"Okay, where do we go to first?" Allison asked, trying to bring up the mood of our small group. "How about there?" she asked, pointing out to a clothing store. I shrugged and plastered a small smile on my face. "Sure," I said, linking arms with my two best friends. "Alright, let's go!" As I tried on clothes, I eventually settled for an outfit that seemed more like me than any of the others. As I tried on more clothes, Allison seemed to keep on getting more worried and eventually, she disappeared and I was alone with Lydia. "Where's Allison?" I asked when I stepped out with yet another outfit and Lydia just shrugged. "She went to the bathroom," she stated as she eyed my clothes. "I like that, what about you?" I stared at my reflection and sighed as I stared at my gaunt body and sharp cheek bones. "Not really," I said and she gave me another outfit. "Try this one," she demanded and I stepped back into the dressing room. I didn't dare show this outfit because it showed my bare belly and my belly was sucked up underneath my ribs from the lack of food. "It doesn't fit," I lied and she huffed. "Fine, anymore clothes you want to try on?" "No," I answered and Lydia sighed. "Okay, I'll go buy this stuff for you. I'll meet you by the front door," she announced and left, leaving me to pull my original clothes back on.
"Where to next?" she asked as we met up and I shrugged. "How about a haircut?" I offered and she shook her head. "No thanks," she said, fluffing up her hair. "I like to do it myself." I let out a giggle and and shook my head. "No, I meant for myself." She smiled and shrugged and muttered, "Sure, if you want to." We went to the hair stylest and waited at least half an hour before I was brought up to get my hair done. "Okay, what would you like?" the stylist asked gently as she pulled a cover up over me. "Can you do my hair like this?" I asked, holding up my phone to show a hair cut. "Except, don't color it light? Maybe you could color the shaved part lighter than my normal hair color?" The lady scrathed her chin and then nodded. "I think I can do that," she put in, eyeing my long, thick black hair. "I'm sorry," I sighed. "If you don't think its possible, its alright." "No no, I can do it. It'll just take a while." I smiled. "I have plenty of time."
About an hour and a half later, my hair was styled just the way I wanted it with black hair on top and the shaved hair a beautiful red color. "You know, that cut is so cute!" Lydia exclaimed as we walked out of the store. "Thanks," I said. "It's lighter than normal." As we continued walking, we almost ran right into Allison who was being followed by Derek and Scott. "Umm, hi," I greeted awkwardly as my friends stared at my new hair. "Jesse," Derek started, pulling himself out of his daze. "Jesse, I need you to tell me what's going on with you." I stared at him before switching my gaze to look at Allison before turning back to the alpha. "What do you mean?" I asked, my heart beating quickly as I tried to figure out what he was talking about.
"Come on, Jesse," he growled. "Don't act stupid. I know what's happening with you and I want to know what we can do to help you." I shook my head. "There's nothing you can do to help me when there's nothing wrong with me." "Dammit Jesse!" Derek growled, pushing himself close to me, his eyes narrowed and angry. "Can't you see? We're trying to help you!" "I don't need your help!" I snarled, shoving him away from me. "Just stay away from me." With that, I turned and took off running, leaving the group behind me as I fled from them, tears running down my eyes. I ran all the way home and then locked the doors and windows behind me to keep them out. I ran upstairs and slammed my door behind me and jumped into the bed, pulling the covers over my head. I heard the doorbell being rung and heard continuous knocking slamming against the door but I just forced myself to ignore the insistent knocking. Finally, they left me alone with my thoughts.