Let me clear something up when I made the doctor say Miss is because Tsuna looks so much like a girl that everyone confuses him with one so that's why he's called miss isntead of mr.

It felt like a century as I looked at that man. I couldn't breath. This man was making me choose over my family. This man was making me pick someone to live. I that moment I thought that my life couldn't get more messed up, but was I terribly wrong. My heart stopped the moment I heard those words come out of my mother's mouth.

"Doctor, please save my baby."

I turned arond quickly to face her. She had the tube in her hand and was gasping for breath. The doctor and I looked at her but differently. My stare was full of dispear and hurt while the doctor's gaze was full ofunderstanding and determination.

What could he understand. This doctor was going to kill my mother and he understands. I began to scream and shout. I don't know for how long I did this. I thought they would leave but then I was tackled by a helper and then felt something prick me on my neck. I felt dizzy and soon darkness surrounded me.

I don't remember for how long I was unconsious. My head was starting to get clear. The fog in my mind was disappearing. I heard a loud cry and knew that the worst had happened. I got out of the couch and ran to my mother's bed which had the curtain. Ripping the curtains away I saw lots of blood. Blood that belonged to my mother. I ran to her side not even paying attention to the small bundle in the nurse's arms. My mother was the most important thing right now nothing else.

My mother was dying but I didn't want to think that. I talked to her. Saying that things would be alright. I got into my mom's way to big bed. Moving away to the far corner afraid that if I touched her she would break. Never had I seen her this fragile. I was petriffied.

My mother was breathing her last breaths, but she was still smiling. Instead of being afraid or mad, she was so happy. She called my name and I looked at her. Tears were coming out of her eyes. She knew she was going to die. There was no turning back

"Tsu-chan, can you call me mama like you never did? Can you do this favor for me and call me mama?" My mother softly asked. I nodded my head and called her what she wanted. The tears came down her eyes and for once I found myself not able to cry. I just stayed there looking at her as she took her last breath and closed her chocolate eyes.

My mother was dead at that time I knew. I knew nothing would be the same. I felt anger. Anger at the rapist. But more anger at my father who wasn't here with her.

They would all be coming back tomorrow. All of them happy not knowing what just happened to my delicate mother. My mother that was always kind to everyone.

I put my head on my knees and slept. Ignoring the cries of the baby. The baby that was my baby brother. My brother whose name was Asa Sawada. Asa that meant born at dawn. His chocolate tresses, and big eyes that seemed way to big on his premature body. His skin a nice pale and tan.

I don't recall how long I was in the hospital with my dead mother. How long I could sleep and ignore the whines of my brother wanting his mother. Soon enough the door was opened and there I saw my family. They were panting heavily, but I didn't care. I looked around to find my father and surprisingly my granfather as well with the Varia.

My father moved closer my mother. With hasitated steps as if he thought all of this was a dream. For once I foumd myself loathing everyine in this room. All of them with their sympathy and pity as if they understood what had happened.

The anger clogged my throat. They didn't understan anything. They didn't know what happened.

The doctor came in with a nurse and explained what happened. When it got to the rape part everyone turned to look at me with wide eyes. Yea, I was raped what are you going to do. I mywanted to yell but kept my head down. The nurse soon gave my father the baby. He was really healthy evrn though he is premature. There is no problem with him.

Nothing was wrong with him, but I had just lost eveything.

My guardians were trying to get close to me. I could sense that Hayato was trying to make his way towards me, but they didn't come. They might have thought that I would like to be alone. That I just needed to cry alone. For once I was grateful ecause I didn't want anyone to touch me.

I just stayed where I was. Even when Lambo, I-pin, and FUta cried out for my mother, I didn't go over to comfort them. The girls tooke care of them, but still they cried.

They got out of their holds and made their way to me. I only knew that when I felt three pair of arms hug me. Before I could stop, I stiffened and yelled

"DON'T TOUCH ME!"

They all seemed shocked and the children looked broken. They let go and went back to where they were. Everyone waited for me to ask for foregiveness, but it never came. I just lowered my head to my knees once more and fell alseep. Wanting to be with my mother until the time came.