Author's note: This is about Detectives Kevin Ryan and Javier Esposito but will involve several other characters from the show. I'm not sure exactly where this is going to go (aside from the obvious, a romance between Esposito and Ryan). I may jump around in time somewhat (e.g., flashbacks), and I'll try to stick more or less to the themes of the series and reference a few episodes, but no promises... it's obviously a parallel reality, though even on the show they're very friendly.
All Would Envy, Part 1
(We continue to flashback to when Javier Esposito and Kevin Ryan's relationship was just beginning; about a year before the start of the first story in this series.)
Kevin Ryan woke up slowly, disoriented at first as to exactly where he was. This was not his bed. And there was someone... He rolled over. 'Oh my god, it wasn't a dream.' Javier Esposito was lying in bed about a foot away from him, apparently asleep. And Javier didn't have a shirt on. Was he... had they? Kevin had only had a couple beers the night before. He recalled telling Javier his secret, and then next thing he knew they were making out. He smiled to himself and blushed, remembering it.
Then suddenly Javier opened his eyes and looked right at Kevin. "Good morning, sunshine." He said with that cute Latin-tinged husky voice, and then smiled.
"H-hi Javi." Kevin stammered.
"Wow you got some serious bed-head there dude." Esposito said, as he reached out and gently ran his hand over Ryan's spiky auburn hair.
Kevin closed his eyes and shivered. 'This fucking isn't happening.' He thought.
He felt Javier mover closer. "You okay Kev?" He asked in a soft voice.
Ryan opened his eyes and smiled sheepishly. "Yeah, I guess it's still kind of overwhelming. And you seem to be just taking it in stride, dude." He wiggled his eyebrows a little.
"Bro believe me, I'm a little overwhelmed too. But I'm really glad you stayed." He pulled Kevin closer, tentatively at first, not wanting to push the younger Detective too far.
But Ryan cooperated, scooting right up to Esposito. Their legs were rubbing together, Javier's bare chest against Kevin's wifebeater-clad one.
"This is nice." Kevin sighed. Then he realized he was getting turned on again, just by Javier being this close to him.
"Sure is bro. But you know what, we have to go to work soon. We should probably get up before we get, uh, sidetracked." He winked. "And if you don't do something with that hair before you get there, people are gonna wonder what you were up to!" He ruffled Ryan's hair, more playfully this time.
"Just a few more minutes?" Kevin pleaded. He still half-believed this was a dream, and if he got out of bed the spell of it would be broken. He put his arm around Esposito, felt the powerful muscles of the Detective's back under his fingers.
"Okay, but if we both walk in late, Beckett is gonna give us the evil eye."
"And give us a lecture about staying out drinking?" Ryan made a face.
"I'm just sayin' we need to be careful."
Kevin felt a little pang of hurt then. "Would you be embarrassed if people knew about us? I know we just had one date and all, so I guess I could understand..."
"Kevin Ryan, stop it!" Javier pleaded. "Everyone at work knows I care about you. Beckett's even made all those jokes about you being like my little brother. Let's just take this one step at a time. We do have to think about whether it's appropriate because we're partners. At least I'm not your superior." He added with a little smile.
"Okay. You're right of course. No making out at the precinct. So, what do we do next?" Kevin asked, then immediately regretted it. 'Damn that didn't sound needy or anything.'
"Well..." Esposito slid his hand up inside Ryan's wifebeater and felt his abs. The Irishman couldn't suppress a shiver of excitement. "I can't afford to keep buying you dinner, so you want to come over again tonight and I'll make you something?"
"You cook?" Kevin was incredulous. Then he gasped as Javier found one of his nipples.
Esposito kept talking in a conversational tone as he started to gently fondle Ryan's sensitive nipple. "Guess there's a lot you don't know about me. I'm not a great cook, but I do okay. So, are you up for that?"
"Umm, uh, yeah sure. Uhh, Javi, no one has ever played with my nipple like that. You better stop..." Kevin was starting to writhe from the intense pleasure of Esposito teasing his nipple.
"You're a firecracker." Javier grinned, slipped his hand out, and patted Ryan on the chest. Guess I'll have to wait 'til later to get you to pop. I thought I heard you were more kinky than that." Esposito leered.
