D for Death

Warning injury/blood.

Silence hit your eardrums. The bridge was tense. You'd had a comm to report to the bridge immediately and you had. It was nearly empty only a couple of people were standing on the bridge. Jim, Spock, Scotty, and Leonard.

You stood next to them and looked towards the incoming Comm. Hands firmly placed behind you back. It was odd that you were the only ones on the bridge; it meant that something important had happened or was being announced.

An unfamiliar face flashed up on the screen, you could only assume that he was an admiral. His face blank, showing no emotion. "Captain Kirk" the man acknowledged. "I trust these are the most trusted people on the Enterprise?"

"Yes Admiral," Jim replied

"Good, the fewer people that know the better." He announced "Care to give me a brief of who you've selected" the admiral stated.

Jim nodded " Commander Spock is my first officer, Dr. McCoy is the Chief Medical Officer on the Enterprise, Lieutenant Commander Scotty is the Chief Engineer, and Lieutenant Y/L/N is the second best engineer on this ship."

The Admiral nodded "Good choice Kirk."

You stood and looked at the man while he took a breath. "We regret to inform you that the U.S.S Caspian has been destroyed due to what we believe was a fault caused by tampering."

You didn't hear anything else the Admiral said. Silence returned to your ears but you could still see the man talking. Your heart dropped, The U.S.S Caspian; the ship your best friend since childhood was on, had been destroyed. You were numb and unable to move. You saw the communication shut off and the people around you step out of line slightly to talk to each other.

Jim turned to see you looking blankly into space, unmoved hands now by your side rather than behind your back. "Y/N," he said walking towards you "Are you ok."

You turned to him and looked him in the eye, your eyes beginning to well up. "My best friend was on that ship." You sobbed, barely able to get the message out.

That's when it happened you burst out crying, unable to breathe. Jim placed his arms around your shoulders and began to soothe you "It's ok Y/N, We're here." He said.

You grabbed onto Jim's yellow shirt unable to let go and continued to cry into his chest. Your legs gave out and Jim slowly lowered the two of you to the ground, trying to calm you down as he did.

You were now sat on the floor, Jim's arms hugging to you as you continued to cry, he placed small kisses on the top of your hair. You felt Jim's arms loosen slightly and someone touch you but you still continued to cry. "Y/N you've got to breathe for me." You heard Leonard say.

You looked at him and shook your head continuing to cry, it was impossible to breathe, all you could do was cry for your friend. You closed your eyes and were numb again, you felt like you were underwater.

You opened your eyes to find yourself being carried towards your quarters; you must have cried yourself into exhaustion on the bridge. Before you knew it you were being placed on your bed, you looked up to see Jim smiling at you sympathetically. "It's ok Y/N I'm here." He said covering you over with the covers. You whimpered and closed your eyes; you could feel yourself welling up again. But within seconds you felt the other side of the bed dip, and arms were swiftly paced around you pulling you tightly to Jim's chest. He kissed the back of your head and you slowly fell asleep.

You woke up the next morning feeling drained; you rolled over to find no one next to you. You sighed and sat up, pushing the hair away from your face. You slowly got out of bed and pulled on your uniform.

You grabbed a mug of coffee from the replicator and left your quarters, heading towards Engineering. The doors whooshed open and you walked up to Scotty's desk. "Morning Scotty." He looked up "Morning lass." He stood and grabbed some tools "Are you sure you're ok to work?" he questioned before handing you some tools.

You nodded "I'm fine Scotty."

Time passed as you mindlessly helped Scotty repair some things. You were holding a something in place for him when it dislodged and sliced your hand, you cursed, knowing it was your fault for not paying more attention. You felt Scotty grab your hand and inspect it "Aye lass you better go get that checked it looks pretty deep." You look at him in the eyes then back down at your hand which is oozing blood, you sigh defeated and nod. "I'll call ahead." He says as you leave engineering.

You walk into Sick-bay holding your arm out in front of you with your other hand, keeping it as far away from you as possible. The sting the cut was giving off was bearable if it was untouched, but every time you moved your hand pain would travel up your arm.

You looked around to see Leonard walking towards you, leading you to a bio-bed. You sit down as he collects some equipment "Scotty told me what happened."

You bow your head "It was my fault I wasn't paying attention." He nods and begins to clean the wound and runs a dermal regenerator over it."

"It looked worse than it was, minor damage really." He says looking up at you with a smile.

"Thanks" you reply hopping off of the bed.

"Y/N." He calls you turn and look at him. "I've signed you off duty for a couple of days. You need some time to grieve. Jim knows."

You nod not wanting to start an argument and leave Sick-bay.

You sit on your bed and get on with some paperwork. You turn to your communicator and quickly call your friend's parents. You sit and talk for what seems like hours, talking about the time you'd spent together and how much you'd miss them. They told you not to be upset cause they'd died doing what they love, surrounded by brilliant people. You hand up the communicator and smile, the conversation making you feel better already, it had given you a sense of closure.

Your quarter doors open and you turn to see Scotty followed by Jim, Leonard, Spock, and Uhura. You smiled and they take a seat on the sofa with you, Jim sitting next to you putting his arm on the back of the sofa. You all sit and chat, telling jokes and laughing. This was the first time you'd felt normal since yesterday afternoon. Throughout the night you'd slowly started to lean more into Jim and by the end of the night, you were falling asleep on Jim's chest.

He gently shook your shoulder. "We're all going to head off now," Uhura said heading towards the door. You got up and ran to her giving her a big hug before she left.

You did the same for Spock. "Take care Y/N," he said before grabbing Uhura's hand and leaving.

McCoy slowly stood from the sofa with Scotty. Scotty through his hands around you and you hugged him back. "We need you in Engineering ASAP Y/N, today was hard without you."

You look towards McCoy raising an eyebrow, "Well that's all down to McCoy."

He smiled and you gave him a quick embrace, the doctor not being the affectionate type. "It's only two more days what's the worst that can happen without her Y/N."

"The warp core could explode." Scotty said flatly.

McCoy's head snapped towards him. Scotty laughed "It won't but it's a possibility. No one in Engineering compares to Y/N." McCoy rolls his eyes and leaves Scotty smiling at you before following.

You turn to see Jim still sat on the sofa. You walk up to it and sit back down and leaned into him again him wrapping you in his arms and kissing your hair "I'm glad you're ok Y/N."

You smile "Thank you for being here Jim." You smile.

He brings you closer if even possible and you soon fall asleep in his arms.

Thank You for reading :)