It's been two months since I started my second affair with John. I'd be with him secretly during and spend the nights with him. The tension between Drew and I was thick. The nights we did spend at home were quiet. We barely acknowledged the fact that we were in the same house together because we ignored each other. After giving him the cold shoulder for a month, never giving in when it came to his sexual needs, he got the hint and started sleeping on the couch, with no objection from me. It probably didn't bother him that much because he spent majority of his nights in whatever hotel Taryn was in. Everyone knew he was sleeping with her, but for show, I pretended to be oblivious to the fact but was pretty sure he was truly oblivious to the fact that I was sleeping with John again. And then there was the baby. I still hadn't told Drew that I was pregnant. I was already developing a baby bump and if I waited any longer. It wouldn't be hard to guess. As I was packing a bag of clothes, home alone after getting showered and dressed, my phone rang. Glancing at the screen, I picked up.

"Hey John. I was just about to call you"

"Hey sweetheart. I was just calling to check on you. How was your day?"

"It's going fine. I'm a little hungry though"

"I could go pick something up before you get here"

I smirked. My hormones have been out of control for the past few weeks, my sexual cravings insatiable. As soon as John walked through the door, whatever I would be doing at the time would be stopped. I was practically pouncing on him every day

"I'm not talking about food John" I purred into the receiver and he chuckled

"You'll be the death of me. I see that this morning wasn't enough for you"

I grinned, thinking of how John had been half an hour late to a mandatory meeting this morning because I refused to let him out of bed until he made love to me

"Oh it was enough. Enough to get me through the day, but I need something to give me a good night's sleep"

"I promise to give you just that when you get here baby girl"

"On my way" I said, zipping my bag closed "I'll call you when I get to the hotel"

"Hold on a sec, I need to ask you something"

"Yeah?"

"Have you told him yet?"

I sighed deeply. I didn't have to ask to know what he was talking about

"No… no, John I haven't told him"

"What are you waiting for Mia? As much as you don't think so, he has the right to know too"

"Your right John. He does have the right to know " I said sarcastically "And while I'm telling him I'm pregnant, why don't I add in 'I've been having an affair with John again too!'. Since when do you care about Drew's feelings?" I barked, annoyed now. He was so killing my mood

"Look, I know I hate him with all of my damn being Mia but this is his baby too and it's the right thing to do. I know that if it were me, I would want to know"

"Look, can we talk about this later?" I asked impatiently. There would be no later because if I had my way, he wouldn't remember when I was done with him. He sighed

"Fine, I'll see you when you get here. I love you"

"I love you too John" I said, hanging up

I sat down on the bed and rested my head in my hands. John has been pressuring me to tell Drew about the baby for the past few weeks now, but I've been avoiding the whole idea. I wanted nothing to do with drew whatsoever and telling him about the baby would only complicate the already complicated situation.

"So it's true?" a voice sounded from the bedroom door

My head shot up. Drew was leaning in the door frame

"Drew…" I said, my heart skipping a beat "How long have you been there?"

"Long enough" he said, advancing towards me

I shot up off of the bed and backed away, the feeling of danger creeping up on me

"How long?" he asked, advancing closer

"How… how long what?" I whispered, my back hitting the cold wall. I cursed myself for being so far from the door

"HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN FUCKING HIM AGAIN?!" he yelled, his face now inches from mine, intimidating, but I held my ground

"HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN SCREWING TARYN?!"

He shrunk back an inch, his face surprised

"Yes Drew, I know. I've known about it for months. I only pretended to be in the dark about it"

"Yes, I've been sleeping with Taryn, Mia. You caught me. But don't you dare turn this on me! You have no one to blame but yourself for it. You drove me to it" he sneered, slamming his palms against the wall on either sides of my head and I flinched "You've been pretending not to know. You've been pretending all this time to make me look like the bad guy so no one would catch on that you were sleeping with him"

For some sick reason, I couldn't help but laugh in his face

"Yes, I've been sleeping with John, Drew. You caught me" I scoffed, mockingly

Drew's hand shot off the wall and wrapped around my throat

"You think this is funny?! You slut! Your fucking him for the second time since we've been married and you think this is fucking FUNNY?!" he screamed in my face, his grip like steel around my neck, making me gag

"Your one to talk!" I choked out harshly, trying to pry his hand from around my neck. He squeezed harder at my response and I felt my oxygen slipping away from me "Drew.. please" I whimpered helplessly

"Please what?! Huh? PLEASE WHAT?! Give me one good reason why I shouldn't snap your fucking neck! One good fucking reason! And I swear to god it better be a good one or I won't regret anything that happens tonight!"

