End of chapter 3-

"Wow…That was…wow."
She smiled down at me and I looked up at her.
"I love you Edward."
"I love you to Bella, more then anything."

I rolled off of her, and drew her in close to me. She had finally controlled her breathing, but I wasn't quite there yet. I kissed the top of her forehead, and hummed my lullaby to her so that she could drift off to sleep.

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BPOV-

I woke up the next morning feeling really exhausted. I tried to force my eyes open, but they felt to heavy. I herd Edward murmuring something to Alice, and I finally got my eyes open.

"Oh, hey Alice."
"Hey, Bella…How are you this morning?"
"Tired."

She smiled, and walked out the door, closing it behind her. I sat up slowly, taking notice that I was now fully clothed. I looked over at Edward and smiled shyly. I yawned and stretched out my arms. I felt different.

"You seem really tired, why don't you go back to sleep?"
"Because it's already noon." I said looking at the clock.

Edward chuckled to himself, and I got out of bed taking the sheets with me so that he was exposed; wearing only a tight pair of boxer briefs. I laughed, and he smiled.

"I'm going to take a shower."
"May I join you?"

My eyes widened, and my throat dried up, so I simply nodded. He jumped out of bed and picked me up. We went into the bathroom, and he set me down on the toilet. He turned on the hot water and took my hand. I removed my tiny shorts, and tank top, and stepped in. Edward stepped in after me, and we showered together. It was probably the longest shower I've ever had. With him in the shower with me I found it really hard to concentrate on anything else. I looked up at him, and his eyes were still green. I turned away to hide the fact that I was blushing furiously. I can't believe he wanted me like I wanted him. It was even harder to believe that what happened last night was real!

Edward wrapped his hands around my waist hesitantly, and for the first time his hands didn't feel cold. Soon I began to notice other things, like Edwards scent; it had always smelt amazing to me, but now it seemed to be better…I wonder if that has to do with the water. I looked over at the freshly painted walls, and I could see exactly where the paint brush stroked against the wall. Edward kissed my neck, and breathed in my scent. I felt him smile against me. I smiled too. What is going on with me? Everything feels different, better…stronger.

"How are you feeling?"
"Different…why do you ask?"
"I'm surprised you haven't noticed…"

He shut off the water, and stepped out. He grabbed a towel and wrapped it around himself, and tossed one to me. I caught it one handed and laughed…wait a second, I caught it? There was something not right here.

Edward wiped the steam off the mirror, and for the first time I saw myself since I woke up; I dropped the towel. I walked over to the mirror, and put my hands to it. The girl looking back at me could not be me…could it? I put my hand over my mouth, and then proceeded to touch the rest of my face. I took a step back and looked at myself. I was curvier, and bustier. My lips were fuller, and my hair was longer. I took two steps back to the mirror and looked at my eyes, they were still brown, but growing darker by the second.

Edward walked up behind me to wrap the towel back around me, but he startled me and I swung at him. I spun around to hit him, but he caught my fist just in time.

"Are you really that mad at me?"

I couldn't speak. Was I already a vampire? I had no memory of the change, or even being bitten. The last memory I had was Edward and I making love. I gulped hard and tasted something repulsive. I made a nasty face and Edward laughed at me.

"That's just the venom…you get used to it in a matter of hours."
He raised his eyebrow to me and said, "I wish you'd say something."
"I really don't know what to say. What happened to me?"
"I was wondering when you'd ask that?"
"Why can't I remember that change?"
"Because I didn't want you to!"
"What!"

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EPOV-

"Because I didn't want you to!"
"What!"
"I didn't want you to remember or feel any of the pain you experience during the change."

Bella sat down on the toilet and sighed.

"When did this happen?"
"While you were sleeping, Right after…the other night."
"What happened? Did I go through any pain? Was I awake at all? Was it normal? Do I have any powers?"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa…slow down. If you want I will tell you everything from the very beginning. From when you fell asleep, until you woke up this morning."

She swallowed down some of her venom, and made a nasty face again. I smiled crookedly at her, and waited for her response. She got up and walked back into our room, taking her time. She sat on the edge of the bed and looked me in the eyes. Her eyes were dark… I didn't even think about feeding her.

