Chapter 4

Wandering Despair

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Sorry for the Long wait everyone! This is the first day I've had off from everything in almost 3 weeks! Work has been killing me and I ended up getting SUPER sick. But now I'm back on my feet! So yayyy3 Enjoy!

What. Why. Just all of the horror. I couldn't move a single muscle. What was I supposed to be looking at? It seemed as if time itself had stopped all around me. Nothing moved, nothing was heard. It was pure silence. I walked a few steps in the hut to try and see if my eyes happened to be deceiving me. But there was no mistake. It was their body's there, and they weren't moving in any way possible. I slowly walked out of the hut and I saw Inuyasha standing there. He was waiting for me to talk first but I just couldn't manage to come up with a single word. As soon as the tears started falling I ran to Inuyasha and started crying. This was it. I couldn't contain myself any longer.

"In- In.. Inuyasha…! It's my entire fault!" I tried to stutter this into his chest as he hand me close and rubbed my back trying ever so hard to calm me down so I could try and talk normally.

"Kagome… what happened? Please explain." That was all he said and that was all he needed to. Letting go of him I backed away from him slowly and looked steadily at the ground. "Because there was nothing I could do to save the child. Sango and Miroku... They… they…" tears started to fall once more.

I looked up at Inuyasha and saw his face. He didn't look angry, or mad, or upset. He had this look of 'what are you talking about' I could understand him not getting what I was saying at all so I took his hand and brought him to the horrible scene that laid within the hut.

He looked around and sniffed everywhere possible. Soon he found a note that had his name on it. Once he was done reading he chuckled a little bit and took ahold of my hand and brought me out of the hut. I asked many times what was written on the note but he refused to tell me or let me read. Starting to get really upset with the fact he wouldn't mourn over our friends I whipped my hand out of his grip and ran in front of him and lashed out at him.

"How can you not be upset that they are gone?! And when you get a slight note from them all you do is laugh then leave? You're horrible!" screaming was all that came out. Nothing could stop it.

After saying that I ran with all my might, into the forest to get away from him. Trying to run off all of my sadness and anger that was quickly building up inside of me. I didn't understand, couldn't understand, what was going on with everyone and what was happening with my life at this point. I was falling in to a hole with no one to be around to help me.

Soon enough I couldn't run any longer and started to slow down. Looking around my surroundings I noticed I was nowhere I have even been before. Coming to the conclusion that I was lost I decided that this was a good time to get all of my thoughts together and 'try' to calm down and take everything that was happening in.

I sat down on a nice patch of soft grass near a blooming cherry tree. The sight in front of me was breath taking but nonetheless something I was starting to get used to because I have been here for almost 2 years now.

You could see the mountains in the background, blooming flowers and the slight green on the trees trying to become leaves. It was, in fact, a sight that it seemed that you could never really get used to. Something that seemed like you could only find in fairytales. Then for a moment, my mind went blank and I started to forget what had happened and happy thoughts started to return.

The memories of our traveling days came to mind. We were always together and doing our best to rid the world of the known evil as Naraku. He was a horrible man that pinned all of us against each other. Sango and her Brother, Inuyasha and his first love Kikyo, giving Miroku his cursed hand. Hurting all of my friends gave me such rage. But then I remember that if it wasn't for him. I wouldn't have stayed here to fight him or try and find all of the shards of the Shikion No Tama, giving me the chance of meeting everyone. Especially having the chance of meeting Inuyasha. I was happy whenever I was with them all. It felt like I actually belonged somewhere. But not today it would appear.

I sighed a breath of relaxation and laid down on top of the grass.

"Maybe. Just maybe I really was meant to be here, but for what reason could that be at this time?." Closing my eyes for a moment, feeling the warm sun on my skin was something I could always enjoy. No matter what kind of mood I happened to be in.

Before I knew it the sun was setting and the crickets started playing their song of wonder. A never ending peaceful song. Until I heard his voice. He sounded close but I refused to open my eyes.

"Kagome." It was a slight whisper and the feeling of warm/hot breath was upon my cheeks. Not answering, I hoped he would just give up and head back to the hut. But instead Inuyasha picked me up and started to carry me back home.

He said one sentence and one sentence only. When he said it I could hold back the tears.

"It will all turn out fine Kagome."