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Chapter 3

Week Later

I was sitting in the studio, trying to keep my mind focused on the task at hand. I had a deadline to meet or Georgia was going to be ticked and I wasn't looking forward to an all nighter. Again.

But I couldn't focus. My mind kept drifting off and I didn't understand why. I kept thinking about that girl the other day. The girl I ran into at the diner.

"Tom!" I heard Kwest snap at me and I jerked as I sat up and looked at him. I didn't even know I was slouching and leaning on the soundboard. I smiled sheepishly at Kwest as I sat up and he didn't look happy.

Oh boy. Here we go again. I thought. Kwest was going to lecture in 3…2…

"Where the hell is you're mind at!" Kwest asked, looking annoyed.

"I'm sorry man, I just…I can't focus." I said honestly and Kwest sighed in annoyance.

"Did you even listen to that last set?" He asked me, and I looked at him. There was another variation? Kwest threw his hands up in annoyance. "Alright, what's your deal?" Kwest asked me, eyes staring straight into mine.

"Nothing. It's fine. I'm here, I'm focused…"

"No, you're not." Kwest said, his eyes dark with annoyance.

"What Kwest? What do you want?" I asked him. It's better to just ask Kwest what he wanted than to try and figure it out myself.

"What's got you all spacy? You never have problems nit-picking songs." I sighed.

"I just…I don't know Kwest. I feel like…like there's something missing." I told him honestly and he looked at me like I grew a third head.

"What does that mean?" He asked me. I shrugged.

"I just…I don't know. I can't explain it."

"I think you need to get laid man." Kwest informed me and I rolled my eyes. No, that definitely wasn't it. And I definitely wasn't in the mood for sex.

"Can we get working on this?" I told him and Kwest eyed me a moment.

"You should go for Eden."

"Excuse me?"

"She's hot. I bet she'd be great in bed." Kwest told me and I stared at him like he grew a third head. Where the hell did that come from! "And I doubt you'd have to do much to convince her. She's already interested."

"She just wants me because I'm famous." I informed Kwest and Kwest looked at me like I was insane.

"Since when has that bothered you?" I didn't respond.

Is it such a bad thing that for once I want a relationship where my past didn't matter? I'm 24 and what do I have to show for myself? A past I hate and a failed attempt to do what I wanted. Yeah, real successful my life has become.

"It doesn't…not really." I lied. This wasn't the time or place to worry about it. I sighed and switched on the soundboard, playing the song that Kwest had apparently modified during my zone out.

"Right. End of discussion." Kwest said with a sigh and turned back to the soundboard. "Whatcha think?" He asked me.

"It's alright…bass is too loud." I critiqued and Kwest made a slight adjustment and the tempo evened out considerably. "Much better. Hear the difference?" I asked and Kwest nodded.

We continued working on the track and I managed not to zone out again. I needed something more. Something...challenging. Maybe I should ask Georgia for a new artist; change things up some.

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I sat on my bed, lyric book open trying to think of something…anything. Songwriting is my therapy and I needed it badly.

I'm so tired of being here

I tapped my pen against the notepad, trying to figure out the perfect way to get my feelings out; My thoughts, my heartbreak, everything.

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

Tommy. I didn't know how I was going to live my life without him. I don't know why I should have to. But I do. This must have been my punishment by some higher power.

I wish that you would just leave

Seeing him last week…it was hard. I missed him and I wanted nothing more than to run up and hug him. Kiss him and tell him I loved him and not to leave me.

But I didn't. I couldn't. He didn't know me. Not in this world.

'Cause your presence still lingers here

In my thoughts, my memories, and my dreams. I can still smell his cologne, remember the way I felt when he touched me, when he kissed me.

And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal

No matter how hard I try, I can't forget my alternate reality.

This pain is just too real

I can remember it vividly; like it was yesterday. Like I'm still living it.

There's just too much that time cannot erase

Cannot erase from my mind. I don't know what happened; But I refuse to believe that was all a product of my overactive imagination.

All I know is no one believes me. They think I'm crazy.

Maybe, just maybe, I am.

But you still have

All of me