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J.P.O.V.

I feel horrible about today. Nessie came down and, hell she looked hot! I completely forgot about Edward and let my fantasies take me over. The man looked like he was going to kill me, and I totally had no objection at that point. I felt disgusted in myself, I mean Nessie's only 4 years old for Christ sakes. Then again she looks way older than that...hmmmm NO THIS IS NOT RIGHT! MIND STOP THINKING THESE THINGS SHE'S 4!!

Anyway I thought Bella and Edward were going to rip my head off, but then they just stopped. Like they understood and didn't care anymore. Well, I do. I'm not going to love her like this until shes has been around for more then 10 years. Even that's not right, me being in love with a ten year old. But I can't deny that I'm in love with her, I have been sense the day I saw her. But I wont do this now, it's not right. I'm going to have to fight this, which means I'm going to have to fight her. And I honestly don't know if I can do that.

R.P.O.V.

This has to work, it has to. I had just gotten out of the shower and was now carefully drying my hair. I was going to see if Jacob was ready. I was going to do my hair, and wear the nice green spring tube top dress Alice had gotten for me today when she went out shopping.

She probably knew that I was going to want something like this. Aunt Alice always knows. I smiled at that thought. She must approve of what I am doing then. It fit snugly showing off my new found curves. Let's see Jake resist this. I knew that was what he had been doing all day. He didn't look at me when we were talking but I could see him staring occasionally when he thought I couldn't. I got all ready and looked in the mirror again. Oh, god I'm getting just as conceded as Aunt Rose. I was going to have to worry about that later though. I took one last look at myself to make sure everything was in place. Then I practically flew down the stairs.

When I got in the living room where everyone was I saw my father flinching and holding the bridge of his nose. I knew this was either from my appearance or from my thoughts from upstairs and what I was planning to do. Sorry daddy, but you knew this was going to happen sooner or later. When he nodded I threw him an appreciative smile. My mother and he were defiantly going to have problems with this but, so far they seemed okay. If ok means almost killing Jacob earlier.

I noticed at the corner of my eye that Jake was starring at me from the kitchen. I turned to him and gave my sexiest grin I could manage. He quickly looked down and turned his attention to the food Esme had just cooked him.

"Jake, do you want to take a walk with me over to the river." I fluttered my eyelashes like the girls from the movies. At this my Uncles both erupted in laughter. My Aunts and mother gave them a "if looks could kill" stare and my father hissed. Something strange happened to Jacob, he blushed. In all the years I have been alive I have never seen Jake blush at anything, he was never embarrassed.

"Umm, I'm not sure if that's such a good idea Ness, don't you have homework?"

OH, MY GOD HE JUST PULLED THE MOST STUPIDIST EXCUSE OUT OF HIS ASS I HAVE EVER HERD!

"I already did it in class and anyway its Friday I had all weekend to do it." I was already getting annoyed with this hard to get thing he had going for him.

"Ok then, umm sure." He obviously knew what I had cooking.

I turned to the door, when my mother spoke.

"Not to long outside Renesme you still have to sleep you know."

I could see a bitter sweet look on her face. She looked happy for me to be doing this but also there was a hint of sadness in those forever young eyes. I flashed her a crooked grin I had inherited from my father that I knew she loved, and she returned it with her soft tender one.

I went outside to the porch and Jacob soon followed. This is the most awkward thing ever. Then I had idea that might lighten the mood.

"Race you to the river."

"You're on."

And with that he morphed into a giant Russet color wolf that I have known forever and ran off.

"Hey, no fare! Your such a cheater." I called after him and then started to run myself.

We have been racing to the river ever sense I could remember. Even at are house in forks we used to do the same thing. It was just me and Jacobs's thing, when I wasn't as fast he would put me on his back and I would ride on him to there. I laughed at how strange it would be to do that now. I was 5 '11 and way taller than my mother and Alice. I was almost taller then Rosie too. But, I didn't need to anymore. I was fast. Not as fast as my father, but I could defiantly out run most of my family.

When I reached the lake, Jacob was already behind a large tree changing into clothes again. I strange sensation rippled through my body. My mind filled with thoughts that I used to think was icky. Get a hold of yourself! Have some self control.

He returned from the tree and seemed to be more relaxed. Morphing always seems to do that to him. He morphs about everyday to make sure he can stay immortal. So he can be with me. He told me that when he gave me my bracelet for my first Christmas. He said the bracelet means he will always be mine. I defiantly am testing that out tonight.

I meet up with him at the other side of the lake.

"Hey." The nervousness must have come back to him.

'Hey, yourself. So there was something I needed to talk to you about." I bit my lip. This might be a hard conversation to have.

"Yes?"

Then a sudden confidence raged through my body along with the other new found sensation and I couldn't take it anymore.

"Well, you see I don't know how to tell you, so I'm just going to have to show you."

I then lunged on him pressing are lips as tightly together as possible. I slowly traced my tongue around his lips and he returned the favor. I groaned in pleasure and the satisfaction that I won. Then suddenly he pulled a way. Dammit, dammit, dammit!! I wanted to keep kissing him, I wanted him. all of him. I pulled my lips into a pout.

"Nessie, stop you know this isn't right."

"I thought it was seeing how you… oh, I don't know imprinted on me!" He didn't respond and looked down at the floor again. Then a horrible thought struck my mind.

"Is, there someone else?"

"No-"he started before I cut him off.

"Is it my mother? I should have known. I herd my Aunts talking about how you had a thing for her when she was human. How dare you still love her! She loves only my father and I love only you! Cant you just be happy for them and be happy to have me!"

Tears ran down my cheeks probably ruining the makeup I had put on earlier but I didn't care. I felt like dying because I knew it was the truth. Jake had loved my mother and had tried to come between her and my father before. I don't think you can just stop loving someone just because they turned a little colder and smelt too sweet for your nose.

Jake lifted my chin up making me look into his eyes. He dried my tears with his thumb and then dried his own face. I can't believe he's crying.

"Nessie, that's not true. Yes, I did love your mother but not as much as care for you. I'm happy for your parents and I love you. "

Did he just say he loves me? I was filled with a mixture of excitement and rage.

"Then what is it? If you love me then why is it not right for us to be together?"

He looked down at the floor when he answered. Too ashamed to look at me when he spoke.

"Ness, your only 4 years old."

If I were in one of those cheep cartoons I would have steam coming out of my ears.

"So, I look older then four, I'm smarter then a four year old! Why does my age make a difference? We are supposed to be together!"

"That doesn't matter how old you look, you're still too young!"

Tears flooded around me, making it hard to see.

"So, what am I supposed to do? Hide my feelings until I'm actually 16?"

When he nodded I was about to rip his head off right then and there! Why was he doing this to me! He knew I loved him and I knew he loved me! We can't just hide that for 12 years!

"Jacob Black, I am not waiting for you! I hate that you're doing this to me! I hate you!!"

The last word rang out like venom. I ran off, leaving him starring back at me. When I got to the house I ignored the "its ok" from my family, went in my room and locked the door. That didn't matter if someone wanted to talk to me in my family they could break the lock. But I knew they wouldn't. That night I cried more then I ever thought possible. 12 years is to long.

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"AND SO THE LION FELL IN LOVE WITH THE LAMB"

KAYLIN