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~ Chapter 4: Hate To See Your Heart Break

Beca knocked on the door and waited. She was feeling like she could start to cry at every moment and she didn't know what she would do if the door wouldn't open.

She waited a couple minutes more and knocked again. When she heard nothing in response, she sharply turned heel and wistfully started to walk away.

- Becs, is that you? What are you doing here so early? Are you okay?

Beca ran into Jesse's arms. He obviously didn't expect her best friend to show up at his dorm room as he was only wearing pajama pants. His eyes were tired and he yawned, trying to stay awake. Beca stepped back from his bare chest, wiping her tears and trying to breathe slowly.

- Jesse, please, can we just get inside? I don't wanna talk right now, but...

Jesse understood what she wanted to say when he noticed the smudged makeup on her face and her soaked clothes.

- Just use my shower, Becs, no problem. Come on, get inside and I'll prepare some tea while you get clean.

Jesse's roommate had already left for the summer and there was an empty bed in the room. Beca put her coat on it and got in the bathroom. She quickly got rid of her wet clothes, letting them fall on the floor. She adjusted the water temperature of the shower and got in immediately, feeling the urge to feel the boiling hot water on her sore muscles. She let a sigh of relief of her lips and rubbed her arms with her hands as the burning steam filled the room. Her hair was sprawling on her shoulders and she rubbed her eyes to get rid of the smudged makeup.

Beca was so afraid to admit to Jesse what she did. This guy has been her best friend since her first day at Barden when he was at a party and they talked all night. Jesse was the kind of guy to be just fine with Beca's manners and they have been inseparable for years. After every Bellas rehearsal, the brunette used to call him or go to his bedroom to blast Aubrey, who was the Bellas Captain at the time.

However, shit happens. And one time, about a month after the Bellas won the finals, Beca caught Jesse and Aubrey making out in the bathroom at a party. Even thought she was now fine with them being together, it was still a sensitive topic and she usually made up some stupid excuses to get away when the blonde girl showed up. She felt like she was bringing the third wheeling thing way too far. Even today, she still didn't feel comfortable with Aubrey around.

After ten minutes, Beca realized how much time she spent daydreaming in the shower. She massaged her neck and quickly washed her body, avoiding the zone between her legs; she didn't want to feel her mistake. She simply rinsed her whole body and twisted her wet hair into a messy bun.

Everything reminded her of the redhead. The shower. It felt like yesterday when the prettiest girl she'd ever seen broke naked into her shower.

Feeling herself starting to sob, Beca got out of the shower and wrapped a towel she found under the sink around her now freezing body. She then realized she didn't have any clothes to put on. She reached the door and half-opened it, looking for Jesse.

- Hey, do you have some tee I could borrow?

Jesse got up and she could hear him scouring in his wardrobe. He appeared to her two seconds later, smiling kindly at her.

- Just remember, I'm not under your thumb you little DJ.

Beca smirked at him and closed the door after taking the tee from his hands. Her frame was so tiny she didn't even need more clothes to cover herself almost completely. She got out of the bathroom and sat on Jesse's bed, in front of her best friend.

They remained silent for a while until Jesse finally talked.

- So, do you want some tea or not? I'm pretty sure it is fully infused now...

Beca smiled at his attempt at making the situation feel less awkward.

- Of course, Jess. Thank you.

Jesse poured some tea in two cups and gave one to the DJ, which was now looking down and playing with her hands, afraid of the possible reaction Jesse could have. But she couldn't keep things away from him: he needed to know, and it would actually be a relief to tell someone.

- Jess… I need to tell you something, but please don't judge. I'm just so over everything right now...

Jesse looked concerned and pressed his palm against Beca's knees, surprised when the girl backed off looking scared.

- Whatever it is, Becs, just tell me! You make me worried right now. Just get it straight, I promise I won't judge.

Beca bitterly smiled at the unwanted straight pun. Jesse knew she was gay, but he didn't notice what he just said.

- You know about the party there was at the bar last night? Well, I didn't leave alone. I was with…

She swallowed and avoided Jesse's eyes.

- … Chloe. We left together I mean…

She started sobbing and her friend immediately hugged her close, petting her back like he would do with a small child.

- What happened Beca? Did you guys hook up? Just tell me, please.

Beca slowly escaped his embrace.

- We did… Sleep together. You know what I mean.

When Jesse nodded, she continued, wiping her tears with her hands.

- She rejected me, Jess. Saying it was all a mistake, that she never wanted to see my gay ass again. I knew it was a bad idea. I just should have known, I'm so so dumb!

She slightly hit the mattress beneath her.

- But you know what's worst? Because of course there's worst! Beca Mitchell is a fucking joke!

She started laughing, with tears falling from her eyes.

- I felt so rejected that I had to run into the first guy I saw! And we did things, Jess. Well, at least he did. I'm not sure about anything right now. I just want it to stop.

Jesse looked shocked. He slightly brushed Beca's wet hair, which was now all over her face. But before he could say anything, they both turned around when they heard the door opening.

