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Title : Broken Strings

Genre : Drama, Romance.

Disclaimer : I don't own the characters unfortunately. They are the property of HBO and Charlaine Harris ! I only own my OCs, Elizabeth Adams and Alan Cooper.

Chapter 4 : Coming Home

Alan didn't cry when we were at his old house, but now it was completely different person I had in front of me. He was sitting on the ground, his arms wrapped around his knees. He was completely broken, he was crying like he had lost everything. Well he had lost his family and I knew how much it hurt but I truly believe that it was more difficult for him.

My entire family was dead while his was rejecting him because he chose to live, he chose to be a vampire. I still couldn't understand why they had done this to their son. Of course, he was a vampire, of course he was now drinking human blood to live but he was still the same. He was a young vampire, he was still like he was when he was human. He was not a monster like they seemed to believe.

Then, they were probably brainwashed by Steve Newlin. They were blinded by their hate towards vampires and now they hated their son for what he was, for who he was.

Now I was the only one there for him. I was the only one he could rely on, the only one who could stay with him no matter what. I wish they could have accepted him but now I needed to be everything for me. I needed to be here for him forever, or at least until he was alright.

That was my duty as a maker, but also as a friend.

And now, I also needed to comfort him but I wasn't very good at those kind of things. People used to comfort me, not the contrary. Arthur had always been here for me and Godric too. Now, it was my time to be here for someone and it was going to be something.

I came in front of him and kneeled. He looked at me, still crying. His face was covered in blood and it truly broke my heart to see him so desperate, to feel all this pain. The only thing I wanted to do at this very moment was going back to his house and kill everyone there. They deserved it for hurting him.

" It's going to be alright. " I said, trying to sound as convincing as possible. It would take time to heal but I knew he would be alright one day. He had now forever and forever was long enough to forget about such a rejection.

" They are my family, how could they ? " He asked me and I wished I knew the answer.

We could have glamoured them to make them love him, but everything would have been a lie and honestly that was probably not what Alan needed. Then I just didn't understand why Alan refused to glamour them to make them forget It would have been much easier because I was a little bit afraid of what they could do now that they knew about Alan being a vampire. If they were part of the Fellowship of the Sun, it would annoying.

Now was not the time to think about it, my main preoccupation.

" I don't know but trust me, you'll be able to live without them. One day you may even forgive them for what they've done. " I said as I wiped one of his bloody tears away. It hurt me to see him like that, I wasn't only feeling this pain but I was feeling an entire new pain.

I cared about him, I cared about him a lot since he was my progeny. And it hurt me to see him like that. Now, I knew exactly how Arthur felt about me. I was even wondering how he managed to stay sane with me.

" Now, I want you to understand that I'll always be here for you, nothing will break the bond we share. I will never reject you like they did. I am your maker and as your maker you'll always be able to count on me. I may not be a perfect maker but I'll do my best to help you with your pain. "

" I know and trust me you're amazing. " He said and chuckled. " The worst thing is that they didn't even try to understand what happened and my mother, she slapped you. You saved me and she hurt you. I was ready to attack her since she'd touched you, you know ? Rage was boiling inside of me. "

I would have smiled if the situation wasn't that awful. I was happy and proud because he cared about me, but then it made me sad that he would have hurt his mother. Well, that was not entirely true because she deserved it. She was such a bitch towards me, and it took everything to prevent me from attacking her too. At least, I wasn't too impulsive anymore. I was more responsible now that Alan was my progeny and it was proud of myself. Months before, I would have attacked her.

" I'm glad that now I have you. It's strange but even if I have lost everyone I love I don't belong there anymore but I still have you. " He said and I was touched by his little confession.

I smiled at him, knowing that he was very sincere right now. At least, he still had me and I had him. If only he knew how much he had changed me. One day, he would learn about the vampire I was and maybe that day would come very quickly.

The day he would meet Godric and even Eric would make him understand how much he had changed me.

" You will always have me. " I said and our eyes locked. He wasn't crying anymore, he was just staring at me.

And I didn't like the look on his face, I didn't really like the way he was looking at me. I also didn't like what I was feeling when it came to him. Our bond was completely open and what Alan wanted was so evident.

He wanted comfort, he wanted love, he wanted me right now.

His eyes were full of hunger, of lust and I was the only here with him. I couldn't deny that he was beautiful but he was just not Godric. And he was my child, then that wasn't an excuse, many makers shared that kind of relationship with their child and I had done this with Arthur.

Don't look at me like that, I kept repeating in my head, I just wanted to avoid those kind of temptation. Then, he needed comfort, I needed to be here for him. I needed to be a good maker. Then being a good maker didn't mean having sex with him to make him forget right ?

