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Chapter 4: Rejection Depression

After something like 10 seconds Seto's senses returned. Was it really a good thing that they did? No, definitely not a good thing.

Only now Seto realized that Yami was kissing him. Was he freaked out?

Yes…

Was he frightened?

Yes…

Was he turned on?

Like never before in his life!

Was he going to admit it?

…Never.

Additional feature to this all was the fact that he couldn't move. He was completely paralyzed by his desire. Yami drew back a little and looked Seto in eyes.

"And what you're saying now?" he asked with a small smile on his lips. Maybe he really liked Seto and his silly behavior.

Seto took a deep breath.

Another one… and another one.

To be honest he just wanted to keep breathing to get some time before he was going to shatter the biggest dream and opportunity of his life. Another breath.

Then it finally came.

"To tell you the true" his voice was deep, lingering on every word "…Yami… I…HATE you!" he hissed and got up "get out of my sight! Get out of my house! And get out of my life right now!" he yelled, avoiding to look at the spirit next to him. There was a moment of silence when neither he or Yami spoke a word, Seto knew that if he had to stand this any longer he wouldn't be able to hold back a miserable whimper or something equally shameful. He could feel how a weird tangle slowly crept into his throat and waited there. Waited until he would let it go.

"Can't you hear me? Are you dense? I said. GET. OUT!" he shouted at Yami wishing that he could just die and never be what he is now. Why was he doing this?

Why? Why…

Oh God, what a stupid question! He couldn't afford to love! He couldn't afford to feel or live! He had his company and his status as a cold-hearted monster! And nobody. NOBODY could ever change that! He just couldn't allow anyone getting near to him…

Everything. Was. Fine. As. It. Was!!! He looked at Yami, who was literally staring at him in disbelief and he could see a mixture of bitterness and confusion in those beautiful eyes. Of course Yami was hurt. Of course he was angry. Who wouldn't be from such a rejection?

"Calm down. I'll go if that's what you want," he threatened the CEO "but remember. I'll never speak to you again if I have to go now. You understand that, Seto Kaiba? I'll never look at you and never help you again! Never!" he said in such a serious voice you could think he's declaring his own death.

"Of course I understand. And now… just go away…" Seto muttered and showed Yami the door. Damn. Yami got the foolish feeling that things were repeating themselves but he just tried to ignore it.

"I guess in that case we will have to do our physics topic individually…" he grunted and stormed out of Seto's library. After a moment a loud thud could be heard as Yami slammed the outdoors with all his strength.

That did it. Seto couldn't take it anymore. He wanted to cry. Not just cry, he wanted to howl for hours and then go to the pharaoh and repeat over and over again how sorry he felt and that he didn't mean any of what he's said. But instead of showing any emotions Seto just stood there, in the middle of the large room, without moving or even breathing and there were absolutely no emotions in his face.

But the pain he was feeling tore and twirled his insides like stinging flames of hell. Maybe he really was in hell now.

Yami stomped home with such anger one could have thought that he's ready to kill someone.

'Who that fucking idiot Seto thinks he is? Mr. I'm-so-cool-and-untouchable?! I was just making some fun! Geee! But NOOOOOOOOOO! That Kaiba is SO offended! I'm sick of him. I hate him! I hate him more than anything on this world! And why? Why?! Because… I like him! I like that stupid Kaiba and it turns out that now HE doesn't like me back! Idiot! That arrogant pity-seeking dork! How could he! How dared he! That…' Yami was shouting inside of his head, getting more and more annoyed with every step. It was so disgusting. Kaiba was disgusting. What exactly had he done so outrageous to freak him out like that! A kiss? As if that was a crime to kiss somebody!

And what did he get in return for some fun? Yelling and shouting at him! Well ok, let it be so. He wasn't going to speak to that swine again!

…wow…he didn't even know he could get so angry because of that Kaiba!…

Yami got back to the game shop, trampling inside not even a little gracefully or elegant as he had all the other times.

"Hey Yug! I'm home!" he shouted.

