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Chapter 4:
Melanie's POV
My world has once again come crashing down at my feet because of this guy, Jonathan.
I can feel that my breath is coming out in short pants, and I start to feel light headed. Why can't he just leave well enough alone? Michael and I are doing fine without him, I realize that he never was one to just leave things the way they are, and that no matter how much I want to get away from everything that happened in California, to get away from him. I never will because he and I are bound together by our son forever.
I take a step forward and I feel Rachel, grip my hand tighter, her breathing is just as labored as mine, she's angry. I smile, this is why she's my best friend, she was never going to abandon me, or hurt me like Jonathan did.
"What are you doing here?" She asked harshly, I've never been so glad that she likes to talk so much seeing as how I can't seem to find my own voice, she lets go of my hand, and I feel weak and like a little kid who just lost their mother in the store, as she moves farther away from.
"Like I said, I'm here to see my son" he said quietly looking down at her, like he used to look down at everybody, he looks the same as I remember, he's still tall he has the same golden brown hair and the same deep green eyes that I used to love to get lost in that summer at least three years ago, now I can barely even look at him, in fear of breaking down.
"Rachel." I say quietly, my head was down. I'm trying to hide the tears that were starting to build up in my eyes. I could feel the familiar knot in my stomach, and lump in my throat, my legs felt they were going to give out. Rachel knew this was killing me, she could see that I wanted to scream and hit him, let out all my pain and anger so badly but I couldn't because Michael was here and I didn't want him to see me that way.
"Daddy, could you take Michael up and put him to bed?" Rachel asked, Uncle David and Alan nodded taking Michael, kissed both of us girls on our heads and headed upstairs. All I could do was stare at the floor, I didn't want to look at him, but I knew I had to.
"Why?" I whispered softly looking at him. I would be surprised if anyone even hurt it.
Normal POV
"What?" Jonathan asked, Melanie brought her head up and looked into his eyes, her sad brown doe eyes filled with unshed tears.
"I said why? Why are you here?" she asked, he voice staying at the same quiet level.
"I told you, I wanted to see.." he said turning his head to look up the stairs.
"Now you want to him, now you want to your son!" Melanie yelled Jonathan and everybody looked shocked hearing her raise her voice, after she was so quiet just a few minutes ago. "You had two years to see him! Do you know how different people looked at me? How alone I felt?" Melanie asked, walking up to him, he was looking at something on the other side of the room.
"Look at me!" she yelled Jonathan's eyes focused on hers, guilty green eyes clashed with sad brown ones, Rachel moved toward her, but Quinn held her back shaking her head
"She needs to get through this one on her own, she needs to do this" Quinn whispered to Rachel who nodded, but was still ready to jump at him if she needed her too.
"Do you know how lonely I was? I needed you, and you left me all alone, and for what? Huh for what!" she yelled again finally letting lose her tears.
"I was scared!" he yelled back at her after a few moments of silence.
"You think I wasn't scared? I was terrified, I asked you, begged you to help me, I didn't want to raise a baby alone. I was only 15 years-old Jonathan!" she said. "You saw how cruel everybody was to me and you didn't do anything, nothing to stop it from happening!" she said. He swallowed looking ashamed.
"Would you have come to me, if you knew I almost had a miscarriage? That I almost lost Michael, our son, because of how cruel people that I thought were my friends were being, and how sad and depressed I was, or that I could have died while giving birth to him?" she asked him staring up at him sadly, even though she was angry, she couldn't stop the tears from flowing from her eyes. He opened his mouth and then closed it again.
"Do you know how many times, he asked me about you huh? He always said 'Mommy, how come I don't have a daddy, like all the other boys and girls do? Does daddy not love me' He asked me so many times till one time he asked I burst into tears, he's never asked me again. He's afraid he'll make me sad" she told him, his breathing had gone raged and his eyes were starting to tear over.
"Wha—What did you tell him?" he asked softly, slightly afraid of her answer, he closed his eyes
"I told him daddy loves him, but he just wasn't around" she said looking up at him, he let out a breath opening his eyes, and the tears began to fall onto his cheeks.
"I…I don't know how I can make it up to you. I know that me being scared isn't an excuse for what I did, and what I said, but I really want to get to know him. Please I've missed so much, and I regret every second that I wasn't there with you, with both of you" he said, she looked at him as a new batch of tears worked their way from her eyes.
"You know when Ashley called and told me that you went into labor, I freaked out. I drove to the hospital and I sat in my car for about three hours, I didn't know what to do, but I knew that Rachel and your father would kick my ass if I just showed up there" he told her smiling slightly at Rachel when she nodded her head. "I was so scared, knowing that you probably hated me, for leaving you alone like I did, I couldn't go in there, so when Ashley saw me when she was leaving about four or five hours later, she told me you had a boy and that you named him Michael, When I heard that I just sat there in my car and cried" he said, wanting to reach out and touch her and wipe her tears away, to pull her to his chest and make everything go away, but he knew he didn't have the right to touch her anymore so he grabbed at the hem of his shirt to stop himself, Rachel noticed this action and her face softened slightly and her mouth formed and 'oh'.