"Oh jeezus!" Kevin pushed Javier away, partly so the man wouldn't feel the seriously raging erection in his boxer-briefs. He crawled out of bed. "Where are my pants?"
"I dunno, I tossed 'em somewhere when I pulled them off you. So is it a date?"
"No I've decided we're not compatible." Ryan said derisively, then before Javier could even react he said, 'Of course, bro! But I'll go get some wine after work then we can meet here okay? White or red?"
Esposito propped his head up on his elbow. "Red. But only because I'm gonna make some pasta with my famous meat sauce. Otherwise it's beer all the way bro." 'I'll bet you do have some famous meat sauce,' Kevin thought to himself. Javier watched as Kevin found his jeans and tried to pull them on but got caught in one leg and was hopping around the bedroom. 'He's so cute. I just love his goofiness. Is that a word?'
Ryan looked over at Esposito. 'Damn he is so incredibly hot. And here I am trying to get my pants on and almost falling over like the spazz I am.'
Javier saw Kevin to the main entrance of the apartments. It was early for the city, but a little late for them, and their shift was starting soon.
Ryan shuffled from one foot to the other, hands in pockets. "So, um, we're gonna be cool at work today? You'll still talk to me?"
"Bro, you're a goofball. If anything I'll have trouble keeping my hands off you - well more than I usually do. Don't worry!" He tenderly pulled the younger man into his arms, then whispered in his ear. "I care so much about you Kev, I have for a long time. I-I'm scared too, okay? But I hope you're excited too." Then he kissed Ryan on the neck, patted his butt and gave him a little push. "Now fix that sexy hair, dorkus!"
Kevin stalked to his squad car, trying without much success to suppress the grin on his face.
Meanwhile, across the road in a parked car, someone was watching and photographing the couple. "So, Detective Ryan, there IS someone special you care about. This is an interesting and unexpected opportunity."
"What are you grinning about?" Castle annnoyingly, but lovingly demanded as he strutted into the 12th Precinct's breakroom.
"No-nothing. Was I grinning?"
"Yes, you had this self-satisfied smirk on your face. Did you have a hot date last night or something?"
"None of your business Castle! Kevin snapped, a little too defensively.
"Ahhh, so you did have a date! Did you seduce her with your advanced knowledge of Madden or loud neckware?" Castle leaned in with that annoying little smile of his.
"Castle, I'm really busy, okay? Go back to hang out at Beckett's desk where you belong." Ryan felt himself blushing.
"Wait..." Castle sniffed in an overly dramatic way near Kevin. "Were you out drinking? And I smell cologne, you don't wear that cologne. I've smelled that before..."
"CASTLE!" Kevin slammed his coffee mug down.
"Do you want to hear my theory about the hat in the Setzer case?"
"No! Get out!" Ryan almost yelled.
"What's going on here?" Kate Beckett had just come in the door, looking from one man to the other. She'd rarely seen Kevin so angry, but then Castle could certainly piss anybody off.
"Nothing Beckett, I'm sorry I lost it, and it's all fine." Ryan turned his back to them and towards the coffee.
"My bad, though someone's a bit touchy today. Had a hot date and may be a bit hung-over!" Castle said with his usual smug attitude. "I'll be on my way!" And he strutted out.
Kate rolled her eyes as the insufferable, but handsome, writer left. When the door had shut, she went to Kevin's side. "Everything okay?"
Ryan shrugged, rolled his head back and forth as he sometimes did. "Yeah, you know how Castle can get under your skin."
"Don't I! He can be a prissy little prima donna. Don't let him bother you."
Kevin tensed a little involuntarily when Beckett said 'prissy,' wondering if secretly she had a problem with gay guys. "I don't even know why he came in here, he was acting strange."
"Maybe he was trying to hit on you. You could do a lot better." She said with a little smile.
"Wha-what?" Ryan was terrible in situations like this and he knew it. A million things ran through his mind, but his mouth could barely make an intelligible noise. Did she suspect he was gay?