'No answer. Great! Just great! Where is that little brat when you needed him? Maybe he is in the living room?' Yami thought making his way to the said room. And he was right, Yugi was there AND… what a wonderful surprise! Tea was there as well!

"Hi Yami!" they both greeted him, sitting on the floor. It was obvious that they both were doing something really boring, learning or so. And Yami was not interested in learning. He was ready to kill if needed and Tea was someone he would love to kill in the first place.

"Hey! Why are you home this early?" Yugi wondered noticing his other side's bitchy mood. He hoped that Yami wouldn't start shouting and yelling at him. It happened rarely but it happened and only when the spirit was extremely angry. Than he would pace around the room, complaining about how stupid everyone was and that he's tired of this world and these unbearable modern technologies and that he is going to head back to the past right now. Yugi hated to listen to that yelling and whining and that was probably the only thing he hated about him. Otherwise he loved Yami really much and believed that the other is almost perfect… if there only weren't those rare outbursts of anger…

"I don't want to speak about that. I'll tell you later" was the answer he got and that was good enough for him. Yugi knew that if his Yami needed him he would just talk to him later. He just hoped that Yami didn't want to give him one of his "this life sucks so much" lessons again.

"Yami…" Tea asked in a voice that annoyed Yami immensely "you know what I discovered? There is no allergy against girls' skin so I think you've just mistaken something or it's something else you have allergy against! Will you go out with me now?" she asked, looking at Yami with her huge blue eyes. Yugi snickered, wondering what kind of excuse will the spirit think out this time. Yugi loved Tea as a friend and she was really nice and helpful but to have her as a girlfriend… That could kill even the strongest guy's nerves. And somehow Yugi had that bad feeling that at this particular moment Yami's only wish was to banish Tea to the shadow realm. It was kind of evil but Yugi found the whole situation quite entertaining. He also knew that Yami was a nice spirit and he loved his friends… most of them… what meant that Tea was going to survive another day!

Yami on the other hand was wondering if he should commit suicide or just curse the whole humanity as all things were going really wrong today. Ok. He knew that the day he had to tell Tea he's not interested in her in any way would come but he hadn't expected it to come so soon.

"Oh course, beautiful, I'll go out with you," he finally mumbled and Yugi started to cough from surprise. Well that one answer he hadn't awaited!

Meanwhile, in a dark and scary place where sun had never been seen, two other spirits had one big of a headache. They were doing the same thing as Yami and Seto just a little while ago. Ok, maybe not quite the same thing but something similar to that.

"Fuck fuck, double fuck. I don't want to prepare a TOPIC for a seminar! I HATE physics! Why did we even sign up for that lesson anyway?" whined Bakura looking at Marik who was sitting opposite to him, looking extremely bored.

"Because we wanted to get a lesson where we don't have to be together with our oh-so-beloved 'gang'" he murmured. Stupid Bakura had asked him exactly the same question 10 times in two hours and he was ready to strangle him if he repeated the question one more time.

"Oh right. I hate all those friendship speeches and believing in your heart and deck…" Bakura grunted, returning to his physics book.

"That would be… Yami…" Marik remarked and they both snickered.

"No, really. I wonder if we shouldn't try to take over the world again. I don't know why but I'm bored to death and I'm starting to hate this peacefully every day's life more and more. What do you say Marik? Shouldn't we give that a try?" Bakura suggest all out of sudden. Marik didn't say anything for a while and looked like he's deep in thoughts. Then he grabbed the physics book out of Bakura's hands and hit him with it upon his head.

"Go back to learning, idiot. You know we don't have the power to take over the world! Yet" he snapped at the white-haired spirit "Besides, I'm not interested in taking over the world anymore. Too dangerous and too much effort for nothing! I would be much more interested in getting a lot of money and fame and that every single person knew me and knew how powerful and incredible I am!"

Bakura just stared at him for a minute, turning his attention back to the book and making a small remark: "And that would be… taking over the world…" and got hit by the heavy physics book again.