Aubrey was standing there, looking as shocked as them to find Beca crying in her boyfriend's bed.

- Can I ask what is happening here?

- Beca, just stay still. Those smokey eyes will look bomb!

Ashley, Beca's makeup artist, had been doing her makeup for about an hour and she was almost done making the final touches. It was almost 8 and the Grammys would start in an hour.

- Which one do you prefer? And please don't say the leather one, you always look like the same old douche.

Stacie was displaying two jackets in front of the DJ: a leather one and a classic black one. Beca's hair was already slightly curled and brushed to a side and she was wearing black classy pants and Marc Jacobs black heels. Beca examined the jackets and was about to say the black one showed way too much cleavage, but got interrupted by Aubrey, who had been laying on the couch checking her phone for an hour looking preoccupied.

- I agree with Stace. The black one is great. Plus, you need to make things big tonight.

While speaking, she pushed her breast closer together and smirked. Ashley nodded in agreement.

- I cannot believe you actually want me to show so much cleavage to the world. You girls are INSANE.

They all ended up laughing. A couple minutes later, Ashley was done doing her makeup and Beca put the black jacket on, without anything under. The three girls looked at the DJ, amazed by her jumpsuit.

- You, are going to break hearts tonight honey.

Ashley sent her a blown kiss and took her bag.

- I should get ready myself, but I'll see you on the carpet and after you win it all. Good luck love!

Beca faced her two friends and sighted, looking at her gold watch.

- I guess it's time to go… I'll look for you in the crowd! Thank you for everything girls.

Stacie and Aubrey hugged her close and wished her luck. When Beca was gone heading to the red carpet with Stacie, Aubrey went to the doors looking for the redhead.

Chloe got out of her taxi and took her luggage in the car's trunk. She entered the big hotel and signed up with the receptionist. She then headed to her suite and entered, amazed by the breathtaking view she had on Los Angeles.

She needed to get ready to meet Aubrey at the doors a little before 9. Chloe looked at her watch: it was 6. She had time to eat at the hotel's café bar before getting ready.

She closed the door to her suite and headed downstairs. She arrived at the café and ordered a chicken sandwich. While waiting for her meal to be ready, she watched the television in front of her.

As the hotel was full because of the Grammys, they displayed the nominees of the night, and of course there was Beca, smiling at the camera, her arms crossed. Chloe smiled at the sight of the pretty brunette and felt a lot of mixed emotions at the same time. She couldn't believe she was going to see Beca tonight after five years. It was so unreal! She couldn't wait to see how the brunette would react, and she hoped it wouldn't be too bad.

She got her sandwich and thanked the employee. She sat closed to the windows and ate quickly to get more time to get ready for the night. When she was done, she got back to her room and displayed her outfit on her large bed.

She chose to bring a long red dress, the top of it made from lace allowing her to show her skin. It was also covered in red flowers. Before putting it on, Chloe raised her hair in a messy bun and curled the hair falling of it to give it a classy look. She then sprayed some hairspray to get it fixed. She got her makeup bag from her luggage and went to the wide bathroom.

She put her Naked palettes on the counter and got her Makeup For Ever foundation. She did the base with it and then applied some nude and mat eyeshadow to her eyelids. She concealed her face and powdered it. She didn't want her makeup to be too heavy, so she only put some nude glossy lipstick.

When her face and her hair were done, Chloe brushed her teeth and went back to the bedroom. She put her dress on quickly and put some turquoise earrings. She looked at herself in the mirror, satisfied with what she saw. She was pretty confident in her body, and wanted to show nothing less to Beca.

She put high heels, took her purse from the floor and got outside the building to get a taxi to the event.

- Bree, honey, it's not what you think! Please listen.

- So, what is it, Jesse? I knew I couldn't trust you.

Aubrey looked mad and horrified. But before she could add anything, Beca intervened and stepped forward.

- Aubrey. I'm sorry, this is all my fault. I had the worst night ever and came here to talk with my friend. If you want to be mad at someone, don't be at Jesse.

Aubrey heard the sadness in Beca's voice and just couldn't be mad at her. She sat with them on the bed and looked at the shorter woman.

- Okay, well, I'm also here now. And as I know you left the party with Chloe, I'd like to know how this night has been the "worst ever". I won't judge.

Beca laughed bitterly and word vomited all about the way Chloe reacted at their night together and how she slept with a drunk stranger on the campus. At that part, she started sobbing and Aubrey surprisingly comforted her, pulling her in a hug.

- I'm so sorry Beca. I'm sure Chloe was just confused… She'll surely take it back, I'm sure she didn't mean it. How could she?

- I wish you were right… But she seemed damn serious.

Jesse and Aubrey looked at each other, not knowing how to comfort the little brunette. Aubrey suddenly felt responsible for how Chloe treated Beca and wanted to help her to get better.

- We should go eat together. I heard there's amazing seafood downtown. What do you think Jesse?

She slightly hit his leg, waiting for him to agree.

- MMmm, yes of course it's a great idea! What about you go with Beca at the Bella's place Bree? It would be less awkward if…

Aubrey hit him again to stop him from talking.