Kate saw Kevin's discomfort and was immediately sorry she'd made an inappropriate comment. She was used to strange flirty conversations with Castle, Demming, and even Montgomery once or twice, but poor Ryan just seemed in over his head. She wondered if he had some kind of crush on her, because of his interest in historic unsolved crimes and her dark past. "I'm sorry, forget I said that. I didn't mean to imply anything about anyone either way."
"Yes, ma'am."
"And don't ever call me 'ma'am' again."
"No-nope, uh, OK Beckett."
"Good. Now here's the file on the Trekkie Killer, the evidence should be-"
"It's 'TrekkER' Kevin said in a measured voice.
"What?"
"Trek fans prefer to be called 'Trekkers' not 'Trekkies.' Ask Adams down in Vice, he's the Trek expert."
"Adams? But he's always trying to be so cool, always talking about his time surfing in LA."
"Trust me. Do this"- Kevin made the Vulcan hand sign - "And he will fall all over himself."
"What is it?"
"It would take too long to explain."
"Oookay. So if you don't mind me asking, how was your date last night? Who are they? Are you going to see them again?"
Ryan rolled his eyes. "Beckett please, not the third degree from you too! Though I don't mind it so much from you."
"Well, I'm glad you're getting out and meeting people, that's all. I was just curious." She worked her best concerned sister face.
Kevin looked off into space. "I had a date, it was nice. Well actually really nice. And we're seeing eachother again tonight." He realized he was smiling again and stopped himself. "We'll see. That's all you get for now!"
"I guess I deserved that. Oh, and you might want to go check your hair, a little beadhead." She said, gesturing to one side of her head on her way out.
Esposito's day was less stressful; mostly just the tedium that detectives sometimes deal with in investigations. It was a lot of tromping around at a shooting scene, while Kevin solo-canvassed the area, so they didn't get to see eachother most of the day. Javier walked down an alley looking for bullet casings. 'It will be so great to cuddle with Kev when it's cold at night. I can't remember the last time I did that with someone. I might actually use that fireplace in the living room. He's such a cute guy. Did I just think that? Maybe I am gay, or maybe bi; who knows. I just know I really like him. There's something so innocent about him, but I think there may be a little bit of a wild boy inside...' Esposito almost walked by a casing in the gutter. 'Damn I need to concentrate. I miss the guy already and it's only been a few hours, what's up? I don't know if I've ever felt this... weird feeling in my chest when I think about him.'
"Esposito, everything okay?" It was Beckett standing over him, stretching out his name as only she would do.
Javier cleared his throat. "Hey Beckett, yeah, I just found a casing and was about to bag it."
"Good. You just seemed a few miles away there for a moment." Kate said with slightly furrowed brows. I hope you're not being a bad influence on your partner." Then she got that strange bemused look on herface, which Esposito could swear was kind of teasing.
'Shit! She could NOT know, could she?'
Ryan was at Javier's door at exactly 8 p.m., their agreed time. Esposito was in jeans and a tight long-sleeve tee. When he answered the door, there was Kevin in a jacket and iridescent tie, a brilliant purple shirt and his hair coiffed up perfectly. He was holding two bottles of wine.
"Oh, maybe I, uh overdressed." Ryan stammered, before Javier grabbed him by his tie, pulled him inside, and slammed the door.
"Nope, you look great. But you often do dress up more than me." He wrapped his arms around the detective, who was still holding the wine, and hugged him. "I missed you all day, is that weird?"
"Really? Bro, I can't believe you."
"Why?" Esposito pulled back a little to look Kevin in the face. "What did I say?"
"No, I mean, you say what you feel, you don't hold back." He hurriedly put the bottles down. "I still can't believe it, you and me." He put his hand on Javier's strong pec, over his heart. "I was thinking about you all day too." He said in kind of a choked voice.
Esposito felt that ache again, not an unpleasant ache but one that was new to him. "Believe it Kev. I couldn't get you out of my mind. Beckett caught me zoning out!" He grinned. "Now I gotta get back to dinner. Come on in."
The intensity of the moment relaxed and they went to the kitchen.
"I don't know much about wine, so I probably bought some overpriced shit that we couldn't tell from something in a box."
