Title: It Feels Like Home to Me

Author: D. Sollers
Subject: BL post season 4. She was fiercely independent; Brooke Davis. Brilliant and beautiful and brave. In two years she'd grown more than anyone I had ever known. Brooke Davis is going to change the world someday and I'm not sure she even knows it. Major BL, with NH, JP and a little LP/CB
Disclaimer: I own nothing to do with one tree hill. Nor would I really want to. Unless we're talking about Jake. Or Brooke. Or season two Lucas. But you could keep Peyton and Chase as well.
Author's Notes: Wow, I have updated quite a lot today. Here's another chapter. :-) And it's all BL.

It Feels Like Home to Me

By:

D. Sollers

Chapter Four

Lucas felt as if all of his breath had escaped from his lungs. She was pregnant? He felt like an idiot, spending his time believing that perhaps they had a chance when in reality she was having a baby with someone else.

"Lucas say something..."

Lucas found himself laughing, amused that he yet again is hearing Brooke say those words to him. Only this time, there's no chance that the baby she is carrying was his.

"What do you want me to say Brooke? I'm happy for you?" Lucas said. He wasn't trying to come off sounding like a jerk but he couldn't stop himself.

Brooke shook her head, amazed at how angry he was acting. "You're my friend right, I would have expected you to be more supportive." She began to walk away from him, angry with herself for believing that he would have acted any differently.

"Brooke wait," Lucas said as he caught up with her. "Okay look, I'm sorry alright? It's just, I never thought about it. About you and someone else having a baby... It's just hard."

For a moment, she smiled at his honesty. "Like it was hard for me, watching you and Peyton? Lucas I understand we have a history together but I really need your support here."

He nodded his head.

"Are you two getting married?"

Brooke laughed. "Oh God no, we're not even together anymore. We decided it was best to end the relationship before we wound up hating each other," Brooke explained.

"But you're keeping the baby."

Brooke nodded her head as she placed her hand firmly over her lower stomach. "I couldn't not keep the baby. I mean, I know I am going to be awful at this and I am going to need so much help but this is my baby. It's a part of me," she explained.

He smiled down at the brunette who had grown up so much since he last saw her. "I didn't even know you were dating anyone. Was it serious?"

"Chase is the father," she finally admitted.

Lucas turned to look at her, a sense of amazement rushing over him. How was it possible that besides Haley and Nathan, the longest lasting high school relationship was Chase and Brooke? And now they were expecting a baby together.

Lucas felt as if he was going to be sick.

Or worse, pass out.

"What are you going to do?" He managed to ask.

She sighed. "I don't know, I mean he's happy in New York and I live here now. He's visiting his family this weekend and we're going to talk about it but honestly I have no idea. I guess once the baby is here he can come and visit. I can take the baby there... I don't know Lucas! This isn't something I planned, okay?"

"Obviously."

His snide remark didn't go unnoticed, Brooke just simply ignored it. As they continued to walk, she turned to him. "I came home because of you," she admitted honestly.

Lucas felt a lump form in his throat. Had she just said... No, it was impossible. he waited for her to continue.

"What I meant was... I'm not going to be good at this sort of thing and I figure your mom was a cheerleader before she had you. And she did it, alone."

"You're not alone Brooke, we're all going to help you through this."

Brooke nodded his head, knowing he was being honest. "I know that Luke and Karen wasn't completely alone. She had Kieth," Brooke admitted. His eyes found hers as she continued. "I guess what I am trying to say is, you haven't turned out so bad. Maybe I really could do this."

"Brooke, you're going to be a great mother."

He had never told her anything like that before. Not during their first pregnancy scare or the one that followed behind Nathan and Haley's second wedding. But still he knew it was the truth. There was no one he knew that was more loyal than her, no one he knew that would sacrifice her own happiness for one of her friends.

"I wish I could be so sure," she said sadly.

Lucas shook his head. "I wish you saw what I saw. You're amazing, you've always been this mess of contradictions that leaves everyone speechless."

