A/N: Sorry it took me so long to update. I had a writers block. I'd just like to say to one of my closest friends, Hannah, thanks for inspiring me and for bugging me to carry on writing. This chapters for you!

Disclaimer: I still don't own Harry Potter. Sadly.

The Girl Who Never Cries

Damn. Why on earth did I agree to play this game? I looked up at Moony's face. It had fallen and as soon as I locked eyes with him, he deliberately looked away. This was obviously not going to be easy. I should never have agreed to this. Shouldn't Emma be a Slytherin? That evil, twisted, cunning cow was going to be the reason my best friend wouldn't want to talk to me again. I scowled.

Sirius and James exchanged uncomfortable glances.

"Well, that cleared the tension a bit. I do believe it's your turn Roxy." James said, trying to sound cheerful but failing miserably. My mouth was completely dry.

"I'll pass, thanks." I croaked. I looked at Sirius, who met my glance with an expression of complete disgust. If possible, my heart sunk even lower. I had officially lost all my friends.

"Are you okay, Rox?" asked Lily, in an undertone.

"Never better," I whispered bitterly. She gave my shoulder a squeeze. At least Lily didn't hate me. Then on the other hand, she didn't know Remus was a werewolf. She only knew I knew someone who was a werewolf.

Emma sighed, "Are we ever going to carry on?"

"You have another go, Emma," said Lily.

"Okay, Sirius, truth or dare?"

"Truth," answered Sirius.

James rolled his eyes, "Is anyone ever going to pick dare?"

Sirius glared at his friend, "Fine. I change it to a dare."

"Hey! You can't go back on what you originally said," cried Emma, batting her eyelids at Sirius. I felt nauseous.

"Whatever," said Sirius. He didn't seem to be paying to much attention to Emma's flirting. Thank God.

"Hmm…" Emma pretended to think. "I know! Out of the girls in Gryffindor, who do you think is the prettiest?" She continued fluttering her heavily made up eyes at him.

"In normal circumstances, it would Roxy without a second thought, but I'm pissed off at her right now, so it would have to be Lily." Sirius looked scandalized.

Ouch. What came next was not going to be pretty.

"WHAT?" James let out a strangled yelp.

Sirius looked embarrassed. "Well, she did ask for the truth."

This did not seem to mollify James, who sat back and fell to angry muttering, face set.

Emma looked furious.

"Umm… I think we have done enough of this game," said Lily, soothingly.

Emma and I were united in our poisonous glares at Lily.

"Easy for you to say!" snapped Emma. "You've just been announced prettiest girl in Gryffindor."

"Well, what do you care?" James asked her.

Emma rounded on him. "You can't help being jealous of someone when the person you fancy calls her pretty! And you'd know all about jealousy wouldn't you potter!" She stopped, breathless.

"Um, Emma?" Louise asked, gingerly.

"What?" Emma spat.

"You realise you just declared to the whole compartment that you like Sirius Black, right?" Lousie said.

Touché, Emma Jones. I had to bite my lip to keep myself from laughing. This was exactly what she deserved. Her own secret out in the open. A hush had fallen over the compartment.

"Oh, bloody hell!" cried Sirius, as he got up and stormed out.

"We should probably go with Padfoot. We have to change into our robes, we're nearly there," said James, "Come on Moony, Peter." He ushered them out of door then glanced in my direction. I understood the look in his eye. He wanted me to follow him. I got up and left the tense atmosphere of the small room. I followed him down the corridor until he stopped and turned to face me.

"Why didn't you tell us? Remus asked us to tell him if we were scared of him when he told us." James said, hurt evident in his voice. As I always did when I was upset, I chewed on my lower lip.

"I didn't tell you guys, because, Remus means so much to me. I knew that if I said that I was scared, he would be upset and hurt." I answered.

"Don't you think it's worse now? Now that he knows you lied to us? To him. Don't you think that now your friendship is so strong, he's going to feel worse about it?" He paused, "Why didn't you tell me, Roxy? I'm your brother. I thought you could trust me. Don't you trust me, Roxy?"

I felt terrible. I looked up. "Of course I trust you. I trust you with my life. I didn't want you to know. You knew about Remus' condition so I didn't feel comfortable with it. Emma didn't know, so I felt it wasn't important. That she couldn't use it against me. I thought she was my friend, James. I asked not to tell anyone. I didn't know she would turn to be a complete hypocrite. Remus will never forgive me. Please don't hate me, James. I'm so sorry. I can't have Remus, Sirius and you mad at me. You guys are my best friends. I'm sorry I lied, but I did it with good intentions I promise." I felt tears stinging my eyelids but I refused to let them fall. I had never shown weakness and I wasn't going to start now.

"I don't hate you. I could never hate you. You couldn't have known Jones was such a cow. Remus will forgive you. Of course he will. It will just take time. You know what Sirius is like. He flies off the handle and then he calms down and everything is all right again." James said softly, taking a step closer to me. He reached out and rested a hand on my shoulder.

"My God, James, what would I do without you?" I said, shaking my head. James smiled and pulled me into a hug.

"I think the appropriate question, is what would we do without each other," he hugged me harder, "Don't worry, everything will sort itself out."

I snorted, "Why don't you show this side of yourself more often? Lily would fall head over heels for you, you plonker."