"Don't worry about it. Though I'm sure Castle would give his opinion about it." Javier fished out a corkscrew and handed it to Ryan. "You know how to use that?"
"I did a brief stint as a waiter in college, thank you! Speaking of Castle, ohmigod he came into the breakroom today and he was sniffing around, literally! He said he smelled some cologne on me that he recognized but he didn't know from where, must have been yours." Kevin deftly removed the cork from the first bottle and poured into two glasses Esposito provided.
"Man I don't wear much cologne, but you know he has some Spidey-senses."
"And then Beckett was asking me if I'd had a date last night. Is everyone that desperate for gossip?"
Javier shrugged. "I like to think of it more like they care about us. Well some of them do. And maybe they're happy not to BE the gossip." He raised his glass towards Ryan. "Can we drink to us being gossip for them for a long time?"
"That's a little fucked up, bro but I'll take it." Kevin clinked and they both took a big drink. "Can I help with dinner?"
"Sure thing hot guy, you can do the salad. I'll trust you to wash everything well."
They laughed and talked and playfully bumped each other while they worked in the small kitchen. At one point Kevin said "This is really fun, I never made dinner with anyone." And Esposito gave him one of his biggest smiles. "It is nice isn't it."
Javier didn't really have a dining room in his small apartment, but he had a table he'd made up, with all kinds of interesting mismatched vintage and funky plates and flatware. "Sit down and I'll serve."
"Javi this stuff is so cool!" Ryan marveled at some of the designs. He poured more wine for both of them; they were already almost through the first bottle. "You know, I didn't even realize, today is Friday."
Esposito grinned. "Beckett would kill us if we turned our phones and pagers off."
"Well, she'd bark at you, she'd crucify me."
"No, she'd give us both the glare on Monday, though neither of us is technically on call, are we?"
"Nope."
"Well, we can hope for a quiet weekend." Javier said, putting plates of pasta and sauce on the table with salad and bread.
All Kevin could think was 'All weekend with Javier Esposito.' Then he thought 'god that even sounds sappy to me.' "Javi this smells amazing."
After dinner they did the minimal cleanup of dumping everything in the sink to deal with later, and Ryan, feeling evil, opened the second bottle of wine and filled Esposito's glass.
"Are you trying to seduce me, Mister Ryan?" Javier asked, smiling as usual.
"That's Detective Ryan to you, bro, but I thought it might make the evening go more smoothly." Kevin answered. "That's actually a line from Star Trek Six, where they were going to serve Romulan Ale..." and his voice died out.
While he spoke, Esposito had put his glass down, and was slowly walking towards Ryan. "You really are a nerd."
"Well, actually Adams is a bigger Trek geek than me."
By then Javier had reached Kevin and was starting to press him against the kitchen counter.
Suddenly Ryan grabbed the back of Esposito's neck and pulled him into a kiss. Then he stood up very straight and started pushing Javier backwards until he was against the other counter. With his free hand he reached down and cupped one of Esposito's muscular ass cheeks and squeezed it. Javier flexed it for him and this time he moved his long tongue into Kevin's eager mouth. After a minute of this, Ryan broke the kiss. "Javi I want you so bad." He said breathlessly.
Esposito looked into the cute younger Detective's bright blue eyes. "I want you too, Kev. I think somewhere in the background of my head I have for a while." He said softly, his expression intent and serious. Then as Kevin started to pull him to the bedroom, he said, more in his usual manner, "Let's bring your wine, and some water for later."
To Be Continued...
This story is a complete work of fiction and all characters are copyrighted to ABC, Beacon Pictures, Andrew Marlowe, etc. This is in no way a real representation of the actors or the characters. It's fun to play with them just the same.
Author's note: This is about Detectives Kevin Ryan and Javier Esposito but will involve several other characters from the show. I'm not sure exactly where this is going to go (aside from the obvious, a romance between Esposito and Ryan). I may jump around in time somewhat (e.g., flashbacks), and I'll try to stick more or less to the themes of the series and reference a few episodes, but no promises... it's obviously a parallel reality, though even on the show they're very friendly.
All Would Envy, Part 2
(We continue to flashback to when Javier Esposito and Kevin Ryan's relationship was just beginning; about a year before the start of the first story in this series.)