"You went…you went to the hospital, when I was in labor?" she asked. "Ashley never said anything" she said shaking her head, he nodded sadly.
"Yeah I went and after you had him, I think I stood and started at him in his little crib for like three hours, he was so beautiful, just like you. Melanie" he said sadly. "I went to your room you know every night until you went back home, course it was when everybody had left, and you were asleep already, I just sat there and looked at you, I cried sometimes, thinking it could have been if I wasn't so much of a coward and stayed with you, I fell asleep and your dad found me the next morning one time, he wanted to kick my ass, until he saw my face, god I was mess my eyes were so red and bloodshot I looked like Shit, he saw how bad I felt, he decided not to make me feel worse then I already did" he said. She sobbed, biting her lip as she looked at him, she looked back at everybody all the girls and Kurt were crying, silently, she thought she saw some of the guys wipe their eyes as well.
"Didn't you ever notice, how nobody said anything after you had Michael? They didn't say anything cuz' when James said something about you on the baseball field, I kicked his ass, after that nobody said anything…and those presents for Michael that you got, all the stuffed animals and the Disney movies, they were all from me. I know how much of a Disney freak you are" he told her.
"He still has them, the gifts. He loves tiger, he sleeps with it every night" she told him, he gave her sad smile
"I just wanted to give him something, since I couldn't be there for him" he told her. "Well I should go." He said stepping forward to give her a hug but thought differently and walked back toward the door, looking back at her with a sad smile washing over his face, he turned back around and left Rachel's house, Leaving Melanie sobbing in the middle of the living room. Melanie whipped out her phone and dialed a number.
Melanie's POV
-Phone conversation-
"Daddy, I have to ask you something…did Jonathan ever come to the hospital after I had Michael?" I asked, there was a slight pause
"Why do you want to know?" daddy asks, he's hesitating to answer me.
"Daddy please tell me, please" I realize I'm begging him now, I know he'll tell me because I know how broken I sound at the moment.
"He went every night, he slept in the chair that was next to your bed and just started at you, he held your hand every second and cried, he regretted what he did, you could see it in his eyes" daddy says, I start to cry harder, Rachel comes next to me and puts her arm around me.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I ask him, I needed to know.
"He didn't want you to know that he was there, he wanted to prove to you that he had changed, that he regretted what he did every second of the day. He wanted you to be proud of him like you used to be, he wanted to prove to himself and everyone that he deserved to love you and your love in return, he asked me to sing Michael 'somewhere over the rainbow' every night to help him sleep since he wouldn't be there to do it himself, he knew that was your favorite song" daddy tells me softly, my eyes go wide and my heart starts to beat faster, I look at Rachel, she looks so shocked, I stared at the door, before dropping my phone to the ground and rushing outside, I could here Rachel talking to my dad and everybody calling my name but i didn't care i just needed to find him, I looked down the street and see him walked slowly with his hands in his pocket. It was raining harshly, but I still ran after him.
"Johnny!" I called, I could see him freeze and his back tense. I haven't called him that since the day I told him I was pregnant. I ran behind him and latched myself to him back, wrapping my arms around his waist and cried into his back, his shirt was already soaked through from the rain and mine were too.
"Mel" he whispered. I barely heard him over the rain, it was hard to keep our eyes open.
"I believe you, I do. I called daddy and he said you were there. Why didn't you say anything?" I asked, my I was crying roughly now, he removed my arms and I was afraid he was going to leave again, and then he took my face in his hands and kissed me. Every feeling that I tried to lock away came rushing back to me in this one single kiss.
"I didn't say anything, because when I saw you at the hospital, I knew a simple apology wouldn't cut it, I need to change and prove that to you." Jonathan said looking into my eyes. I whimpered and then punched him in the arm. "Oww what was that for?" he asked rubbing him arm
"Because, I was still in love with you, damnit I still am, and I just wanted you to be there for me, you didn't have to do any of this stupid proving yourself shit that you were doing, you big idiot!" I told him clutching the front of his shirt as I cried into it. He laughed slightly as he pulled me closer to his body.
"God I missed you so much!" he said as he kissed the top of my head. I nodded and whimpered again hugging him closer, I was afraid I would wake up and this would all be a dream and I would still be alone and Michael would still be without a dad.
"Maybe…maybe you could pick me up from school tomorrow and help me with my room and get to know Mich… get to know your son" I said looking into his eyes. He looked at me and nodded his head his smile wide and reaching his eyes, and pulled me closer to him, holding me tightly, maybe he was afraid of the same thing I am, this all being a dream
Maybe just maybe things will be alright now. I think to myself as he kissed me again, in the middle of the street in the pouring down rain.
AN: Okay so a lot happened but I decided to give Mel a happy ending, yay! but hey I'm a hopeless romantic so she had to have a happy ending. I doubt this will be the only tear jerker in this story but fo rnow it is.
This chapter almost made me cry while I was writing it. I really hope you like it please review, I want to get your guy's feedback it helps and means a lot to me.
