A/N: Thanks again for the reviews. I love them all and for those of you who have read but have wanted to review and didn't because you had to sign in, you can now review. I didn't know that it was set like that so that problem has been fixed. But anyway, for the thanks…

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Thanks again everyone for the reviews. Oh and the quote from the last chapter was "Choose. Choose between yesterday and tomorrow. Pick one and stick with it." I had just watched the movie Message in a Bottle the night before I wrote the last chapter and I fell in love with that quote so I decided to throw it in here. lol But that's enough rambling. Onto the story.

Nothing Less Than an Impossible Fate

Chapter Four: Dealing With the Everyday

"Damn it!" She heard him yell in the living room. He had only been home from the hospital for a little less than a week and they were still enjoying just being married again. They spent every minute together. Laughing and joking with each other. They were like any newly married couple. Except they hadn't made love yet. And there was no guarantee that they ever would again. Courtney didn't really care about that. She was just excited that he had survived and they were even able to be married again. Jason was another story.

"What happened?" She asked walking from the kitchen.

"Nothing, I'm fine." He snapped. He was looking at the floor in front of him where he had knocked over the vase that had been on the table beside him, now lying in a million little pieces. "I'm sorry. I just got this damn chair stuck and I hit the table and the vase fell over." He said still not looking her in the eye.

"It's fine. It was just a vase." She said rubbing his arm trying to calm him down. She could tell by his breathing that this really upset him.

She bent down to start cleaning up his mess. "You don't have to do that. I can do it." He told her.

"It's fine." She said simply and continued cleaning up the glass while he wheeled himself away from her and over to the balcony windows. "Hey, what's wrong? You don't have to worry about that. The vase can be replaced."

"It's not that." He sighed. "I don't know why I lived." He said barely above a whisper and Courtney had to strain to understand what he said.

"What do you mean?" She asked cautiously.

"I can't do anything on my own. I couldn't even clean up my own mess." He avoided her gaze. "I hate being so helpless. I can't walk or do anything that I want to. I was so independent and did things for myself and it's hard to not be able to do anything anymore. Sometimes I just wish I would have been taken away from this misery that I call my life."

That was the first time that Courtney realized just how much everything was really affecting him. He had been home for a little less than a week from the hospital and everything seemed normal. He didn't seem like anything had changed in him except that he could no longer walk. But this instant showed that he really had changed. Where as before Jason didn't feel like he had anything to live for because he didn't have Courtney, he had her now. Now he believed he should have died to be put out of his own misery. She had seen the angry side of Jason plenty of times in the past but he never once said he wished he had died or that he wished he would. Hearing those words leave his mouth broke her heart. She knew then why the doctor had recommended therapy and she now thought it was actually a good idea.

She now sat studying the wall that she was now facing in the empty waiting room. Every now and then, a nurse would walk by looking for someone or someone would take a minute to sit down. But, let's face it the environment around them wasn't exactly the most welcoming so they always left after a few minutes.

Pale blue. They really needed to paint the hospital walls a different color. Pale blue wasn't exactly the most exciting color in the world and it definitely wouldn't make anyone's day brighter. If anything, it made everything seem a little drearier. But she had grown accustomed to it all. The sound of the elevator arriving on its designated floor, the telephone ringing at the nurses' station, the wheels rolling on the floor when a patient was being moved. Things she had become used to and she now knew what was going on around her without even having to move her eyes from her magazine. It was just something that happened over time. It was expected after spending most of the past year of your life in that same chair reading about the same celebrity gossip. Who was now getting married, who was dating and who was having a baby. All things she learned three times a week while sitting in the waiting room of General Hospital waiting for Jason to finish with his physical therapy.

For the past year, she had come to the same floor and sat in the same chair and read the newest People magazine. It was almost like her life had never consisted of anything else. It was now just a weekly routine and they had all adjusted to it in their own time. But some things never changed. She still heard the nurses' whispers as they walked by and felt their eyes on her back. She knew how they all felt. They all felt sorry for her because of what she had to deal with. But they were all relieved that it wasn't their problem.