In the bedroom, They set down their wine glasses, and Javier started to pull off his T-shirt.
"No, let me do it." said Ryan in an unusually strong voice.
A tiny smile crossed Javier's lips and he let the shirt back down.
Kevin started to very lightly caress Esposito's chest, his abs, his back. Javier had big square pecs, Ryan could see them through his shirt, and of course last night. He gently turned the older Detective around. "Javier Esposito, you are so amazing." He whispered into his ear, and slid his hands up inside Javier's T-shirt from behind, feeling his big blocky pecs then finding his nipples.
"Oooooh, maaaaan." Esposito groaned. "Brooooo, I'm kiiiiind of tiiiiicklish."
"Good to know." Kevin smiled from behind him as he pulled off the shirt. Then he ran his hands down the front of Javier's jeans, just brushing his crotch. He felt Esposito shiver a little. He unbuttoned the jeans and eased the zipper down, then slowly pulled them down over the the Latino's muscular thighs. "Javi, you have a really cute ass."
"I've been told that." Esposito said with a little laugh as he stepped out of his pants. "Now, you got to undress me, I get to undress you." Javier asserted, putting his hands on Ryan's as the Irishman started to pull off his tie.
"Fair enough." Kevin said softly. He was already about to go crazy with Esposito standing there in front of him wearing just a pair of tight little black briefs. The man was so hunky and powerfully built. Hell, even his legs were big and strong.
Instead of removing Ryan's tie, Javier started unbuttoning his shirt, then slipping his hand in to caress the man's smooth lean torso. Finally he pulled it open, and off Kevin shoulders, leaving the tie on. Then he moved in close, and locked his gaze with Ryan's as he unbuckled his belt and unbuttoned his jeans. He yanked them down off of Kevin's perky little butt.
He had Ryan's shirt off and his pants around his knees. He cupped his hands on the Detective's chest and felt Kevin's naturally smooth skin.
Ryan moaned a little then and closed his eyes, breaking their gaze. "God that feels good." When Esposito knelt a little and took one nipple in his mouth, Kevin about lost it. "Oh jeeeeez...!" Then he suddenly pushed Javier away, kicked off his shoes and jeans, and pulled off the tie, so he was just in boxer-briefs. Then he guided Esposito to the bed. "Lie on your back."
"What are you gonna do?" Javier looked a little apprehensive.
"Oh come on, nothing really kinky."
"Well, okay." Esposito sprawled spread-eagle on his bed. Ryan tried not to stare at the big bulge in his briefs.
"I didn't want to waste the wine, since I opened the second bottle." Kevin smiled with a little mischievous look. "Here have a drink." He handed one glass to Javier who sat up for a moment, took a sip and set it aside.
"Are you going to have a drink?" Esposito asked.
"Kind of. But you have to promise to lie still."
"Uhh, okay."
Ryan got on the bed with his glass, dipped his finger in, then circled one of Javier's nipples with it. He immediately leaned in and licked up the wine traces, then proceeded to lick and suck on Esposito's stiffening nipple.
"Oh, man, that feels amazing!" Javier moaned.
Kevin, leaning over Esposito, worked on his nipples and caressed his body for a long, teasing time, drawing trails of wine over him then licking them off, down to the waistband of his little briefs.
He set the wine aside then, and looked at Javier with a strangely shy expression. He ran his fingers over the waistband, brushing against the big hard bulge inside.
"Not yet, bro, I get a turn!" Esposito said, and suddenly grabbed the surprised Ryan, rolling him on his back and pinning him.
"Cheater!" Kevin squawked, thrashing around helplessly under his stronger partner.
Javier straddled Ryan so their crotches were right against each other, just in their underwear now. He ground up and down a few times, and Kevin kind of surrendered, going limp - except for one part Esposito could feel. Javier lowered himself onto his partner, releasing his arms and nuzzling his neck. "I'm sorry bro. I just have trouble giving up control."
"Damn right you do." Ryan said angrily, then suddenly he smacked Esposito hard on an ass cheek.
"Ow!" Javier hollered.