One good reason? Hadn't he overheard my conversation with John? Then it occurred to me that he only heard the "I love you" part. So I was going to have to tell him because I had no choice

"I'm pregnant, Drew." I managed to whisper

Almost instantly, his grip loosened and his hand dropped

"You're lying" he accused

"Why would I lie about something like this?" I said when the air returned to my lungs and I doubled over. There was an awkward silence as I tried to calm my hammering heart. When I finally caught my breath and straightened up, meeting his eyes I noticed he was staring at my mid-section intently, noticing the small bump through my thin sweater

" Is it.. is it mine?" he asked when the reality set in

"I'm almost five months, Drew. Five months ago was October. We only had sex twice in October…." I trailed off, not wanting to remember that day we fought or what he did to me afterwards. I watched as he closed his eyes, realizing what I meant

He sat down on the edge of the bed, his form rigid. Reaching out, he gently took my hand and pulled me in front of him so I was standing in between his legs. Then what he did next surprised me. He took his hands and tenderly rested them on either side of my growing stomach

"Why didn't you tell me, Mia? All this time…" he said, tracing circles on my sides

"Because you didn't need to know"

He looked up at me, surprised as I continued

"As far as I'm concerned, our marriage is over. I've been unfaithful, you've been unfaithful and it makes no since to stay together just because I'm pregnant"

"Mia-" he objected before I cut him off

"No, Drew. Don't. There's nothing you can say. It's over" I said, gently removing his hands from my stomach. Grabbing my bag, phone, and keys off of the bed, I walked towards the door. "I'm leaving you, Drew. I want a divorce." I said, pausing at the door to look at him. Torment was written all over his face, but I forced myself to stay strong. "Take care" I said weakly, shutting the door softly

I sat in the parking lot, eyes puffy from crying, trying to pull myself together. When I myself presentable, I went in and let myself into John's hotel room.

"Mia?" he called from the bedroom

"Yeah, it's me." I called back, throwing my bag onto the couch

John came out of the bedroom and pulled me into his embrace and kissed my forehead. He pulled back to look at my face, his changing from happy to see me to worried

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" he asked hands automatically flying to my stomach "Is the baby okay?"

"I'm fine John." I said placing my hand on top of his. I loved the fact that he was so in love and willing to take care of a baby that was not even his. "The baby is fine, John" I trailed off "I…told Drew." I said, leaving out the details

"That's great, I'm glade" he said, stroking my shoulders

"I also told him that our marriage was over"

We were silent for a moment before he finally spoke

"Isn't that what you wanted?"

"Isn't that what we want?" I questioned. The last affair ended because he didn't want to commit, which really hurt me and caused me to consult in Drew, who always made me feel wanted. I was engaged to Drew at the time and started sleeping with John only two months before the wedding because deep down, I still loved him. Right before the wedding, I gave him the ultimatum: Tell me that you want me to break this off with Drew and I would. You would think that was a sign right there that Drew and I weren't meant to be, but when John refused to take things further, I went through with the wedding. Not to get back at him, but because I thought Drew would fill in the cracks John had re-opened in my heart. I was wrong for thinking that.

"Of course that's what I want" he replied instantly

"Then promise me you won't walk away from me this time. Promise that I'm not in this alone, John because I can't do this alone" I said. "You can't leave me again." Tears were forming in my eyes and he brushed the escaped ones away

"Never. I'll never leave you again, Mia. I was stupid then for letting you go, but that's not me anymore. I'll be damned if I let it happen again." He said, touching his lips to mine "We'll get through this. Together." He assured me

And with no doubts, I believed him