"Maybe you should eat first."
"No…I won't eat until I here everything."
"Are you upset…?" I asked dazed and confused. "I had thought you would be relived to not have to deal with the pain, or at least not remember it the rest of your existence."
"Don't get me wrong, I am grateful…I guess I just don't understand why…or how?"
"I guess I was scared that you wouldn't love me after I put you through all that pain."

Her dark eyes softened and she reached up to touch my face. "I could never not love you Edward. You are my entire world, my whole reason for existing." I smiled.

"Now if you'll let me tell my story, I'll happily tell you how."
She nodded. "Bella, please NO interruptions…okay?" Bella nodded again.

FLASHBACK!!!-

I watched Bella as her chest rose and fell with each breath as she slept. I couldn't beilive what I was about to do to my beautiful angel. I pulled the sheets off of me and threw on some pants, and quickly left the room to find Carlisle.

As I stepped into the front yard the family was returning, and I looked up to the sky realizing it was dawn. I took a deep breath, and I could smell the delicious scent of Bella on me more then I could smell anything out here. Carlisle walked over to me and whispered,

"Is she asleep?"
I nodded and asked him, "Do you have everything you need,"
"Almost, I need a new needle, and then everything should be set. I'll be back in about five minutes."

I nodded and he took off in a sprint. Then Emmett approached me and I suppressed a groan of agony at the oncoming questions.

"So…how was it?"
"Not now Emmett…"
"Oh come on was the sex amazing or was it not what you were expecting? …C'mon Edward I need some sort of details, you have been a virgin for over a hundred years…give me something."

His begging was persistent so finally I caved.

"Yes…okay, the sex wasn't what I was expecting it was much more incredible, Bella was amazing, and I am not going into details with you about this."
"Did you guys do oral?"

Just in the knick of time Carlisle got back to save me from Emmett's bombarding questions.

"Are you ready Edward? Are you sure you can do this?"
"More then I have ever been…"

I smiled at him and he returned the smile before we both ran to Bella's room. As we entered the room, Bella stirred in her sleep. She mumbled my name and turned over.

"Will this work?"
"Yes it will work, but she won't be completely out of pain, or even asleep, the shot will wake her up, and she will be awake for the whole three days, and pass out at the end of her transformation. This particular 'poison', will only reduce the pain to about the pain she would feel if she ever gave birth rather then complete agony."

I looked at him and thought, That isn't enough… I don't want her to feel any pain.

"I'm sorry Edward, but there is no way that could be possible. I can only reduce it. The main difference is she won't remember ANY of the pain after she awakens." I frowned and Carlisle reminded me that we didn't have to do this. I shook my head and told him to give Bella the shot. He cleaned her forearm with rubbing alcohol, and then injected the poison into her arm. As he pulled the needle out of her arm she stirred in her sleep again, and then Carlisle left. I'll be right outside if it's too much to handle Edward!

I nodded and he shut the door. I went to the dresser to get Bella something to wear, and when I turned around she was sitting up and holding the sheets to her chest. I smiled at her and sat next to her on the bed. I placed a kiss on her forehead.

"I'm really thirsty."
"I'll go get you some water and you put these on."

When I got back with Bella's water she chugged it down thirstily, and set the glass on the bedside table.

"Are you just about ready?"
"Ready? For what…?" She asked confused.
"To be bonded to me eternally…"
Her eyes widened as understanding dawned on her. "You're changing me tonight?"
"Yes." I smiled, but my smile wasn't real. I didn't want this for her, but seeing how happy it made her made this decision so much easier.
"When?"
"As soon as you're ready love."
"Really?"
"Really…"
"Oh Edward, I'm ready now! Bite me now!"

Bella flipped her hair over her right shoulder exposing the left side of her neck. Her floral scent hit me like a bullet to the heart, and I almost couldn't bare it. I smiled slyly at her and said evilly,

"You want me to sink my fangs into you now?" I questioned showing off my fangs, and allowing them to grow a little, enough for her to notice but not their full length. I saw her eyes widen a little bit and she barely whispered "Yes." I let my fangs go back to the way they were and frowned. "Why are you in such a hurry to be like me?" I looked down.