" Alan, just don't give me that look please. " I whispered and realized now how close we were now. This was just not happening, I couldn't let that happen.

To be honest, I was craving for physical contact since I left Godric, I was craving for sex since I left him. My instincts told me to stop thinking and just do what I should do. Why was I so confused over such a stupid little thing ?

" I just need you. " He said against my lips and before I knew what was happening, his lips were on mine.

That wasn't happening, that just couldn't be happening, I couldn't let him kiss me… I couldn't kiss him back but yet that was exactly what I was doing. And I enjoyed it as much as I hated to admit it.

I felt his hands roaming over my body and I could only smile in the kiss. I wanted this, but then something was completely wrong with this situation. Of course, kissing him made me feel great but the, that wasn't the kind of relationship I wanted to share with him.

I also need to be completely honest with myself, I didn't feel right because I loved Godric, because I just couldn't do that to him. I would betray him, and I would betray myself too by doing this. It wasn't fair to do this because it would be like I was cheating on him. I just couldn't do that no matter how much I wanted physical contact.

Then, I didn't want to do this with Alan because the only one I wanted to have sex with, make love to was Godric.

Godric was the only one who could make me feel completely and the only one I was thinking about when Alan was kissing me. I was imagining him in front of me…

I gently pushed Alan away and stopped him when he tried to kiss me again. I knew he probably needed this, because he wanted comfort but I wasn't the one for this kind of comfort.

" No, Alan this is not right. "

" Please, I just need this and you want it as much as I want it. I can feel you, I can- "

" -I said no and I'm not going to change my mind. " I interrupted him and maybe I was a little bit to cold. He was hurt. " Alan I'm not denying that I might want this but not with you. I can't give you this because I love Godric. I'm not acting like a vampire should be in this situation but I love Godric and I can't betray him like that you know. "

A vampire in my situation wouldn't have thought twice about this but then I had changed a lot since my meeting with Godric and since I fell in love with him. He had changed me and now I knew that I had to be faithful to him.

Maybe I had been changed for the better, I didn't know but I knew I was making the right choice.

I just hoped that Alan would forgive me for rejecting him like that after what happened with his family. I knew a great maker should be here for his progeny but there were some things I just couldn't do, I was a shitty maker…

Then, he had to understand. After all, he knew how much I loved Godric, he knew everything about my feelings…

" This is the first time something like that happens to me. This is the first time and hopefully the last that someone rejects me like that. " He said with a serious look on his face and I felt guilty for what I was making him enduring.

He deserved a much better maker than me.

" Hey, I was only joking. Don't feel that way. " He said and I realized that he must have felt my emotions. " Lizzie, honestly it's okay I understand. I should have known. "

" Well, that's awkward. " I said and he laughed.

At least, he was now in a very good mood.

" Honestly, Lizzie you look too young for me."

I laughed, of course I looked too young for him, I was still physically seventeen, just like Godric.

" You know what Alan, we're going to leave New York and this state. " I suddenly said and I had made up my mind. It was time. " We're going to Louisiana, I want you to meet Godric and everyone. "

A few days later - Shreveport

I was anxious, stressed… I was just going crazy, I was so close to him and yet so far away. I knew what I was going to do tonight, I was going to Fangtasia.

Maybe Godric was there and if he wasn't Eric or even Pam would tell me where he was. I didn't want to go to Eric's house just in case. Then going to Fangtasia was going to be something, especially since Alan was going to be with me.

I wanted him to be here with me because, even if it would be harder that way if Godric was there, at least everyone would know that I had a progeny.

" You're two hundred years old and you're acting like a teenager. I can't believe it. Lizzie you're back here, and you'll see him soon. Why are you so worried ? It's not like you're going to die. " Alan said, trying to reason me.

We were walking towards Fangtasia, of course we could get there quickly but I was trying to make this as long as possible. I was terrified I think. What if Godric was there ? What would he do ? Was he going to reject me ? If he did this, I didn't know how I would react. I couldn't live without him… But I would have to for Alan.

" He could hate me, he could tell me that he doesn't want me anymore, that he doesn't love me anymore. "

" Come on, after everything you've told me about you and him, it's impossible. "

I wished he was right, well we would soon learn about that. We were close to Fangtasia, very close now. I could see a huge crowd around the door, as always. Fangtasia was a well known bar and every one was interested, curious about a vampire bar.

Pam was at the door, the same look on her face than she always had. Humans were annoying her, it was so evident but I liked Pam.

" Who's that hot vampire at the door ? " Alan asked me and I chuckled.

