Chapter 4: lost and found.
" hey... hey... is everything okay? Do you hurt? Why are you crying, baby?" Beca says while automatically tears running through her eyes. Chloe's tears was Beca's weak point always, she can't see her cry. That's why whenever they had fights she always runs away from the fight or tried to stay away from Chloe. Beca was sitting on Chloe's bed but Not touching her afraid of hurt her.
When Chloe sees Beca from her blurry eyes she sits up and hugs her, she round her hands on Beca's neck. "Beca... becs... I lost ... I lost our child... Nurse... She told me... I...I am... s..sorry.." Chloe says between her uncontrollably sobs clutch Beca's collar .
Beca knows this before Chloe told her but heard it from Chloe's mouth it seems like hit her hard. Before she has more to deal with perhaps she didn't even know she is going to be mother but when she knew it she didn't get chance to think about it. Now was the time she knows what had she lost. Beca's shirt is wet from Chloe's warm tears . She knows Chloe felts 10 times worse than her. Chloe always loves kids it's not that Beca don't love them they just annoyed her. In their relationship and before relationship Beca has listened Chloe's rambling on kids. Just mention of kids lightens Chloe's mood no Matter what. She has seen Chloe's interaction with kids. Chloe used to be babysit as a part time job that's when Chloe decided to work as a teacher so she can work with kids. So Beca uses this topic whenever Chloe gets upset and automatically Chloe's mood lits up. Beca always dreamed kids with Chloe and only Chloe. Beca has never been good with kids but with Chloe by her side she knew she didn't have to try something hard, Chloe always brings out best from Beca. When Beca got too busy in her work she knew she was hurting Chloe by almost ignoring her that's why she agreed recluently even if she was not ready for that but just because of Chloe she agreed to have their own kid. They tried 5 times, only to fail. She can see Chloe was hurting and Beca was never good with words. It's more like Chloe's starts distant with Chloe just because she didn't want to see Chloe's sad face all the time. She deliberately didn't go with Chloe on her 6 th attempt.
But not anymore, not now, she is not leaving Chloe for suffering alone. She put her one hand on Chloe's back and with another hand she grabs Chloe's hand which was clutching her collar. Beca tries hard to find right words to come out. " it's not your fault Chloe. It's not your fault. Yes we lost something precious but I didn't lose my life which is you. You are my life. I still have you and with you by my side we could try again and again for endless time. We still have our life, we are still young. We can still do it together and believe me I am gonna be with you next time in your every step. " Beca wipes her tears, she have to be strong for Chloe.
Chloe stops crying but kept sobbing and whimpering slightly . Beca didn't know what to say further she curls her fingers with Chloe's. She decides to do one thing at which she is good. Sings her heart
I found myself dreaming
In silver and gold
Like a scene from a movie
That every broken heart knows we were walking on moonlight
And you pulled me close
Split second and you disappeared and then I was all alone
Beca remembers the time when she met Chloe, the every day after that is becoming much better. With Chloe she dreams her future she has everything, her world start with Chloe,ends with Chloe basically revolves around Chloe just she lost herself into her dreams that she forgotten her real dream with Chloe till the last night when she thought she had lost Chloe she realized it.
I woke up in tears
With you by my side
A breath of relief
And I realized
No, we're not promised tomorrow
After seeing Chloe today, feeling Chloe against herself again, feeling her warmth she release her breath of relief, as she forgot how to breath before.
So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
After Chloe moves with her in LA she realized she always takes Chloe for granted after then she realized how wrong she was...
In the blink of an eye
Just a whisper of smoke
You could lose everything
The truth is you never know
So I'll kiss you longer baby
Any chance that I get
I'll make the most of the minutes and love with no regrets
She kisses Chloe on her temple gently...
Let's take our time
To say what we want
Use what we got
Before it's all gone
'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow
So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
Hey
Whoa
I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
"I love you Chloe beale...and I am sorry I was acting like bitch towards you past few months. Please forgive me for my behaviour and I promise you I'll be better for you. Just promise me one thing you will never leave me alone. You 'll not left my side no matter what happens. Promise me..." Beca says desperately.
Chloe pulls away to see Beca, her blue eyes met Beca's light blue, she can see Beca's insecurities. Chloe can see how vulnerable, fragile she is being. She has never seen Beca like this."I promise you Beca. I'll never leave you unless you want me to."
"Good because I'll never want you to leave me."Beca smiles while leaning forward to captures Chloe's lips and everything else is forgotten. Each pain is faded out, because they have each other.
Author notes: songs I've mentioned in last chapter is from 'The vamps, wake up' and song from this chapter is 'like I'm gonna loose you, Meghan trainor.'
Hope so some things are cleared out your questions feel free to questions. I love you awesome nerds.