She lifted up my head so my eyes met her gaze. "Because I love you." I wrapped my arms around her in a tight hug. And took a deep breath of her scent. I could feel my eyes growing dark, and my fangs lengthened…if she saw me like this would she change her mind? Not if she loved me. I had to know for sure. I pulled back and let her see me for what I truly am. I couldn't read her expression.

Bella's hand reached up to touch my face. She traced the contours of it, and smiled.

"Is this what you've been hiding? Is this what you call the monster inside of you?"
I nodded, slightly astonished by her compassion towards this side of me.
"Edward even like this I can't see the monster you speak of. I've never seen him… I don't think there is any monster in you. A beast maybe, but what man doesn't have a beast in them?" She smiled teasingly and I smiled back.

Her thumb grazed over one of my fangs, and the razors of my fangs pricked her finger, but she didn't even seem to notice. However, my scences did. I grabbed her hand from my face as gently as I could, and she watched astonished as I licked, and sucked the blood from her finger. She tasted delicious. The most amazing thing I've ever tasted, and somehow I was controlling myself better then I ever have around her before. I wasn't sure if it was because I love her so much, or because of what we did last night, but I knew that I could do this. I forced my fangs to go back so that I could kiss my sweet angel. I lay her down on the bed and kissed her neck gently. I kissed all along her jaw line, and right below her ear. I leaned in and placed one last kiss on her warm human lips, pausing right before her lips so I could here her heart race at an incredible rate. When our lips met I felt electricity. I pulled away and put my head on her chest so I could listen to her heart beat for the last time. I felt sadness run through me. I knew we would always be together now, but I will miss this so much. I sat up as her heart rate slowed and placed another kiss on her neck.

"I love you Isabella swan."
"I love you to Edward."
"I'm sorry…"

I let my fangs grow to their full length and sink deep with in her throat puncturing her jugular vain purposely so the venom could reach the heart much faster. I also pulsed the venom through her in low doses at a time, to make this easier, but I also injected a lot. When I pulled away from her I licked all the sweet blood from my lips. I looked down at her, and the guilt I felt was crushing me. She clutched the wound on her neck, and took in deep ragged breaths.

"Edward…it hurts."
"Is it…is it as bad as when James bit you?"
"No, but it still-"

As if on cue, the next time she opened her mouth a scream escaped her lips, and I couldn't bare it. I didn't know what to do, but now was NOT the time to feel guilty…I could do that later. I moved in close to her, and wrapped my arms around her shaking body. She was crying, and shaking feverishly. It lasted like this for three days, me simply holding her while she sobbed endlessly. Every now and then she would scream, and bite on her lip as though to shut herself up. When her crying became worse, I held her tighter to me and told her how much I loved her. I hummed my lullaby, and planted kisses on her forehead, Anything I thought would make this better, or at least sooth her. I couldn't imagine how much harder this would have been if not for Carlisle. Finally on the twilight of the third day… she fell asleep.

I lied there with her until she was ready to wake up. It was during this time that her physical changes became apparent. Her chest filled out more, and she became more slender beneath my arms. Her facial structures sharpened, and her hair lightened. I wasn't sure if she was more beautiful or not…To me she would always be beautiful. Slowly I felt her warmth drift from me, I knew she would be waking up soon.

I herd Alice's thoughts before she even knocked on the door so I called out,

"Come in."

She opened the door, and stepped inside quietly.

"How is she?"
"I think she is o.k. She should be waking up any minute now."
"Was it very difficult…To change her?"
"It was much easier then I thought, stopping was much harder." I smiled faintly.
"How was her change?"
"Easier then any of ours." Alice smiled then.
"I'm glad. Will she know what happened when she wakes?"
"No…I don't think so."
"Are you going to tell her everything?"
"Yes...how could I not?"
"Well…When she wakes up, Carlisle wants to speak to everyone…it sounds important."
"Okay."
"Bye Edward."

Just as she turned to leave Bella's eyes opened, and they were not the chocolaty brown color I loved so much.

END FLASHBACK-

"Oh…"

Bella said in a sigh as she slumped back against the bed. I smiled and crawled over to her so I could hold her.

"Are you mad?"

She shook her head and said "Actually I'm relived." I smiled and placed a kiss on her jaw. I hopped out of ed and extended my arm to hers.

"C'mon…Carlisle has something important he'd like to discuss."