A/N Here we go. The 4th chapter of waiting! I hope this helps on our Castleless night! But i do watch the Bachelor too! But three hours! That's ridiculous! lol Enjoy! :p

Disclaimer: I don't own Castle! Darn -.-

Sitting on his couch, everything was about to change, the room was dark, hard to see his face, but his voice portayed it all.

"What do you mean Rick?' she asked with a hint of disbelief in her eyes.

"I'd rather show you, not just tel you; but you have to promise that you wont run, but wait until i explain." She could hear the pleading in his voice, and nodded her head in agreement.

He grabbed her by the hand and took her to his study, he was incredibly nervous, but he figured that if he could get Kate to see his side of the story and know all that he knows that he may have a slim chance of getting her to not overflow with complete rage.

Kate had no idea what was going on. What kind of secret could he possibly have? Thousands of possibilities ran through her mind, but none of them making to much sense. He had lead her to his office and was now pointing at a small touch screen attached to the wall behind his desk.

"Go touch the screen Kate."

"The screen's not going to like shock me or anything is it?" She meekly laughed trying to put a little humor into the seriousness.

He smiled but just said "No, the screen won't, whats on it might."

Kate gently walked over and touched the corner of the screen, and found herself staring back at her.

"You have a picture of me on your touch screen? Kinda creepy, but Rick, I don't see how that's a secret." She said with confusion all over her face.

He then reach around and grabbed a small remote and handed it to her and told her to push the power on button. She done as he said, and was breathless with what she seen appear on the screen. The picture of her mother, and Captain Montgomery, the little spiderweb lines connecting everything, she was breathless...and she was mad. Her subconsious told her to run and scream, but her new mind noted that she had promised not to do that very thing.

"Castle, why? What is all of this? You've been...? This whole time, and...? Explain please..." She said with hurt, confusion, and betrayal, all of her emotions, shining behind the tears that had welled up in her eyes.

He walked over to the couch in his study and sat down, she done the same but sat farther away than she normally would.

"That day that we interviewed the autopart worker at Helstad, I got a phone call from a guy who had recieved a package from Montgomery. He said that I had to keep you away from your mother case or it would get you killed. He said that this person, whoever it is that's calling the shots, had dozens of people like Lockwood out there looking for you, waiting for you to make a wrong move. He said that Montgomery had sent him this information because he knew that they could catch this guy, but in time. he told me that I needed to get you to back down, get their minds off of you for a while, let them think that they had you scared from your...shooting" It still pained him to say it, or to even think about that day. "So, I weasled my way into your mind, and yes I know you hate that, but it was all I could do to keep you safe. What would you have done if the roles were reversed? I watched the life go out of you in that ambulance Kate..." He said scooting over and taking her hand, "and I couldn't stand to see that again. Please tell me that you understand. I can't lose you." he was now in tears as he stared at Kate's face, her eyes overflowing as well. He watched as she slowly read his face seeing all the sincerity there.

Kate's mind was reeling. She was mad, angry, tore up, and so unbeliavably in love with him all at once. She wanted to yell, she wanted to scream, maybe even hit him a time or two. Mostly though she wanted to just kiss him, because she knows she would have done the same if it were her. She stared at him and she couldn't hold it in anymore, she couldn't be mad, whe couldn't walk away. Not after all of this, so, she wiped the tears off of her face and looked him straight in the eye as the next words fell effortlessly from her mouth.

"I love you"

He stared, stuck in a shocked state, that was not what he was expecting her to say. This woman was incredible in every way the term could be interpreted.

She took in his shocked face and figured she could continue. "Yeah I'm mad, and i wish that you wouldn't have hid informatin from me about her murder" she paused for a beat or two gathering her thoughts. "But I understand why you did it."

He seen that she meant what she said, and all the truth and love that was behind her words.

"I love you too Kate."

I didn't make it a cliffhanger this time!

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