"Do you mind telling me what you are staring at?" She practically yelled to the nurse that had just walked by.

"I-uh- I'm- I'm sorry." She stuttered in response and continued on her way.

"I can't believe you just did that." Courtney said after the nurse was out of earshot

"What? She was staring." Carly answered simply.

"What do you expect? We are the wives of Jason Morgan and Sonny Corinthos, the two most feared men in Port Charles. And we are sitting in the hospital waiting room because Jason can no long walk and he is having therapy." She sighed knowing this was now her life. "People are interested and they want to know."

"Maybe…" Carly looked at her. "But to the world they are just two mob bosses who deserve everything that they get. To us…" She paused. "They are our world."

Jason's accident didn't just hit Jason and Courtney hard, it also really hurt Carly. She watched as her best friend fell to pieces and watched as his life was changed forever and she couldn't do anything about it. It broke her heart to know that Jason was getting everything that he ever wanted while losing one of the biggest things in the world. While watching Jason's life disintegrate, she watched as Sonny went through another breakdown. He blamed himself for everything and this time Jason couldn't be the one to bring him back. She felt like she was losing her best friend and her husband at the same time.

"Hey." Carly said cautiously behind Courtney. It was obvious that she was off in her own world.

"Oh hey." She smiled. "What are you doing here?"

"Just visiting mom." she returned her smile. She still hated when they were at the hospital together. It always reminded her of the year before. When she saw her there, it was like reliving every moment and all of the pain.

"Jason should be finished with physical therapy soon if you want to stick around." Courtney offered.

"Uh- no, that's okay. I gotta get home to the boys but tell him I said hi." Carly said quickly as she walked to the elevator and hit the button. She smiled one last time at Courtney before stepping through the doors.

Courtney sighed. She hated the tension between them all right now. She and Carly had grown apart. The same could be said for Jason and Carly. Carly avoided Jason because part of her blamed herself for what happened. For not being able to stop Sonny that night. And that was part of the reason she hadn't had a real conversation with Courtney either but there was more to it. She felt that she was showing off. She felt that she was rubbing it in that she had a perfectly healthy husband while she didn't. They had tried talking many times in the past but it never came out the way they wanted it to. They never made any progress and they always ended arguing. So now they just made small talk anytime they saw each other and avoided the subject all together.

"Hey!" She said excitedly as Jason was wheeled out by his physical therapist. "How was it today?"

"Tiring." He said simply. It was times like these that all of this really took its toll on him. And when you could tell. He always looked exhausted after his therapy session and he would go to sleep as soon as they returned home.

"I actually think it's time to take the therapy down a notch." His therapist Amy spoke up. "We are tiring you out to much and there really isn't reason for having three sessions a week." After seeing the look Jason gave her she clarified. "I mean, I know how much you hate hospitals. I'm just trying to help." She smiled at him and then Courtney.

"What do you think?" Courtney asked Jason.

"Whatever you think is best." He stifled a yawn.

"That just might be our answer." She laughed. "Come on…" She walked behind his chair and started pushing him toward the elevator. "Let's get you home and in bed."

She lifted him from his chair for the second time that day and sat him on the bed. She went through the normal routine. Smoothing the sweats he was wearing and then the blankets. It was still quite a job for her.

"Thanks." He looked at her and smiled. His eyes were already drooping shut and she could tell he was fighting to stay awake.

"What do you say I join you?" She climbed on the bed and for the first time in months laid her head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around her waist. They both quickly fell into the most peaceful sleep either one of them had had in months, laying in each others arms.

Okay so I know… not the best chapter in the world. I was just kind of stuck with this chapter. I didn't have a lot to do after the last emotional chapter. And I'm so sorry that it took me so long to update but things have gotten crazy again. Because unfortunately I have started school and that obviously takes up quite a bit of time. So please be patient with me and once again I'm sorry for taking so long. Who knows maybe if I get a bunch of reviews I will make myself update sooner! hint, hint