omg everyone i'm soooooo sorry i've been really caught up with school so with out further ado here is the next chapter

warnings:hints at rape, self harm, alittle ocness from snape

(Harry's p.o.v)

I smiled feeling the rough bark against my arms. I hugged the tree as I sank to my knees wincing as a long invisible cut was ripped open on my arm the lake looking haunting this time of day the moon hanging low over the horizon. and the water kissing the shore with a seductiveness that only long time lovers could master I picked up my charcoal pencil and imagined Yami dancing on its waves his ghost forever damned to its murky depts. I drew his long white hair tickling his shoulder blades and ripped raw skin where his gorgeous angel wings had sprouted I drew his seductive lips full and round he was the only ghost aloud to touch me as I drew him dancing on the water he held me brushing away the invisible hands that plagued me he smooth my hair down and then he kissed my lips gently I dropped my pencil and fluttered my eyes closed he held me tenderly I didn't want anyone to touch me but Yami was ok my skin didn't crawl and I didn't want to scream and slice off my flesh Yami grabbed my hand and nipped on my ear "harry please don't be a teenage tragedy"

my world went black

(Severus's p.o.v)

I saluted out to where harry laid a sketch book clutched in his hand "potter?" I had done it again thought of him as harry bae Mr. Storm was right I did care for the boy more then I should I sat down next to him picking up his sketch book flipping though it sighing it was full of pain filled drawing of bays with missing limbs sawn shut mouths and hollow bleeding eyes I noticed a pattern somehow some way hands where always in his drawings...

I had gotten to Harry's most recent sketches all were of a man with full what angle wings no hands but his present. harry stirred next to me gasping in his sleep I looked down at him and against my will smiled at him his lips where full and pink his eyelashes had dew drops of tears held in them and his messy hair seemed to form a halo around his face if anyone was an angle it was him I smiled again and flipped his sketch book to the last page and began drawing him channeling my own old Hogwarts days I drew him cradled in his angle wings a broken halo atop his head signing my name on the small part of the halo I closed the book and put it away in his school bag leaning down I scooped harry up into my arms and carried him to the Gryffindor dormitory's brushing leafs out of his hair before leaving him to his peaceful sleep

the fire blazed its flames licking the edge of the fire place Draco laughed at me while I gulped down firewisky "you have a soft spot for potter" Draco danced around me causing my head to scream in pain "shut up brat I do not" he plopped down next to me "I'm professor Snape and I'm going to draw cute pictures of harry potter sleeping in hopes he'll return my miss guided love" my eyebrow twitched in irritation "Draco go to your rooms"

(Harry's p.o.v)

"hey harry?" I sat up rubbing the sleep out of my eye's trying to remember how I leaned back into my bed last night "haaaaaarrrrry..." Yami sat at the end of my bed his pale blue eyes staring at me "hey Yami" he smiled at me and watched silently as I got dressed and joined scotty, Jake, Xavier, and the girl he was currently sleeping with some slithered with ashen skin and wire hair she looked broken. Jake was hinting at a great prank he was planning on pulling later that week jakes hand snaked down to hold mine under the table my hair bristled "harry calm down its ok" Yami calmed me down by whispering in my ear smiling I squeezed jakes hand we walked like that to first paired our fingers intertwined like the vines of a deadly night shade plant I dropped his hand when professor Snape turned around I drudgingly felt guilty and gross Yami was gone dragged under the waves again the hands had returned groping and pulling me with their dirty fingers

I wanted to scream

"potter!" I jolted awake at snaps voice his body leaning over mine the class was empty Jake had left me "I'm..." the hands clawed at my throat then began choking

his eyes bored down into me as I began packing my stuff into my book back and I opened the class room door I vaguely heard him mumbled "don't go out tonight it's gonna rain" against better thought my heart warmed as I relied who had picked me up and put me in bed

he cares

he doesn't care

your dirty

lovely the voices are back

I had gone through that day in almost a blur I had ditched Jake and the others to sit in the common rooms I was afraid of them afraid that after today they'd want to touch me but I didn't want them to become dirty like me

rain started falling on the window and images started to flash before my eyes the rain hitting the ground Draco's father restraining my arms pushing into me my cloths being pulled apart hands roaming up and down my body lips and tongues wagging on me I had to get them off of me I ran to the bedrooms pulling out my blocked knife from my bag and dashing out of the commend room and into the nearest bath room

its empty

thank merlin

I began cutting at myself trying anything to get those hands off me up and down my arms long deep cuts mingled

my torso was next carved swirls etched into my skin my hands chook violently when I got to my thighs the hands where rubbing touching them I screamed cutting at them my skin would have been ribbons if it wasn't for the voice the range out "harry!" more hands held me real hands I half expected half hoped that hose hands would have belonged to coal black eyes but when I looked up I was met with icy blue eyes

I had lived through my first rain

(jakes p.o.v)

the lights flickered and dimed in my head it made me aware of running footsteps upon looking up I realized they belonged to harry as he came streaking by meatle and tears following in his wake a sadistic smile spread across my face as I stalked after him. so frantic and lost he was unaware of me while I stood there and watched him I chuckled this was gonna be easer then I though putting on my mask I ran to harry "harry!"

woot! there yall go i hope you liked this chapter i'm already working on the next one so keep your eyes out for that. please review :)