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It's been one month since the phone call. I haven't seen Inuyasha ever since that day, and even though I'm doing my best to forget him, everything I think off leads me to think of him. Kouga and I are back the way we used to be. We are boyfriend and girlfriend, and though we will never be as close as we used to be, I'm glad to have him back. I haven't heard anything more about Naraku, and nobody has had the guts to bring it up.

"Kags, want to go to a movie?" Kouga asked me, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Sure."

He took me to the same movie theater that Inuyasha broke up with Kikyo in. He broke up with her for me, and now I don't get to ever see him again. No matter how I looked at it, what I had done was horrible. Not even the fact that I'm protecting his life can demolish the fact that I hurt him.

"What do you want to see?" Kouga asked, scanning the movie selection board.

I was about to reaspond when I was caught dead in my tracks. I saw something that I hoped never to see. And, some how, this hurt me more than Naraku ever could. Inuyasha was at the movie theater, with Kikyo hanging over him. I hoped that Inuyasha would move on and try to love again after what I had to do, but to see him with Kikyo, that hurt me. In a way, I always knew this would happen, one way or another.

He looked my way and he too froze dead in his tracks. His amber eyes met with my brown ones, blocking out the whole world. His expression with Kikyo, it seemed almost forced happiness, and now when he is looking at me, it seems almost confused.

"Kagome-" Kouga stopped when he saw who I was staring at.

"Inuyasha." I whispered so no one could hear.

Inuyasha took a step towards me. He seemed almost...cautious. Like I was an illusion that would fade away if he got to close. With each step foreward he took, I took a step back. If he came too close, I would brake down and tell him why I said what I said, and he would no longer be safe.

I was thankful when Kikyo came over and pulled him towards the theaters. If he had only taken a couple more steps I would have had no where else to move back to. When he was being pulled by Kikyo though, his eyes held that same forced happiness, but this time, they held hope. I didn't want him to hope if it had anything to do with me. I wanted him to forget, but that was something I knew he could never do.

"Kagome are you okay? You sure you don't want to go after him?"

Kouga was so understanding of Inuyasha and I. I knew it killed him inside to suggest to let Inuyasha back into my life, but he was, and I hated him for it. I love that he can put my feelings before his own, even though I don't deserve it, but I hate it because everytime he suggests it, makes me want to go after Inuyasha even more. Right now, it was so tempting to run up to Inuyasha and kiss him to death, but I had to think about Naraku, and what happened to Kouga and I. I don't know how Kouga survived, but I was pretty sure that it had something to do with him being a demon, and if Inuyasha faced the same thing Kouga did, I didn't even want to risk him getting hurt, or even worse...killed. I only wish that this would have happened with Kouga and I so I could have saved him.

"No. I can't. I won't risk his life," I told him as a single tear ran down my cheek.

"Kagome, please, this is killing you. I want more than anything for you to be happy, and if that means risking his life...I'll protect you both."

"Then you would be in danger."

"Like I'm not now?"

"Kouga, we have a chance because we know what to expect, but Inuyasha...With him in this, one of you might be killed and I can't live with that."

"And what if Naraku never come, and you are making the biggest mistake of your life?" he asked, cautiously choosing his words.

"Yeah and what if this never happened to you and me? What if I wasn't a miko? What if demons never existed? What if the world was flat? What if I still wasn't talking? What if you were actually dead? What if I never met you or Inuyasha? What if my parents never died? What it, Kouga?" I questioned.

"Kagome, that's exactly my point," he sighed. "You always told me to live life to it's fullest, and not to worry about the future. You said that no matter what I do, I should be happy. Kagome, please take that advice. I hate letting you go, and it's not very easy. Inuyasha is lucky that you are suffering with out him."

"I was suffering with out you too, Kouga. I went mute, because I didn't want anyone to know about what happened. The locket you gave me, became my whole reason for living. You can't say that isn't suffering, Kouga."

"He gave you a locket. He healed the wounds that I caused-"

"You didn't cause them though, Naraku did," I corrected him.

"But it was because of me."

"No, it was the fact that I wouldn't push you away when I had the chance like I am doing with Inuyasha. You were wounded too, just like me, so don't pretend you weren't. I'm not about to hurt you again."

"But you're ready to hurt Inuyasha?"

"I thought you loved me!" I yelled.

"I do, that is why I want you to go after him. Kagome, I love you with all my heart, and would give anything to make you happy, and if that means letting you go..." he trailed off.

"No Kouga. What would make me happy, is to see you guys both alive after I die. To see you guys getting along, and not fighting."

"To be with Inuyasha is what you want Kagome."

"I'm not ready to let you go again. You just got back, and I thought you were dead."

At this point I was crying. Crying because Kouga was telling me the same thing I told Inuyasha, but I was fighting back unlike Inuyasha. I wasn't going to put Inuyasha's life in danger just because I love him. I knew that I was never going to be fully happy again after I made the desicion, but I could be happy with Kouga, at least that's what I kept telling myself.

"I'm not ready to leave you yet either, Kagome-"

"Then don't. I know I love Inuyasha. There's no hiding that, but I can't let him be in the way of Naraku-"

"You are making you both miserable, Kagome. Do you want that?"

"He wasn't miserable," I defended.

"I could see it, Kagome, and I know you could too."

"Kikyo, the girl he was with, that was his ex girlfriend. He broke up with her because he liked me. He broke up with her in this same theater. The worst part was, I was there to see him brake her heart. She was picking on us and Inuyasha told her that they were over. Right then and there, a straight cut with no sharp edges. If you do it like he did, then they won't be wounded as badly, or as long. My cut though, wasn't so straight. My cut had some sharp edges, but I don't have time to fix them. His wounds that I caused, they will heal in time, just like I did. He will find someone that can help him, and who can heal him. Sharp edges are like cliffs. When you died, I was about to jump off one of my cliffs...but I didn't, and I found Inuyasha."

"Kagome-"

"He'll heal, I know he will, but because of the sharp edges, it will just take time. I know Inuyasha well enough to know that he wouldn't jump off his cliff. He'll stay as a whole, as long as there's hope," I told him.

"And if there's not?"

"Then he'll fall."

"What hope did you have?" he asked quietly.

"I didn't."

"But you-"

"I had a duty. I had and still have to protect the jewel. If I did jump, the jewel would have wound up in Naraku's hands, and thus ending the world."

He nodded.

"But what hope does he have?"

"He has the hope that I will come back. The hope that I will leave you, and come back with a reason why I did what I did."

"So he's only going to hope, not try?" Kouga asked curiously.

"No, he's going to try alright."

Kouga shot me a confused look.

"He's going to try and make me jealous."

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