"What are you saying?"

Lucas groaned. "What I am trying to say is that this baby," Lucas began as he placed a firm hand over her stomach. "This baby is going to have a great mother."

"Promise?"

"I promise."

They stood in silence as Brooke thought about what he had just said. Maybe he was right, after all he normally was. "Thanks Lucas," she said as she wrapped her arms around him once again in a hug.

The two stayed like that for a moment before Lucas pulled away from her. "Have you told anyone else?" He questioned quietly.

She shook her head no as she looked down at the ground. "I wanted to tell Haley a million times, I've picked up the phone and dialed the number but the words just never came out."

"Why'd you tell me?" Lucas asked.

Brooke smiled slightly. "It's you. You know?"

Lucas returned her smile. "Yeah, I do."

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A little while later they made it back to Karen's house, who had already fallen asleep. There was a note on the front door, insisting that Brooke spend the night and not drive alone so late at night.

"There, it's settled. You have to now."

The two had spent the last few minutes arguing over Brooke staying the night and now, she had no choice. She rolled her eyes and sighed in defeat. "Fine but I am sleeping on the coach. That's your room now."

"Okay but you could always sleep with me," Lucas said with a smirk.

Brooke kinked her eyebrow. "Lucas Scott, I thought I was the dirty one!"

"I meant sleep, as in going to bed. Get your mind out of the gutter Davis," he said with a laugh.

Brooke blushed and watched as he pulled the familiar gray sweater from his dresser. "Here, you can sleep in these," he said tossing them towards her.

"Thanks."

She excused herself from his bedroom and made her way to the bathroom, taking a few minutes to wash the makeup off of her face. After changing into her clothes she headed out to the living room and laid down on the couch that Lucas had placed a blanket and pillow on.

After several minutes of silence she sat up. It felt weird for her to be in the house after so long and she couldn't remember a time where she had slept on the couch. As she tiptoed to Lucas' bedroom, she was startled when he opened the door.

"Brooke!"

"Lucas!"

They both smiled as he held his bedroom door open. "You get the left side," Brooke said as she slipped into the right side of his bed. He didn't say anything as he did what she said, slipping into the left side and turning over so that his back was to her. "Goodnight Lucas."

"Goodnight Brooke."

As he turned off the light to his bedroom, she focused her eyes on the picture on his nightstand. It was of Karen and Kieth at the Sparkle Classic championship. She smiled sadly, thinking of all the things that the two had missed out on and how wrong it was that Kieth never got to see his daughter born. She placed her hand over her stomach and shut her eyes.

"Hey Brooke?"

It was about a half an hour later and Lucas couldn't sleep. He kept going over everything that had happened in their relationship and he couldn't shake the feeling that perhaps their relationship wasn't as over as they had thought.

"Yes Luke?"

He turned towards her, noting that now her back was turned to him. "Do you ever think about when we thought you were pregnant? How different things would have been?"

"Yeah, I guess."

Lucas watched as she turned towards him, staring into his blue eyes. "When we were together, I thought about it a lot. Like maybe if I had been pregnant, we would have been the Naley in the group."

He smiled at her choice of words and waited for her to continue.

"But it really wouldn't have changed much of anything. We would have just been fooling each other into believing things that weren't true and you would have eventually realized the truth."

Lucas looked at her, a puzzled expression sweeping across his face. "And what is that?"

"That you and Peyton are meant for each other," she said finally. Brooke shut her eyes, knowing that if he couldn't see hers he wouldn't be able to tell how much the truth hurt her.

"Brooke..."

She yawned before giving him one last look. "I'm really sleepy Lucas," she said as she turned over.

Lucas thought over what she had just said. He realized that it wasn't her pregnancy that jeopardized their chance of a future together, it was their past.

TBC...

Awe poor BL! Up next, the return of Chase and Jake. And a few flashbacks to some LP and CB scenes. Plus a side of Naley and BL for dessert. Reviews are love.