Kevin laughed triumphantly. "I got you!" He smacked him again. "I think you like it!"
"Bastard!" Javier smiled down at him. He wrapped his arms around Ryan and rolled them over, so Kevin was on top of him. "I'm all yours."
"That's pretty generous. What if I'm a top?" Ryan grinned. "I can't believe I just said that!"
Esposito suddenly looked worried. "Uhh, I thought you said you never..."
"Hah! Pulling your leg!" Kevin lowered on Javier's hips. "I don't know more than you do." Then, feeling very bold, he felt Esposito's bulge inside his briefs. It was thick and very hard.
"Ohh, Keeeeev." Javier closed his eyes and just kind of groaned. Then he took Ryan's wrist and pulled him up so they were facing, and wrapped his arms around the cop. "Can... can we slow down a little?" He looked up at the cute man, his expression actually kind of pleading.
Kevin was torn. He was buzzed and horny and here he was in his underwear lying on top of the hottest guy in the world, who just asked him to back off. On the other hand, he had to admit it was still kind of surreal, and scary. "Sure, of course." He scooted down a little and laid his head on Esposito's chest.
Javier sighed and ran his fingers through Ryan's hair. "Thanks, bro. I just want a breather."
They laid there in silence for a few minutes, and Kevin had to admit this was nice, and the prospect of actual sex with Esposito was simultaneously exciting and terrifying. It was like Javier said the night before, this isn't some one-night stand. They're friends; they're partners. Sure they'd already gone a long way, confessing their feelings, making out. But sex between them was a big thing, at least for Ryan. And it seemed like it was for Esposito too.
Here-" Javier scooted up into a sitting position and got Kevin's glass of wine. "Let's talk a minute okay?"
"Okay." Ryan said in a quiet little voice. He took the glass and Esposito got his. "Javi, are we okay. Was I going too far?" He asked shyly. Then he took a gulp. 'Liquid courage!'
"No, bro, no." Esposito sighed again, then he took a drink.
"We're such lushes." Kevin pretended to slur. "Like half a bottle of wine and I have a buzz. What a letdown to the motherland."
Javier put his arm around Ryan as they sat in bed together. "That's why I said to bring water; red wine gives me a headache in the morning."
"Javi?"
"Yeah?"
"Are you scared?"
"Terrified." Esposito said without hesitation.
"You are, really? Scared about doing it with me? I'm the one who should be intimidated." Kevin took another sip, put the glass aside, laid his head on Javier's shoulder and put his arm around him. "I couldn't believe it when you wanted to kiss me last night."
"Kev..."
"Yeah?"
Esposito felt that pain in his chest again, that ache that felt strangely good. "I just... " He ran his fingers lightly over Ryan's shoulder. "Maybe this sounds weird but this would be the first time I did it with someone I really cared about." He felt his eyes tearing up.
"Me too."
"Aren't we a pathetic pair of romantics. We sound like a couple of girls." Javier said with a little laugh.
"So, you said you messed around with a couple of guys in college and in the service. Want to tell me about that?"
Esposito sighed; Kevin felt his big chest rise and fall. "Well like I think I said, I was really drunk both times. The first was a frat brother, we were watching porn at his place and got all worked up, and ended up jerking each other off. We never talked about it after and never did it again. Another other time I was at this party... don't think I'm a freak when I tell you this."
"Okay."
So I was at this party with a girl I was dating, but it was pretty much over; I think we were just together to have someone to go to parties with. Anyway, we met another couple there, my date knew the other girl. Well her boyfriend kept giving me funny looks all night. At first I didn't know what was up, but I finally got it through my thick head that he was flirting with me. Then when my drink was empty he said, 'let's get a refill.' So I went with him to the kitchen, where he grabbed my crotch! I was like what the fuck. He said 'You want a blowjob?' I was in shock for a second. I never would have guessed he was gay or bi. Then I thought, what the fuck I'm really horny and I'm not gonna get it from the girlfriend. He led me back to a bedroom, locked the door and the next thing I knew he had my pants down and was going at it. I just closed my eyes and let him do it. I have to say he was good, not his first time I bet. Then I came and he said something like 'thanks, stud.' And I had to pull up my pants fast cause he was about to walk out the door. The girls were like, 'what took so long' and he made up some crap about showing me the house. I never saw him again"
"Wow."