" You're not her type. " I replied, knowing exactly that Pam would never do anything with Alan.

" I'm everyone's type, Lizzie. " Alan stated firmly and that was honestly very funny. Of course, he knew he was attractive but sometimes he was a little bit too arrogant for his own good.

" You have no vagina, you're not her type. " I answered and Alan froze. Of course, he wasn't expecting that and he just didn't say anything else, or at least I didn't understand what he was saying.

We finally arrived in front of Pam, and to say that she was surprised was an euphemism. She looked at me and when her eyes fell on Alan, she raised her eyebrows. I wanted to scream that it wasn't what she thought but I decided to keep my mouth shut.

" Elizabeth, what a lovely surprise. " Pam said and I could faintly see a small smile on her face. " And who's that ? "

" Alan, my progeny. " I answered and now Pam was even more surprised, I would even say shocked. " I'm glad to see you're fine Pam. Will you let us in ? "

I wanted to ask her if Godric was here but I couldn't. I was ridiculous, completely ridiculous. I wished she could tell me he was here.

" Of course. " She said and stepped to let us in. " I'm glad to see you're back Elizabeth. "

It was now or never.

I took a step forward and once I was inside the bar, my eyes scanned the room, immediately searching for Godric.

He was not here and I was disappointed, extremely disappointed. He should have been here, it was Eric's bar after all. Where was he ? Did something happen to him ? No, it was impossible because Pam would have said something.

I was overreacting. He was not here because he had things to do or something like that. I just needed to calm myself. At least Eric was here and the moment I stepped in, I felt his eyes on me. And now, he was summoning me to his throne.

" Just behave Alan. Don't do anything stupid here. " I said and he nodded.

I made my way towards Eric and stopped when I was in front of me. His stare was cold, he had every reasons to be like that. I had hurt his maker, of course he wanted to make me pay. Maybe it was stupid to come here.

" It's about time. " He said and something had changed. " We've been missing you, Lizzie. "

My mouth fell open. I wasn't expecting that, I thought he would scream at me for hurting Godric but he was just very calm and… Well that was great. Maybe I had been nervous for nothing ? No, because it just seemed too perfect.

" Where's Godric ? " I asked and my voice was trembling. I needed to pull myself together, I was a vampire.

" You've broken him. He's not the same. " He said bitterly and I immediately felt even more guilty than I already was.

" I know but I had to leave okay ? You don't know how hard it was for me. I know I've hurt him but I told him I would come back and I'm here now. "

Everyone had been hurt and honestly if he had let Russell burn, things would have been much easier but that was the past and we couldn't change it, even if I would like to do so. But then if the past could be rewritten, Alan would be dead because I wouldn't have been there to save him.

" I know but I watched my maker slowly fading away because of you, Lizzie. " He said coldly. " Then you're only one who can help him now. You need to make things right with him, I can't deal with an emotional maker anymore. He's making us crazy. "

" I'm sorry. "

Eric grimaced. Of course my apologize didn't mean anything but at least I was completely sincere. I was sorry for everything I had done but then some things needed to be done. I knew I had made the right choice.

" You should apologize to him. He's at home. " Eric started and then he looked around and when his stare fell on something I had to turn around. He was eyeing Alan suspiciously. My progeny was talking with a human or rather seducing a human.. I told him to behave, if only he could have listened to me.

" What's that thing ? " Eric asked and I could hear amusement in his voice, but his amusement wasn't going to last long. I could feel it.

" My progeny. "

Anger was now written on Eric's face. He got everything wrong.

" We don't have that kind of relationship, Eric. I love Godric. " I said, trying to sound as convincing as possible. " We're like Jessica and Bill, okay. So now I'm going to see Godric and.. " I stopped looking at Alan. He couldn't come with now, it would definitely be too hard. " Can you just make sure he doesn't do anything stupid ? "

" I'm not a babysitter. " Eric answered but his eyes never left Alan.

" Thank you Eric. " I said and started to leave, making sure that Alan knew where I was going and that he had to stay here until I was back.

I ran as fast as possible to get to Eric's home and once I was in front of it, I was pretty sure that if I was human, my heart would be pounding in my chest. I couldn't back out.

I made my way inside and found Godric laying on the sofa, staring at the ceiling. He was a mess and I was the only one to blame for this. His eyes were empty, he had some old blood stain on his shirt but he hadn't been crying. How long did he stay like that ? I was so awful… I could have never imagined that it would be that hard for him.

" Godric ? "

He sat up immediately and when our eyes locked, I didn't know if being here was such a good thing.

And here we go. So what do you think will happen now ? How do you think Godric will react ? Did you like that chapter ?

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