- Of course. Here we go Beca.

Beca smiled slightly at their attempt to help her. She really had amazing friends, and felt like Aubrey was really being honest in her sudden devotion to her. Beca put some of Jesse's shorts to be presentable while Aubrey reached the door and both girls left the apartment.

When Aubrey and Beca arrived at the Bella's house, they immediately noticed that it was awkwardly quiet. They weren't used to such tranquility around the house.

Lily, Jessica, and Ashley had already left right after the party, so not seeing them around wasn't a surprise. Beca followed Aubrey to her bedroom, looking at the floor trying not to be emotional. She didn't want to face Chloe now, but couldn't avoid her, especially in the house. When they reached Beca and Fat Amy's shared bedroom, they noticed Amy packing her clothes in her bags.

- Hey, what's up girls? I was starting to feel alone here after the others left for summer break. The weirdo, the twins, the redhead, the legacy…

- Wait… What? Chloe left? Already?

Aubrey gently pat Beca's arm to comfort her.

- It's ok, Beca. Don't worry.

- She left without saying goodbye?

Amy looked slightly surprised.

- I thought you already said goodbye to each other last night… It was pretty insane to ear you guys! Chloe looked kind of dizzy when she left, I thought it was from leaving you little DJ.

Beca started packing her things, pitching her clothes in a bag.

- I can't stay here anymore, not after what happened. I'll get a plane ticket earlier for LA.

- Beca, are you sure you want to let it that way with Chloe?

Aubrey hold her back for a second.

- I do. I don't want to hurt her more and if she doesn't want to see me, I'll respect that.

Beca packed her things quickly and got a plane ticket so she could leave the same night.

After Aubrey and Amy helped her finish packing, they went to the restaurant to meet Jesse and ordered some seafood. No one talked about Chloe, they only wanted this last friendly activity to be positive before Beca's departure.

When it was time for Beca to leave, Jesse and Aubrey took her to the airport together.

They held her close.

- Just call us if you need anything, Becs, anytime.

- Even if you just want to talk! And I'll make sure everything is fine with Chloe. She's my friend after all, she'll listen to me.

Beca smiled back at them.

- Thanks guys. I love you and I'll miss you both.

They talked for a couple of minutes more before Beca had to leave so she wouldn't miss her plane. She left inside the airport and, when she was finally sitting in the plane, she took a journal from her purse and started writing. It was so pure and emotional.

It ended up as a song, and she wrote two words on top of the lyrics:

Missing You.

When Chloe arrived at the gala, she had trouble finding the door. The crowd was packed and everyone was fighting to get to see celebrities. When she finally reached it, she saw Aubrey waiting for her in a pretty white dress, close to the sound equipment. She waved her hand and reached her.

- Bree! I'm so glad I found you, everything is so crazy.

- I know right! Follow me, we have to get to our section before they let the public in!

Both girls entered the wide performance hall and Chloe followed her friend to the front of the theater. They both sat down in their private section while the others were getting full.

- This looks awesome! I can't believe I'm actually here. I'm so stressed out about everything, seeing her, talking to her… Oh, I hope it's going to go well…

- It will, I'm sure it will. She missed you, Chloe. So, so much.

Chloe was already feeling bad and guilty about everything, but she needed to know exactly what she told Beca that night to make her so upset.

The girls waited for the crowd to enter the theatre and for the Grammys to start. When it did, Beca was not long to show up as she was nominated for 12 awards because of her various collaborations on albums and singles. However, she first came out for a special reason that wasn't awards.

When she stepped on the stage, Beca tried to look as calm as possible even if her heart was beating at a fast rate and she left like she could faint at any moment. Big events weren't her favorites. She reached the microphone and took a deep breath before she started talking.

- Today, I want to show you all a very personal song I wrote five years ago. It will be performed by my good friend Pink!. Everyone, here's Missing You.

Chloe was shocked. The brunette was even prettier than before, if it was even possible. Her jumpsuit suited her and perfectly enhanced the curves of her body. Chloe couldn't breathe. She grabbed Aubrey's arm and looked at her with tears in her eyes.

Pink walked to the stage under the applauses of the crowd. She reached the microphone and, after the music started playing, she sang the lyrics.

" (…) Your soft lips on my skin, kiss on my chin

That only look through your eyes, and I feel time slip by

I heard you scream, I realized it was just a dream

I love you with all my heart

I couldn't love anyone else but you

I wished it was true

But I'll still be missing you

Missing you (…)"

Chloe had to leave. She waited for the song to be finished and then stood up, running toward the closest door. Aubrey followed her and found her crying in the hallway.

- I can't, Bree. I can't see her.

Chloe was trying to talk while sobbing. Aubrey comforted her like she could, staying with her friend and hugging her.

Meanwhile, Beca was standing backstage and waited for Pink to finish the song. Hearing her personal lyrics being sung in a gala was weird, especially because it was all about Chloe. Suddenly, she saw people running out of the theater while the crowd was cheering Pink.

She couldn't see the girl running, but she saw her hair.

It was red.