"So you think I'm a slut?"
"No, actually that was kinda hot. You know, if we were drunk, we'd be all over each other."
"No doubt, but I don't want us to be drunk when we do it, okay? At least not our first time."
"We can wait if you want. Javi, I-." Then Ryan got choked up.
"C'mere" Esposito gently pulled Kevin to face him and they kissed again. Ryan made another of his little whimpering noises and they slid down side by side on the bed.
Javier reached for Kevin's erection in his boxer-briefs, and started to gently stroke it through the thin fabric.
"Oooooh goooood."
"You like that bro?" Esposito whispered huskily in Ryan's ear.
"Whaaaaat do you thiiiiink?" Kevin moaned. He rolled back on Javier, straddling him and grinding them together. He couldn't wait any longer. He scooted down and eased the sexy little black briefs off. Esposito's hard cock snapped up. Maybe it was the love, the lust, the heat or maybe it was reality, but to Ryan it was long, really thick with a big head and uncut. His balls were pretty big too, snug up to his body. "Wow Javi, you're... awesome." He'd rarely seen another man's hard cock up close like this, and as far as he was concerned, he didn't care if he saw any others.
"It's not all that, bro." Esposito mumbled.
"Yeah, it is." Kevin wrapped his hand around the base of it - he couldn't get all the way around - and aimed it up. 'Here goes,' he thought. 'My first time with Javi's cock; I don't know what the hell I'm doing. I guess I'll just do what would feel good to me.' He leaned down and gingerly licked just the underside of the head.
Esposito gasped, rolling his head back.
Ryan worked his tongue around, eventually taking the whole head in his mouth and sucking. Javier encouraged him with moans and gentle touches on his shoulders and head. After a few minutes though Kevin had to stop. He flopped down on the bed. "Sorry, wow my jaw hurts!"
Esposito sat up, "Bro that was amazing!"
Ryan was glad it was kind of dark in the room because he knew he was turning red. "Was it better than that dude in college? I need more practice."
"Bro, no comparisons, ok? That felt so awesome. Can I have a turn?" Javier grinned, sliding his hand lightly up and down Kevin's lean flank.
"Uh wow, if you want to."
"Of course I do." Esposito ran his hand over Ryan's boxer-briefs and the younger man's cock popped out of the flap. "Wow!" Javier said admiringly. "That's bigger than mine."
"I don't know about that." Kevin said shyly.
"It's longer, let's compare them."
"Oh jeeze." Ryan thought he was going to either cum or just die.
"Scoot up and let me get these off you. Bro, you're shaking. Are you cold?"
In answer Kevin yanked his own boxer-briefs off and threw himself on top of Esposito and started slowly grinding. The Detective held him, but he couldn't resist sliding one hand over Ryan's cute little butt. In response Kevin spread his legs wider and started licking Javier's ear.
Esposito was clumsily grabbing Kevin cock and holding them together, but Ryan's tongue in his ear was making him crazy. "Ohmygod, Kev stop it!" It kind of tickled but it also was turning him on in a weird way.
"You like that?" Ryan asked in a low sexy voice
In answer, Javier cupped the Irishman's ass cheeks and pulled him up so his crotch was right at Esposito's face, and he sucked the hard cock into his mouth.
"Oh, oooooh, OOOOOH my god!" Kevin was taken by surprise as Javier engulfed his cock.
But poor Javier had a sensitive gag reflex and he kept trying to take too much.
"Duuuuude," Ryan strung out the word, "It's cool, you don't have to take it all man. You know just the head feels good."
Esposito didn't answer but gratefully started working Kevin's nice flared head with his mouth while stroking the shaft. Ryan's moans of pleasure reassured him he was doing an okay job. Then he started to lick along the shaft and down to Kevin's tight pair of balls. They were totally smooth. Did Ryan shave his balls? They were nice like this, maybe he should do it too. Javier worked lower and Ryan spread his legs wide, even raising them up some, all the time making little moaning noises.