James laughed, "Plonker? Is that the best you can do? I mean it though."

I sighed. All I could think was thank Merlin for James. "I know you do, and I appreciate it." I paused, "James?"

"Yes?"

"I love you." I muttered. He pulled himself out of my grip, grinning.

"Did Roxanne Potter just show emotion?" I glared at him and punched his arm playfully.

"Love you to, Spice." He winked and turned on his heel to find the other Marauders. I smiled at his retreating back. No one had called me Spice for years. When I was younger, I used to love locking myself into the cupboard in the kitchens that had all the cooking spices in. My family and Sirius used to call me Spice all the time because of it. With a sigh, I turned back and headed off down the opposite side of the train.

"Welcome, to another year at Hogwarts! It is nice to see so many familiar faces again, and new faces that will become familiar over the next few months. You must all be tired and hungry after your long journey, so without further ado, I say, ham, cheese and crackers! Enjoy your meal." Dumbledore sat back down on his seat and the Grand Hall erupted into applause.

In front of me appeared a steamy bowl of soup and some bread. The sorting had been as interesting as the other years. Gryffindor had seven first years. They looked like goody goodies so I felt confident we would win the House cup. Students all around us were staring and probably wondering why the Marauders were seated in such strange positions. I had to agree. Usually it was Remus and me on the right side of the table and Sirius, James and Peter on the left. This time, it was James and me on the left side and the others on the right. Sirius and Remus hadn't said a word to me since the train journey. They hadn't so much as looked in my direction.

I wasn't until I felt a pair of eyes watching me that I looked up. I was startled to see Sirius watching me intently. He didn't smile. I just watched him. I waited. For what, I wasn't sure. Maybe for him to crack one of his jokes, for him smile and let me know he was there for me. Nothing came. Sirius' usually warm eyes were cold. I wasn't used to him looking at me like that. It hurt. I broke his gaze and started talking to Jennifer Fey about the Howling Vampires latest hit record, Cold Stare. After dinner, Dumbledore stood up again and waited for silence.

"Now, I hope you all enjoyed our delicious feast. The Forbidden Forest is as its name suggests, forbidden to all students," here he paused and glanced at the Marauders with a twinkle in his eye, "I'd like to welcome our new Defence Against the Dark Arts professor, S. K Green. I'm sure you're all exhausted so I shall bid you goodnight!"

There was a sudden scrape of benches being pushed back as the students poured out of the Great Hall. I followed, lost in thought.

"Roxy." A deep voice said. I looked up and smiled warmly.

"What's up Sirius?" I asked. Sirius came over to the bed I was sitting on and cupped my cheek. Suddenly, his face was about an inch away from mine. I swallowed hard. I tried to keep my eyes locked with Sirius' but I found them straying down to his lips that were literally screaming at me to kiss them.

"Do you like this Roxy? Being close to me?" He whispered. I could feel his warm breath tickle my lips. Sirius' voice sent a shiver up and down my spine. I nodded.

Sirius smiled, "I thought so. Would you like me to kiss you?" I nodded again.

I woke with a start. That had been… different. Since did I fantasize about Sirius? It must have been the kiss on the train. It's not my fault he was a good kisser. Just because I want to it again, it doesn't mean I like him or anything… Right? I shook my head and swung the bedcovers back. I got up quietly and headed out of the dorm. I climbed down the stairs and walked through the common room. I looked at my watch. Twenty past twelve. The guys would probably still be awake. I needed to talk to James. I arrived outside the door. I could hear laughter. Obviously, they had made up.

Great. Now it's just me they're annoyed with. I thought. I knocked.

"S'open." Came Remus' voice.

I opened the door and stepped inside. The smiles on Sirius and Remus' face disappeared. I shifted uncomfortably. I noticed James wasn't in the room. Maybe they hadn't made up. Peter tried to glare at me, but failed.

"Uh. Hey." I said, not expecting an answer.

"Hey Liar. What do you want?" Sirius spat coldly. I winced and I felt tears burn my eyelids.

"I… wanted to talk to James. Is he here?" I asked nervously.

"No, he's not here. He went down to the kitchens. The door's over there. Close it on your way out." Remus said quietly.

I felt a tear run down the side of my face. "Remus, can I talk to you?" He ignored me.

I went over to him and sat down on his bed.

"Moony, please let me talk to you." He ignored me again. "Please? Just for a minute. No longer. I promise." His eyes flashed.

"That's what you said when you found out." Remus snapped at me.

"What?" I asked, confused. Remus turned to face me. His face showed no emotion.

"You promised me you weren't scared. I asked you a million times and each time you said you weren't. Do you have any idea how much it meant to me that you weren't scared? Now, two years later I find out you were lying. You know I hate liars Roxy. Just go. I don't want to speak to you." Remus said. He didn't even raise his voice which made it worse. I couldn't stop then. I cried. Right there in the boys dorms. Me. Roxanne Potter. The girl who never cries.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Remus," I whispered. I leant over and gave him a peck on the cheek, "You mean everything to me." I got up and left the room. Just as I closed the door, I heard Peter say:

"Oh my God. Was she crying?" There was a loud thump and an "oooow" that followed.

I smiled weakly to myself and headed back to bed.

A/N: Okay, the next chapters almost done so I'll update quickly. :-)