing to see her, to try and show her that they were meant to be; but she told him it wasn't a good time, that she was getting settled back in and trying to work through things with Austin.
That was the excuse the next three months he called. Always an excuse, always something going on, and he eventually gave up; stopped calling. It was too hard; she wanted nothing to do with him. His life was completely in the dumps; his entire life was gone again. Whenever his mom or sister would ask him about anything that involved the two of them he would instantly get pissed and leave the room; so no one asked any more. He never brought it up and not once spoke about the son he never got to see.
And then after two years of depression he pulled himself together. He got back to work, he began hanging out with his sister and Goten more, being involved with his niece and nephew and he started training again. He found a release through training, he was able to lose the anger and the sadness over time and he began to be himself once again.
Then it happened. He was at a board meeting and they broke for lunch. He walked to a little restaurant that was on the corner, two blocks from the main office and he met her. At first he didn't think he was ready to date but she told him they could go slow, and that was how it started until he realized he finally felt whole again.
Cynthia was 30 and she was a journalist and she was absolutely gorgeous; the plus to it all was she didn't have anything that reminded him of Pan. And before he realized it the slowness went out the window and they moved in together. They got an apartment in the middle of Satan City, close to both of their jobs and they began living their life's together. He never told her anything about his past life; never mentioned anything about the pain and hurt that Pan had caused him; he couldn't even find the strength to tell her he had a son that was growing up on the other side of the world.
And now as he lay in bed with his gorgeous girlfriend sound asleep next to him and she was all over his mind. His son, so grown up and only five who had no idea who he was, had no clue that his Dad was right in his face, he was still a nobody to him.
He sighed as he looked at the clock in the room, 2:36 A.M., he lay still for a few more seconds before getting out of bed, he couldn't sleep, not now anyways. He walked out of their bedroom, quietly shutting the door behind him; he didn't want her to start asking questions.
He knew he would eventually have to tell her about Pan; now that she was back he wasn't going to let her push him around anymore; he would see his son and if it came down to it a lawyer would get involved. He cringed at the thought of that; he really hoped she had changed for the better over the past five years; from what Bra told her Austin left her years ago and she never dated anyone else; it was just her and their son.
He walked into the dark kitchen and flipped on the small light that was over their sink. He looked out the window into the darkness; he could barely see the snowflakes that were falling. He stood looking into the dark abyss for fifteen minutes before letting out a deep breath and falling back into one of the kitchen chairs. He had to try and sort this out; he had to try and come up with a way to get her to meet with him so they could try and put their anger with each other to the side so he could try and form a relationship with his only son. He hated watching the way Goten was with his two kids and Gohan and Videl with their addition to the family; it made him sick inside and he needed that to stop.
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It had been exactly two months since Pan and Chase had moved home and now they were leaving again. She finally had saved up enough money for them to get back into their own place and had finally found a car too. Their lives were back on track; everything was going great.
Work flew by for her today, before she knew it, it was time for her to leave. She had been waiting for this day for the past week; she had been working non stop and some how managed to land herself three days off in a row. She went to her locker and grabbed her things before heading out to pick up Chase from Goten and Bra's; they had offered to pick him up from school today and she was happy to let them; her mom needed a break, even though she would never admit it.
Pan walked out of the building and climbed into her blue Corrolla. She started the car and dug her phone out of her purse she quickly dialed Bra's number and waited for an answer. The phone rang and rang and then went to her voice mail; she hung up and went to put her car in drive when her phone began to play her ringtone. She grabbed it and answered happy to hear her best friend's voice.
"Hey Bra," Pan said her voice was cheery, she was so happy to be out of work.
"Pan are you done with work already?"
"Yeah I was going to head over if your ready to lose a child," she smirked, "I mean unless you want to keep him for the rest of the weekend." She giggled as she heard Bra laugh on the other end.
"You know he is welcome anytime. He actually keeps my trouble maker out of trouble so I would be thrilled."
"Alright well I'm leaving now so I'll be there in 20," Pan said throwing her car in reverse and heading out of the parking garage.
"Actually we aren't at the house; we are at my parents so just come here. My mom asked me to bring them over."
Pan immediately felt uneasy. She hadn't been at the Capsule Corporation compound since the morning she left. The last time she was Bulma was not something she wanted to remember. She took a deep breath before speaking again, "Ok, I guess I'll see you in ten."
"Ok, but hey I want to warn you he's here. He's on the compound taking care of some paperwork in the international office, so heads up ok," Bra's voice was now low.
Pan cringed again, she hadn't seen him since their little party a while back, but what was the chance of running into him, Capsule Corp. was huge, the international building was all the way towards the back; "See you in a few." Both women shut their phones, letting the line go dead. Pan had millions of scenarios playing through her head; the one she was hoping for was get in get out with no contact, but knowing her luck that was doubtful. So she prepared for the worst, prepared to see him and maybe even his beautiful girlfriend too; she made sure her emotions were at ease, there would be no tears today.
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She parked her car in the driveway by the main house and sure enough his car was there. The same car she had seen him in the other day; the nerves in her stomach began to act up, that annoying nauseas feeling plagued her stomach.
She grabbed her phone and keys and got out of the car, heading towards the house, trying to move as quickly as she could so there was no chance of being spotted by anyone. But she stopped when she saw the lavender hair man coming through the front door, shutting the door behind him. The smile he was wearing on his face immediately disappeared when he saw her and now the bile was creeping up into her throat.
She watched as he continued to walk forward, right towards her; she froze. The scenarios in her head had covered this; but the things she was supposed to say didn't come out. Instead she stood in complete silence, hoping he would just walk by.
