I slept so good tonight that I didn't wake up till 10. I checked the hotel phone to see if it was flashing a message for me from Jesse but it wasn't. Now that i'm starting to trust him more, I wish he had my cell number so he could text me or something. Unless he's really busy. I'm trying so hard not to fall in love with him or get too attached to him, if all i'm going to be is his nanny but i'm not upset about being his nanny either. I feel really special already. I decide to order my coffee and a muffin to eat. Then I just sit there and wait with the tv on. Still no call from Jesse. I'm guessing he's got other plans today. I feel so bored and decide to dress up planning to go site seeing some more because I only have two days left. Right as i'm putting on mascara, I hear the phone ring. I answer it excitedly thinking Jesse wants to hang out some more but once again, he's frantic and says, 'Hey i'm sorry to bother you on your vacation here but I really need help again. My mom was supposed to have the baby today but she wont fly home in time and I have a conferrence in 25 minutes. I'm so late that press people are not going to be happy with me.' I sighed and said, 'So you need me to watch Drew again?' Jesse sighed and said, 'Are you busy?' I smirked and said, 'Nah I was just fixing my makeup hoping i'd hear from you so we could do something.' Then I hear the sound of a car motor speeing up and Jesse saying, 'Well awesome. Yea, the conferrence wont take long so why don't I pick you and afterwards, we'll go site seeing togther.' I felt shy again and said, 'Oh ok.' Jesse sighed again and said, 'I'm almost to your hotel so i'll hang up.' I didn't repsond, I just let him hang up and stood there so nervous. I'm not sure if he thinks of me as a nanny or if he likes me for more. I'm very confused. I hang up the phone now too and rush back to view myself in the mirror. I have on a white, floral, blouse, white skinny jeans and my brown boots. Then I put my brown leather jacket back on cuz I know it will get windy and then I head down into the lobby. Suprisingly Jesse's lexus is already waiting at the entrance and he beeps as i'm walking out the door. I hurry into his car and ask, 'Have you been waiting long?' Jesse nods and says, 'Trust me, you are worth the wait.' I smile and before I strap on my seatbelt, I face Drew behind me and say, 'Heeey cutie. Have you been a good boy?' Drew smiled making me feel all warm inside but Jesse says, 'Hardly. He resisted to take his bath this morning, screamed bloody murder the whole time I put on his clothes and as soon as I got his shoes on, he had another dirty diaper. I sweat this kid better learn to walk soon so I can potty train him!' I scoffed and said, 'Aw, no. He's perfect at this age. Boys are much cuter as babies! No offense...' Jesse rubbed the temple of his head and then said, 'None taken.' I had my setbelt on now and as I relaxed in my seat, Jesse now turned on the car radio, seeming nervous and stressed all at once. I felt bad and continued to stay calm for him. Finally we pull upto this building and Jesse parks around the side. He faces me and says, 'Well, there is a waiting room with a tv. All of Drew's toys and things are in my trunk. I'm handing you the key now and making you responsible. I have to into my conferrence now or i'll never make it.' I took a deep breath as Jesse handed me his car key, faced back to Drew and said with a sad tone, 'I'll miss you buddy.' I watched Jesse go on out of the car, he shut the door and faced the ground as he rubbed his hands together and walked quickly into the building. I then faced back to Drew and said softly, 'Just me and you cutie. Wanna get out and play with your toys?' Drew didn't respond but he sat there just gazing at me. I slowly got out of the car and went to the trunk. I opened up the trunk with the key and started sorting out what was Drews. Jesse had a lot of junk in there, including golf clubs and what looked like a bolwing ball bag. He must love doing sports of all kinds. I think I have all of Drew's stuff and then I pull him out of the car. He's so soft, small and cuddly. I just wanna squeeze him and love on him all day long. He even smells like Jesse. I guess from always being in his presence. The fact that Jesse trust me like this makes me feel good but also the fact that he dumps his kid on me, makes me feel like hes just using me as a helper and not as more. He did say I was worth the wait but was that because I was babysitting or did he like what I had on again? I'm so confused but also very curious as to where we go from here. What if we do go to switerzland together and what if we start a relationship? I even contemplated us making love together. Of course i'd like to wait till marriage but if we're going to be together. After taking Drew inside the building, it's bigger on the inside and i'm lost. Jesse said there was a waiting room but all i'm seeing is a long, empty hall and a front desk. The lady at the front desk notices me and says out, 'May I help you, miss?' I smile and say, 'I was told there was a waiting room in here with a tv.' The lady nodded and said, 'Are you waiting for somebody special?' I smirked and said feeling so nervous, 'Uh, yes. I'm Jesse McCartney's nanny.' The lady at the front desk smiled and said, 'Aw, okay. Just make a left down the hall...You're very pretty to be just a nanny.' I felt blood red and said still nervous, 'Oh um, thank you.' Then I pulled up the diaper bag more on my shoulder and pushed the stroller on down the hall. I found the waiting room and waited with Drew, playing with his toys on the floor and watching him wanting to crawl across the floor. Before I knew it, time got away and Jesse had came into the waiting room suprising me. He stood there a second to watch Drew crawling, then he faced up at me and asked, 'How long has been crawling?' I smiled feeling so good to be asked that by Jesse and said, 'I guess the past half hour. I really haven't been keeping up with time, i'm just enjoying myself.' Jesse then glared into my eyes longer making me wonder what was on in his mind and then Jesse knelt down to pick up Drew. He held him tight into his arms and asked, 'You like crawling?' Drew started to laugh some as Jesse was holding him and kissing on his cheek. I started picking up the toys and before I could finish, Jesse had his hand out to help me stand up. I took his hand with glee and once I stood up, Jesse somehow had me right next to him, touching sides and I wasn't sure if he was hugging me or what. Jesse also looked like he was unsure what was happenning, so I smiled and said, 'Thanks um, are you done?' Jesse nodded and said, 'Yea, go ahead and grab his bag and we'll go eat.' I smirked and said, 'YOu love to eat, don't you?' Jesse nodded big and said, 'You kidding? I could eat all day!' I chuckled at the same time as him and once I picked up the diaper bag, Jesse started pushing the stroller but still held Drew, just gazing at him with love eyes. Wow what a dad and I can only imagen the type of boyfriend he must me. All this time I was worried about him not being very good, since he's yet to keep a girl more than a couple of years but its clear to me, its not him at all. It's the stupid women he falls for that leave him high and dry. I would never do that though!