Seto stared outside the window and sighed. It had started to rain. It was so depressing. It was so lonely. It was so cold. He was alone. Mokuba was still at his friends and it seemed he wasn't planning to come home soon, especially now when he had an excuse to stay a night over by his friends (as it was raining). Seto knew that Mokuba hated their huge lonely mansion. He hated to spend his free time here so he tried to get away from this place as often as possible. And to be honest, Seto hated this house too. It wasn't comfy at all, especially now when he was completely alone.

Yes. The cold-hearted monster and the unsociable freak had a soul too and right now his soul was very sad. He wasn't just alone in his house; he was alone in this world. Could he get even more miserable? Seto strongly doubted that. Nothing made sense anymore. He felt how depression slowly crawled towards him and chewed him bit by bit. He felt so damn empty. Earlier his work had been his so-called hideaway. Now he didn't even have the urge to work. He continued to look how the rain drops were falling down on the windowsill and splashing into pieces like they never had been one whole. Seto had an intense wish to be able to splash like those raindrops. To disappear into nothingness so he wouldn't have to live his life anymore. Would anybody care if he disappeared from this world? Maybe Mokuba would be missing him for some time. But what's about others? Did he have any other friends? Any? Anyone? … Seto closed his eyes and let the depression wash over him. He knew he would continue his useless lingering on this earth as long as life lets him. And when the death comes he'll be more than happy to accept it.

He was really getting overdramatic.

After all, why was he so stubborn to not let anyone love and care for him? Why didn't he let anybody see his true feelings? He had grown up in such a society where he wasn't used to show any emotions. Maybe he was afraid…

Afraid that he would be hurt again like he had been in his childhood so many times before. Afraid of losing the one he wanted to protect. Afraid of rejection, afraid of disappointments, afraid of everything. Yes. Seto Kaiba was scared but he couldn't let anyone to know about that. Not even the ones he loved the most. He was not allowed to show that he was scared even to himself.

Yami lie in his bed and was awfully pleased with that hideous weather outside. It had saved him from his nice date with Tea. Why had he even agreed to go out with that stupid bit…ok…girl?

Had he really been that angry? Was he really that hurt? Or was it because he wanted to take his revenge on Seto? Probably the last one, no, probably all the said reasons together. Maybe he wanted to …make Seto…jealous? That thought seemed very pleasant to his mind. He could do it…

'Ahhh, stop it, Yami,' a voice inside of his head commented 'Stop acting so childishly and try to act like a grown-up. Can't you remember your time back in Egypt? Despite all the serious decisions you had to make, you never really grew up… Isn't that childish to tell Seto that you're never going to speak to him even though you are? Control your short temper. Think before you speak…'

Yami blinked; there were voices inside of his head? Hm, he probably should feel surprised but knowing all the parasites those lived there… no big surprise.

Grown-up and mature… he was already! Yami rolled on his other side, squeezing his little Kuribo plushy in the process. It was a present from Yugi and it looked awfully cute so Yami had kept it and it somehow helped to calm him down every time he was angry. And he had been very angry for the last two days.

'I guess… maybe… I am… a real fool being that angry with Seto. I was the one who acted like his feelings were just a game. I was the one who was laughing at him. It seems like this all is my fault… Am I really that self-righteous?'

Yami got out of his bed finally and looked in the mirror. Black leather pants, nice leather jacket…Oh brother… why was he sleeping with his clothes on? Right. He almost had gone to a date with Tea but thankfully it had started to rain! It had probably saved him from his life's biggest mistake.

Fine. What to do now? Yami decided to just go downstairs and talk to Yugi about Seto. There had to be a way to help that heartless bastard and he had a weird feeling that he himself could be the key to helping that guy.

"Yugi! Wouldn't you love to talk a little about your favorite tall handsome and brown-haired Bishounen?" Yami asked, as he got downstairs, highly amused by Yugi's sudden attention towards him.

No revenge, no hate, he didn't need any of that. After all, with a little effort, maybe he still could be able to become good friends with the same old Seto. Maybe even more than just friends…

(tbc)

A/N: Teenagers are impossible, that's true… mood swings are also impossible.

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