"Hey," he said quietly as he approached her.
"Hey," she responded quickly.
"What are you doing here," he asked, his voice sounded angry; she met his eyes and could tell he was holding back his emotions.
"Chase, I was going to pick him up," she answered quickly, keeping the conversation short.
"He's having fun in there, he's not going to want to leave," Trunks said letting a small smile play on his lips.
"He always has fun when he's with his cousins," Pan countered, "But I better get in there before he wants to spend the night." She forced a smile out, "Bye." He watched as she walked past him, his nose caught her intoxicating scent; the scent he used to have all over him and he wanted to reach out and grab her and hug her. He wanted to feel her body pressed up against his, but he knew he couldn't; those thoughts were wrong for him to be having.
"Pan," he yelled before she made it to the house. He watched as she turned around; he could see the tear stains that were no evident on her pale cheeks. He jogged over to where she stopped and ran a few things through his brain before speaking. "I don't know what you want to do, and I don't want to start any problems, but now that you're back and my son is here I want to see him and I want him to know who I am."
Pan looked at him confused; he was really bringing this up right here, right now in the middle of Capsule Corp. He couldn't have called and said something to her over the phone; he had to do it right now? "I don't know Trunks, I don't know if he's ready. We just got settled in to our new place, and he is still adjusting to having a family."
Trunks couldn't believe her, she was really saying that the time wasn't right? The time wasn't right for him to have a relationship with his son? "Are you kidding me," he asked shocked, "Are you listening to yourself?"
"What do you want me to say Trunks," Pan said her voice raising, it was beginning to get unstable, cracking as she spoke.
"Do you know what you coming home has done to me Pan? I have been torn up inside, I haven't been able to sleep, I can't stop thinking about you and him; I haven't thought about you in years Pan because it hurt so bad, I pushed you out of my life and when I finally have everything back, everything going smooth you come back; its like you knew you things were going good for me for once and you have to make your presence to shoot me back down; to rub it in my face that you are ok, that you have moved on, that you could give a fuck about me."
Pan began to feel the wetness on her cheeks once more, she didn't want him to feel that way; she didn't want him to resent her as much as he did. She listened as he spoke; as he let all the anger that he had been holding in out. She didn't speak, just listened; he obviously needed to get it off of his chest.
"What am I supposed to do now Pan, tell me? What the fuck do you want from me? I am asking you to have a relationship with my son, with my flesh and blood and you don't think it's a good time? Well I don't think that it's a good time for you to be here, I don't think it's a good time for you to come back. Why don't you take off again huh, run back to America, go find Austin, oh no, he left you right?"
Pan swallowed hard; his words were cutting her deep. "I'm sorry," she said softly letting her gaze fall to the ground. "I'm sorry for everything. I can't take it back Trunks, I wish I could but I can't. I don't want to make your life miserable I just don't think that I'm ready." She let out a sigh and looked up to meet his eyes, she could see tears on the verge of falling but he was holding strong. "Do you think this has been easy for me? Coming back here, having to face all of the people that I left behind, that I turned my back on? I have been a wreck Trunks, if it wasn't for work and Chase I would have probably been admitted to a psycho ward because I would be crying non stop because all I can think about are the wrongs I have done; the bull shit I put everyone through, I just," she shook her head, "I love you Trunks and you were right all along, I wasn't following my heart."
She watched now as his face turned to stone, as the tears in his eyes disappeared and were replaced with flames. "Take that back Pan, take that back right now. If you think that's what I want to hear you are fucking wrong, that is the last thing I want to hear out of your mouth."
"I'm sorry your highness, I take that back; I just thought you should know that you were fucking right, that I was the stupid one, that this is all my fucking fault ok, I am sorry," she yelled at him before turning and heading towards the house, she hadn't even realized how cold she was.
Trunks ran to catch up with her, spinning her around and looking into her eyes, "Don't say those words to me ever again you hear me, I don't want to hear that come out of your mouth again, it fucks me up Pan, it makes my heart go insane; I told you over and over again but you refused to listen. You chose to leave, you chose to push me away, and I'm not doing this anymore. I want to see my son, I want him in my life and I'm not taking no for an answer, so meet me half way or my lawyers will be involved."
"Son?" Both of them snapped their heads around to find Cynthia standing in the now open door. She looked to Pan who had tears falling from her eyes and then down to Trunks' hand gripped around the woman's wrist. "Is there something that I'm missing here," she asked trying to make sense of the scene in front of her. No one spoke, they were both frozen; "Somebody needs to tell me what the fuck is going on. Why are you making this girl cry and what is this talk about a son," she directed her death glare to Trunks who looked like a deer in headlights.
Pan quickly pulled her wrist free and wiped the tears from her eyes. She tried to calm herself down but turned her gaze to back to Trunks' and put her hands on her hips. "You never told your girlfriend that you have a son," she asked confused?
"What," Cynthia squealed, "You have a kid and you didn't tell me?" Trunks immediately shot Pan a dirty glare before turning back to his very upset girlfriend.
"I can explain," Trunks said looking to her with pleading eyes; "Baby please don't be mad, it is a long complicated story." Cynthia shook her head and began to walk away from the two now angry saiyans. "Cynthia," Trunks yelled, but the woman didn't turn back around, she continued walking towards the car.
"Thanks a lot Pan, this is exactly the shit I was talking about," he spat at her like venom before taking off after his very angry girlfriend.
He cussed at himself, this wasn't how he planned on telling her, he wanted to have things figured out with Pan first and now that was ruined. He knew he had a lot of explaining to do; he prayed she would forgive him, because if she didn't Pan would be dead to him.