She's perfect like this.
a/n: Thanks for all the great reviews, please keep reviewing it keeps me motivated :) x I feel awful for not posting in so long, I will try and get better I promise.
Background: Rory has just been accepted into Yale. She is still dating Dean (please don't hate me). Jess is with Shane.
Disclaimer: Don't own.
Rory woke up in the middle of the night, tossing and turning. They had just arrived in Paris and were in a youth hostel, it was the first stop on the trip. Lorelai had managed to sweet talk the owner of the hostel into giving them a private room, so it was just the two of them in the small room. She looked over at her mum who was fast asleep, covers thrown off because of the heat. Smiling slightly, Rory wondered if her own sleeplessness was due to the heat. Though a bigger part of her realised that it wasn't that, but thoughts of her conversation with Jess just before they'd left. In particular it was the end part, he'd asked her if she was talking to him, or if it was just because her mum was there that she had said 'I love you', and she hadn't claimed it was because of her mum being there. But she couldn't love him, could she? She sat bolt upright in bed, her heart beating a million miles an hour. Quickly she tried to work out what time it would be in Stars Hollow. She looked at the clock, it was later than she'd thought, five in the morning here meant it was eleven at night in Stars Hollow, he'd probably be asleep but she had to speak to him, springing out of bed she grabbed her phone and slipped out the door, down the hallway and into the courtyard outside. The phone rang seven times before she realised this would wake Luke up, she was about to hang up when she heard Luke's sleepy and very annoyed voice answering the phone.
'Hello' Luke's voice croaked out over the phone, Rory drew in a deep breath before speaking.
'Hey Luke, it's Rory. Sorry for calling so late, I just woke up here and it's six in the morning and...' Rory began but was cut of by Luke.
'Rory? What is it, is everything ok? Are you and you're mum ok?' Luke asked panicked. Jess hearing Luke say her name fully woke up, he'd woken up a little when the phone rang but now he was panicked, she was calling here at gone eleven at night.
'Oh Luke it's fine, we're both fine, sorry to worry you I just...Could I speak to Jess please.' Rory asked nervously.
'Jess? Uh yeah I guess...' Luke was now utterly confused as to why she was calling for Jess. But since she had he looked over at Jess who was sitting anxiously on the edge of his bed. Luke handed the phone over to Jess, shaking his head in confusion. Jess grabbed the phone and went down to the diner for privacy. He sat on a chair and then spoke.
'Rory, are you ok?' Jess asked, the concern in his voice made Rory smile. Her heart rate had calmed a little hearing his voice, she felt relaxed around him.
'I meant it.' Rory said quietly into the phone, hardly believing her own words as she did, both of them knew what she was talking about. Jess remained silent causing Rory's heart rate to rocket again, he didn't like her, and she'd just admitted to loving him. Sliding down the wall she sat on the stone floor of the courtyard, looking up at the sky which was growing lighter. Eventually Jess spoke, a smile had appeared on his face, and he was glad he'd come downstairs away from Luke's curious gaze.
'You mean that?' Jess asked clinging to the hope that she would confirm it. Rory looked down again, this was it no backing out now, she needed to say the words as much as he needed to hear it.
'I mean it, I love you Jess.' Rory felt tears in her eyes, longing to hear him say it back. Jess' smile grew bigger, this beautiful, intelligent wonderful girl actually loved him.
'I love you too.' Jess said quietly.
'You mean that?' Rory laughed, smiling.
'I mean it.' Jess replied. 'I really love you.'
'Wow.' Rory replied brightly, wiping away the tears that were falling down her cheeks. The sun was now fully up. It was growing hotter by the minute.
'So...what now?' Jess asked a little uneasily. The realisation of his words hit her, and her smile faded. One thing she hadn't thought of, that she hadn't thought of since the phone call to Jess before she'd left. Dean.
'I can't do it over the phone Jess...I don't want to hurt him.' Rory replied matching Jess' uneasy tone.
Jess thought for a minute.
