After Eric left, I went to bed.
The next day came quickly, and I wasn't in the mood for anything.
I went downstairs and made myself a cup of coffee.
"Good morning." I heard Crystal say, while she walked to the kitchen.
"Morning." I replied.
"What 's wrong?" She said.
"Nothing. I'm not a morning person, remember?"
"It's 11:00 am.."
"Yeah."
"Abby, are you pissed that I let Eric in?"
"No. I'm pissed because I felt a spark with him. Well, I'm not really pissed. Just confused."
"Eric kissed you?"
"Yeah.. This is so confusing." I said, while sitting on the kitchen bar stool, and leaning my head on the counter.
"John asked you to get back together with him, didn't he?"
"Yes.. Sort of. He kissed me, and when I said we couldn't get back together, he asked me why."
"What was your reply?"
"That tour would start soon, and I didn't want a re-run of what happened before."
"Is he mad?"
"No. He understood. I told him I needed time to think about it."
"Oh."
"Yup. Eric kissing me did not make anything better."
"Are you starting to like him?"
"I don't know." I said, while drowning my misery in my cup of coffee.
"Are you ever going to speak to Eric again?" She asked, while making herself a cup of coffee.
"Yeah, he's one of my best friends. We need to work this out somehow." I replied.
I jumped from my seat, when the doorbell rang.
"Are you okay?" Crystal asked, since she noticed me getting scared.
"Yeah. I just feel really weak for some reason, so the doorbell scared me. I'll see who it is." I said while walking to the door, with my cup in my hand.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, after opening the door.
"I wanted to talk to you." Eric said, while looking at his feet. "Can I come in?"
"Yeah, sure." I said, while making way for him. "Do you want some coffee or anything?" I asked, while closing the door and walking to the kitchen.
"No, I'm good."
"You sure?"
"Yeah.." He said, while sitting down and putting his hands on the counter.
"Oh, Hey Eric.. I'll um, leave you guys alone." Crystal said, while walking up the stairs after noticing a troubled Eric.
"Are you okay?" I asked, while taking a seat next to him and putting my hand on his.
"You're not mad at me?"
"Eric, we've been best friends for years. We need to work this out. I didn't like what happened yesterday, but I'm not mad."
"Oh.."
"Yeah.."
"I can't stop thinking about yesterday. I shouldn't have kissed you. You didn't want it, I should've just stopped."
"Eric, what the hell is going on? You said you loved me, and now you regret kissing me?"
"You wanted me to kiss you?"
"No, it's not that. I just don't understand what you're trying to tell me."
"I don't want you hating me for that one kiss.."
"I could never hate you." I said, while holding his hand. "We're best friends."
"I know. But it's hard being best friends with a girl who makes your heart skip a beat."
"Eric, please.."
"You need to know this, Abby. What happened yesterday, I wanted it. I felt a spark. Don't say you didn't either, because you would've stopped me."
"Do you want the truth?"
"Yes."
"I did feel a spark with you, Eric."
"Then what's the problem?"
"I'm still in love with John." I said, while removing my hand from his.
"Oh."
"Yeah.."
"I'll just be leaving then." He said, while getting up.
"Eric, don't go." I said while pulling his hand.
"You don't need me in your life, Abby. I can't be around you without feeling like an ass."
"We can work this out, Eric."
"No, we can't." He said, while walking to the door.
"Eric!" I screamed.
"What?"
" I need you." I said, while hugging him, and letting my tears flow slowly.
"Abby." He said, while holding me tightly.
"Please don't leave me. We're best friends. I need you in my life. I want you in my life." I whispered.
"I'm sorry." He said, while rubbing my back.
"Abby, this is going to be hard for me. You need to understand. I don't think things will ever be the same." He said, while looking at me.
"So what do we do?"
"I honestly don't know.."