Kevin slid down so he was facing and straddling the hot latino. He looked into his eyes. "Javi..."
"Yeah baby?"
"I want you to fuck me."
"Are you sure?"
In answer, Ryan grabbed the back of Esposito's neck, leaned down and pressed their mouths together in a kiss. The he just whispered, "Please Javi."
"I have condoms..."
"And lube, I hope?." Kevin giggled.
"How do you want to... how should we do it?"
"Let's try me on my back first and see how it goes." Ryan rolled onto his back, while Esposito fished around in the nightstand for supplies, and then grabbed a pillow to put under Kevin's hips.
"I can tell you I may have been subconsciously planning this a while," Javier grinned. Then he looked more serious. "Tell me if it hurts and I'll stop."
"It's gonna hurt at first no matter what. Just go slow, I know you'll be as gentle as you can Javi, I trust you. I just... I want you inside me." Ryan's eyes had taken on an urgency.
Esposito rolled on the rubber, put some lube on his finger and started to ease it into Kevin's ass. Ryan groaned when Javier's finger hit his prostate. He worked further in, then got 2 fingers in. Kevin's butt was tight and spasming on his fingers. "You doing okay?" He whispered.
"Yeah." Ryan reached up and caressed Esposito's chest. "Go ahead."
Javier aimed the head of his cock into Kevin's little sphincter, it seemed way too small. But he was so hard, Ryan looked so hot on his back with his legs open for him. He pushed and the head went in.
"Oooooh... SHIT!" Kevin hollered, but suddenly his hand was on one of Esposito's ass cheeks, not letting him pull back. He started breathing hard and fast.
Javier stopped pushing and leaned in. "Bro, please, I don't want to hurt you!"
"Just give me a minute, man you're big." Ryan rolled his head to the side. Gradually his breathing slowed as Esposito just held himself over Kevin.
He could feel the younger Detective's ass clenching around his cock. He leaned down and tenderly kissed Kevin's neck until he seemed to relax. He sat up, pushed Ryan's slim legs back onto his shoulders and pushed further in, watching his thick cock slide in and out of the younger man's tight ass. Kevin's cock was hard, twitching and bobbing up and down as Javier thrust in him at half-speed and rubbed against his prostate. He went as slow as he could, going a little deeper with each push. He couldn't believe how amazing Ryan's ass felt around his cock, the ring gripping him.
"Oooooh Jeeeeesuuuuus!" Kevin moaned. He rolled his head back and forth, his arms up over his head, completely surrendering.
Esposito got balls-deep in Ryan and just rocked forward, enjoying the feeling of them joined like this. He pushed Kevin's legs up a little higher then and leaned in. "Kev you are so fucking sexy, you feel amazing."
Ryan's only answer was to grab Javier's neck and pull him down so they could kiss as Esposito began to stroke in and out of his ass.
But it was only a few minutes before Kevin gasped out "I'm gonna, I'm gonnaaaaa, I'm gooooonaaaaa..." His arms were outstretched now and he was clutching at the sheets. Javier slowed down, but he felt like he was getting close too, so their first time might not last that long.
Esposito reached down and started stroking Ryan for him. He felt his partner's ass tighten around his cock and Kevin started to moan and kind of spasm. Then on cue, Ryan came, the first spurt hitting under his own chin, the next ones on his smooth chest.
Javier kept pumping and with Kevin's ass milking him he came too. He almost over-filled the condom, thrusting into Ryan's hot ass.
Esposito half collapsed on Kevin, letting his partner, now his lover, lower his legs. They were both sheened with sweat and breathing hard. "Bro that was awesome." He whispered into the man's ear before going for his neck again. He kept moving a little in and out of Ryan. "You did great."
"So did you Javi. It only hurt at first then it started to feel great, as I guess you could tell." Kevin wrapped his arms around Esposito and hugged him and sighed. "I can't believe I'm here with you, ya big stud. I'm all sticky now though."
Javier raised his head up so he could look in Ryan's youthful face and run his fingers through his mussed hair. The Detective smiled shyly up at him and Esposito got that ache in his chest again. He knew what it was: he was already falling in love with Kevin Ryan.
To Be Continued...
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