'I know you don't. But Rory...as much as I hate Dean, it isn't fair to him to have him here thinking everything is fine between the two of you, when it's not. I guess this is just bad timing, but it wouldn't be fair on him and it wouldn't be fair on us.' Jess replied. Rory nodded her head knowing he was right.
'Ok, I'll call him when it's a more reasonable hour. And you'll....' Rory broke off mid-sentence a little nervous as to his reaction.
'Yeah I'll break up with Shane tomorrow. I'll call you tomorrow then.' Jess said knowing if he was much longer Luke would come down.
'Ok, I'll have my cell phone.' Rory smiled not wanting to say goodbye yet. 'I wish I was back in Stars Hollow.'
'I wish you were here. Goodnight Rory, have a good day. I'll call you later.' Jess replied standing up again, Rory got up as well.
'Goodnight.' Rory said, still both of then held the phone to their ears, hearing each other breathing.
'I love you.' Jess breathed out the words. Rory's heart skipped a beat she'd never get used to hearing that.
'I love you too' Rory echoed, finally both of them hung up the phone.
Jess walked slowly back upstairs and back into the dark apartment, he couldn't stop smiling as he climbed back into bed.
'Is everything ok?' Luke asked still concerned at why Rory had called his nephew late at night.
'Everything is perfect.' Jess replied going back to sleep.
*
'Right hun so the plan is we go to a few museums, some landmarks and tourist spots, then tomorrow we hit the shops then the next day we move on from Paris.' Lorelai said after they'd eaten their breakfast at the hostel and were walking down a street. Lorelai glanced at her daughter who was smiling happily.
'That sounds good mum. Listen though, I know that you wanted to spend every second together before I head to college, but I need to call Dean later and it may take a while.' Rory said.
'Ah do you need some alone time to be all mushy with him?' Lorelai teased.
'Uh no...I need to call him to...break up with him.' Rory said still walking. Lorelai stopped dead, grabbing Rory's arm and pulling her back to face her.
'Whoa...you can't just drop that on me and walk off. Where did this come from? I thought you and Dean were happy.' Lorelai looked at her daughter.
'It's not right with us mum, I used to love him and be excited to hear his voice, I used to want to talk to him every minute and think about him constantly and now I don't. I don't feel the same way about him anymore and I've been denying it for months, but it isn't fair on either of us. I know now isn't the greatest timing, and doing it over the phone is horrible but something happened and it wouldn't be right to keep stringing him along until we get back.' Rory looked upset, she rambled on wanting her mum to understand, but Lorelai had picked up on one thing.
'Something happened? Rory what happened that made you want to break up with Dean over the phone from Paris?' Lorelai looked at her daughter not understanding at all what had happened. Rory looked down at the floor guiltily, taking a deep breath, she couldn't lie to her mum.
'I wasn't on the phone to Dean the night we left, I was up most of the night talking but it wasn't Dean.' Rory looked at her mum.
'Rory what do you...oh Jess. Rory you're leaving Dean for Jess.' Lorelai looked at her astonished.
'I've been falling for Jess for a long time, but then while I was talking to him it just felt so right that I should be up for five hours before going away for the summer talking to him, I wanted to talk to him and then you came in and I had to say I love you because you thought it was Dean, but when I said it...Mum it felt right, and so I've been thinking it over, the whole flight and yesterday and overnight and then early this morning I woke up and called him and I told him I loved him, and he loves me.' Rory rambled on, 'It's not fair on Dean if I don't break up with him when I'm in love with somebody else.'
'But Jess, Rory he's no good for you.' Lorelai shook her head.
'He is.' Rory replied stubbornly. 'He's perfect for me and I love him.' Rory was almost crying now, seeing this Lorelai looked at her carefully and then hugged her.
'You really love him?' Lorelai asked.
'Yeah...so are you ok with that?' Rory asked pulling back to look at her mother. Lorelai sighed.
'I'm not thrilled, and I still don't like him. But I trust your judgement, just go easy on Dean and don't leave out important details like this again. You should have told me it was Jess you were talking to that morning.' Lorelai hugged Rory again, before they set out towards the first stop of the day.
A/N- Hope you liked it. Please, Please, Please review.