All and all, I have to say this has been my best vacation either and even though I worked hard, I made a friend with a toddler and certainly made friends with Jesse. Nobody at home is going to fully believe me and I know they are all going to think i'm crazy but hey, i'm happy. Really happy and excited to show some pictures off to all of my haters! So the next day I was up and packing. I wanted to get a head start because my flight was very early the next day so I wanted to be ready. As i'm packing, I get another call. Jesse wants to know what i'm up to and when I tell him that i'm packing, he sounds panicked on the phone and says, 'Oh, I forgot. You really have to go back home? Already?' I giggle feeling so giddy and say, 'Well part of me is anxious to get back home but the other part of me is having so much fun here.' Jesse then wowed me by saying, 'Good, stay. Please.' I full on laughed now and said in shock, 'But my check out is tomorrow. I'll have to buy more nights here and i'm not sure my checkbook can do that.' Then Jesse sighed heavy and said, 'Well you can stay with me... See, I have a party Saturday night and I really need a babysitter.' I thought about it and said, 'Oh well, what kind of party? Is it like with important people and business or is it just for fun?' Jesse sighed more and said, 'Well for business but I already have a date and everything and suddenly nobody is available for me anymore. I don't know where all my help went, I guess I burned them out and I can't help it. Heck, i'd pay you large to just be my full time nanny because you are so wonderful with Drew, he's comfortable and i'm comfortable with you.' Honestly, my heart was slightly breaking. He obviously doesn't see me as more or he'd be asking me to stay for him and not just for his kid.' I took another breath and said, 'Well I don't wanna leave you without help but...' Then Jesse soudned desperate over the phone and said, 'I could always try to find somebody else but I don't want nobody else. I really want you because when youre around all stress vanishes and its like everything goes so smoothly because I dont' have to worry about my son. I know he's being loved and cared for. Please if I have to show up on my knees.' My heart was racing and as flattered as I was, I was still crushed. I told him I needed a couple of hours to think it out and Jesse begged and begged for an answer. Either I was too nice or I was blinded in love with him but I ended up saying yes... I called up my family to update them and natrually, as I expected, I heard every reason of why I shouldn't do it. Something inside me told me I had to and I couldn't seem to change my mind even though my mother demanded I change my mind. Already I was being picked up by Jesse and checked out early, going to his place. It was scary and new. Kind of weird too but deep down, I knew I was making the right choice. Once we got inside, Jesse showed me to my guest room and then gave me a tour. When I saw his office that had all his awards and achievements as an entertainer, I got excited and said, 'Wow this is amazing. I can't tell you how proud I am to be standing in this room.' Jesse got really red and said, 'Oh well thank you...' Jesse faced our feet awhile, then we heard Drew waking up for a nap. Both of us jumped to his cry and had to smirk at each other. Then I said to Jesse, 'You go ahead. I'll go unpack what stuff I have.' Jesse smiled big and said, 'Make yourself at home, please. It would mean a lot to me.' I felt so crazy and giddy that when I got into my room I guess i'll call it that now, I squealed and did a quick jig to get off some energy of excitement. Then I quickly stopped as Jesse came in with Drew and said, 'Look who is awake and wants to see his favorite nanny!' I quickly grabbed Drew to kiss his cheek and hold him. Then Jesse started stepping backwards and asked, 'YOu got him a minute? I'm gonna go call my date and tell her we're still on for the party.' I sighed and said feeling crushed again, 'Uh, sure... Go a head.' Jesse smiled and waved to Drew. Then I layed Drew down on my bed next to me and faced him saying, 'I wished your daddy loved me the way you do.' Drew didn't have anything to say other than he drooled and tried getting up on his knees to crawl some more.