A/N Ryan's Secret is finally published

As the BAU decided who'll do what, Horatio and his team were a million miles away; Calleigh and Eric had updated everyone on the events of last night. Ryan hadn't come in yet, which was strange considering he was never late. On top of all that, he wasn't answering his phone either.

Hotch began worrying too. Ryan was never late for anything in his life even events he didn't want to go to. He was worried that the case was affecting Ryan.

The teams disbanded; Morgan , Reid and Delko went to the last crime scene, Elle went to the Morgue with Alexx, Gideon went to the ballistics lab with Calleigh to see the impressions he was using, JJ went to the layout room with Natalia and Speed and Hotch decided to pay Ryan a visit.

While he waited for the elevator doors to open, his mind was racing miles an minute. When the doors finally opened, Ryan stepped out of the elevator. " Hotch!" he exclaimed. the older man smiled and gave Ryan a hug. "What are you doing here?"

" Caine called us in... Why are you late?" he asked, crossing his arms across his chest.

Ryan was about to tell him everything, when Speed came up. " Hey, man. H wants to see you in his off now!" he said and walked away.

" Look... Now really isn't the time or the place to talk about this... Can we do this some other time!"

" Sure," Hotch said. He turned to leave. " Ahhh- where's the layout room?" Ryan smiled and showed him where to go.

He reached Horatio's office and saw he was doing paperwork. He knocked on the door and when Horatio looked up, he nodded Ryan in. " You wanted to see me, H.?"

"Yeah. Have a set?"

" Look, I'm sorry I'm late! I didn't sleep very well last night.!" he explained, sitting down.

" That's alright. Everyone's entitled to make mistakes... but I don't think it's yours!"

" What are you talking about?"

" You haven't been yourself lately and Calleigh and Eric told us about last night!"

"They had no right to do that."

" They mentioned you said you had to put up with a lot of crap in your life."

" Can you blame me for losing it a little and exaggerating ... I mean she wanted me to sleep with someone I wasn't attracted to! I mean, I don't do that... i don't have one-night-stands with random women!"

" Go home!"

" What?" Ryan was really confused.

" We don't need you today! All we're doing is getting the BAU caught up!" Ryan was about to argue with him. " We'll call you when we have something!" Horatio went back to his reports. Ryan got up and left. He went to the lay out room to see if Hotch wanted a coffee on him but only found Natalia with some pretty blonde girl he had never seen before. He decided to go home. When he got to the elevator he bumped into Calleigh and someone he figured was a profiler working with Hotch.

"Hey Ry," Calleigh said, but Ryan only walked past her and into the elevator, focusing on the wall.

The rest of the day was incredibly boring. He beat about three video games and watched about four seasons of Family Guy. At nine-thirty he decided to call it a night. Unfortunately for him, his sleep was filled with the nightmare he had the night before and many other nights.

Ryan was alone on the court with Lambert. they were practising for the State Championships. Every shot Ryan took went in except for one.

" You need to make sure your stance is right all the time, Wolfe. Take a sec to get into position, then take the shot!" Ryan got into position really quickly, pretending he was being ganged up on, and took the shot. It went in and he got that feeling he always did when a shot went in.

Ryan felt something on his leg and turned to see Lambert kneeling down behind him.

He didn't take any notice of it until the Sunday before the Championships began. He was practising again and had the ball. He was being chased by Lambert. He reached the hop and slam dunked the ball and beat Lambert by eight points.

Lambert sat on the benches, breathing heavily. He threw Ryan a water bottle. " Not bad, Wolfe, but I wanna see that Friday night!"

" You will!"

Lambert got up and walked over to Ryan. " You know, Ryan, you remind me of myself when I was your age. Enthusiastic, smart, good. You'll do anything to please people, won't you?" He was really close to him now.

" It depends, sir," Ryan said getting nervous.

" I want you to do something for me!"

" What?"

" It'll have to be our little secret, Ryan. If anyone found out, I could lose my job, you would be kicked off the team!" Ran was beginning to get scared and wished for someone to come. " You're a really good kid, Ryan. I know you won't let me down! I know you'll make me proud!" He put his hand on Ryan's shoulders and began moving them down his arms, his hips and then...

" What the hell do you think you're doing?" Ryan asked pulling back.

" I think you know!" He leaned in, kissed Ryan and put his hands back down Ryan's pants. Ryan pulled away again.

" Get the hell away from me!"

" Don't make me do something I really don't want to do!" Lambert said, getting angry.

" Go to hell!" Ryan said and turned and walked away. Lambert came at him from behind and tackled him to the ground. He hit his head hard. Lambert began hitting him. Tears began streaming down Ryan's eyes. Lambert got a knife and put it through Ryan. It caused a huge gash on Ryan's side and Lambert began pulling it all the down Ryan's shorts. Lambert went down and bit Ryan hard. Ryan let out a blood-curdling scream and before he passed out from the pain he heard Lambert say, " this is just a example of what will happen to you if you tell anyone!"

When Ryan woke up again he was...

...in his own bedroom, sitting up, tears and cold sweat pouring down his face, clutching the scar on his side, gasping!

A/N Here it is. I know it's a bit disturbing and i apologize for that but please review.