chapter 4 :
The next morning Liv woke up early and watched Alex sleep for over an hour before she woke up.
"Hey sleeping beauty...how did you sleep?"Liv asked looking in Alex big blue eyes still unable to believe how lucky she was.
"Don't tell me you were watching me sleep"Alex said covering her face with her hands.
"I know it's creepy but I couldn't help myself"Liv replied a little embarrassed.
"It's ok don't worry it's really romantic actually I just look terrible when I sleep"
"You mean the fact that you sleep with your mouth opened?"
"Oh no I so want to die right now " Alex said while covering her face with the blanket.
"Come on sweetie it's ok don't worry, please come out from under this blanket"
"No I will never come out"
"Ok I might just have to go get ya"
Liv decided to join Alex under the blanket it was total dark and she was now on top of her she couldn't see her but she could feel her skin under her fingers... she started kissing her and touching
her belly but quickly Alex stopped her nicely.
"Liv ?"
"Yes"
"Would you be an angel and make us some coffee please? I'll be there in a minute just the same to freshen up".
Liv understood that Alex felt a little uncomfortable with the situation but she knows she was proud so she decided not to mention it:
"Ok I see you really don't want me to see you without make up with your sleepy face."
"Exactly I want you to keep this perfect image of me, I know it never last but just for our first morning as a couple..."
" As you wish babe!"Liv said jumping out of the bed.
Liv went downstairs and started making coffee she couldn't get the word "Couple" of her head...Were they really a couple now?
A few minutes later Alex finally came downstairs.
"Sorry to keep you waiting " Alex said fixing up her hair.
"It's ok you look gorgeous". Liv said with a big smile on her face.
"Thank you Liv" Alex said moving slowly behind her, putting her arms around her hips...
"So any plans for today?"Alex asked Liv while starting kissing her neck.
"Catch bad guy you know the usual stuff..." Said Liv while putting her right hand on Alex while serving coffee with the other one.
"Tough job hum?"
"Yeah but I'd rather be me then them because the way you kick their asses in court is priceless, totally worth the trouble!"
"Thank you...how about if one day I kicked you ass, would you like that?"Alex asked moving slowly her hand from Liv's belly to her ass...
Liv immediately thought"What a change of attitude 5 minutes ago she was pushing me away in bed now she's offering to spank me and god now she's touching my ass"
"I wouldn't mind that at all babe..."Liv was trying to adjust to Alex mood swings...
" I taking note of that, So how do you want to play it, I mean at work?Alex asked Liv still kissing her shoulder...
Liv turned around took Alex's hand and said:
"It's up to you babe , I told you , we're doing this at your pace ok?"
"Well I think it might be a bit early to show our relation ship"
"You don't feel ready to come out ?"
" I guess it's hard for me I don't' want to keep us in the closet Im just not ready and besides If you were a guy I 'd say the same thing
going public at work with someone you work with is always tricky you know..."
"Yeah I know the guys would ask us, or me at least a lot of question...I just want to enjoy us just us without all the fuss it make cause"
Liv said starting kissing Alex...She knew alex wasn't ready to come out and that it would take time for her to accept that she was gay...
Herself didn't care about what people might think , well they already assumed she was gay...over 40 never been married still single with no serious relationship, likes to play with gun
the stereotype was easy to make. But Alex was the opposite, she was feminine,sophisticated,highly educated, coming from a wealthy family who certainly thaught her values...
And for Alex appearances mattered especially because of her political ambitions...Alex realized they were opposite to each other that she was way of her league and that she could do so much better
and that when realizes it she would break her heart. For Liv there was no way she would let Alex leave her...She was determined to be the best girlfriend possible, even if the obstacles were numerous.
She was determined to make it work...Even if it means going against everything she believed it, and being out and proud was something important to her but she decided Alex was more important...
"OK then you better go home and get changed if you want to avoid question on why you're still wearing the same clothes as yesterday"
"I know but I can be a little late I just wanna stay here and enjoy this perfect morning drinking perfect coffee with my perfect girlfriend"Liv said her forehead against Alex's.
"Girlfriend...I like the sound of that...and for your information I'm so not perfect..."
Alex was always trying to look impeccable, high fashion clothes, expensive shoes, serious glasses appearances mattered to her..and she liked the way Liv sees her, she thought highly of her and she liked it,but at the same time she could her weakness and it was scary for her but yet so comforting because with Liv she could be herself she knew it wouldn't push her away...
"Well I'd call you my bitch but I' pretty sure where you come from that's inappropriate…."Liv said with a naughty smile.
"Now you're really going to get your ass kicked..." Alex liked her sense of humour she liked that she could laugh to make things easier she was a bit of a child sometime but most of the time
she was very responsible trying to take care of her and she liked it but she hoped the burdon wouldn't be to heavy to bear...
"Anyway you're right I should go get changed"
"Well a few more minutes wouldn't hurt"
"Ok babe Im staying a little longer"
They stood there for a while in each other's arms until Liv's phone rang
"Benson.."
"We have a double homicide 3 blocks from your apartment I'll come to pick you up In 10 minutes ok?"
Liv didn't know what to say she was on the other side of town...
"Don't come Im not home..."she said trying not to sound to nervous .
"Where are you?" Eliot asked not without a curious tone in his voice.
As she was trying to find a good excuse she looked down at Alex who was still in her arms...
"I was out of town on personal business I'll be there soon ok?
"OK"
"WOW so much for keeping it quiet..."
"Well you wanted to say: Im at Alex's at the other side of town, we spent the night together and I barely slept because I spent the entire night watching her sleep and telling myself how lucky I was"?
"Oh Liv ..."Once again she touched her right in the heart..."You're so sweet I know you hate having to lie to Eliott he's your best friend and your partner, Im sorry that I made you lie to him..."
"It's ok babe I hate lying to him that's true so let's try no to put ourselves in a situation where Im gonna have to lie to him,hiding him the truth is bad but not as bad, I can live with that but
lying when he's asking is different...
"I know and thanx again for being so patient with me I feel like I don't deserve you , I fell like to baring the whole wait of our relationship on your shoulders , I hope it's too much.."
"It's ok Im strong, I can take it...Don't just focus on regaining this self confidence that I found so sexy on you..."
"Ok so I guess I will see ya at work"
"I yeah I feel like this one is gonna be a though one..."
'Ok babe see ya later"
Before living Liv made sure that Alex would think about her all day by passionately kissing her for as long as she could breath, Alex was so surprised by such a passionate king that she felt like her feetwere living the ground...And that felt so good she almost couldn't believe it..
"See ya later Cabot"Liv said leaving her apartment in a very cool self confident way...
"OK..." Alex replied still in shock...