Chapter 4: Ghosts of the Past.

City Of Demons

I do not own anything of Cassandra Clare or any of the characters mentioned in this fan-fiction from the Mortal Instruments. The only things I own are the plot, actions and speech.

Clary's Point of View.

I awoke in Jace's arms for the first night in a while without having a nightmare, I haven't seen Simon in a couple of weeks I know that everyone one is worried about how I'm dealing with everything. I had felt guilty knowing that Jace has been out of his mind with worry for me but I just can't bring myself to move past this. Everyone must think I'm going insane but I just know this has something to do with Sebastian. Yes I know that he is dead and that sounds completely unbelievable but I just knew it is him. Jace says he believes me and I think that he wants to but he can't bring himself to he just doesn't want that to be true he know what it would mean. We all do.

Just as I thought this Jace began to stir next to me, groaning slightly as he pulls himself out of sleep, flexing his sculpted muscles, making them roll underneath his golden skin. It makes me want him to hold and touch me as he has done before. However he has barley touched me since the attack as he thinks that I am too mentally unstable to cope with such an activity and part of me has to agree with him. After my reoccurring Sebaceous astian dreams I'm not sure I could have had him so close to me in that way. But the way he looks right now isn't this moment so peaceful makes me want him more, that and the lack of nightmares have made me wake in a good mood today. I lean over and gently kiss him in the lips, it's only a chaste kiss but it gets his attention and he comes out of sleep quicker responding to me. Sliding his tong across my lips asking for entrance, I gladly grant him access and move my arms up around his neck. He pulls me closer to his boy wrapping is strong arms around me holding me tight making me feel safe.

Thats when I feel it a twisting in my stomach, knots forming and I leap from the bed and run into the adjoined bathroom, falling to my knees at the toilet and emptying the contents of my stonmach. Jace seems a little shocked at first not responding quickly to my running away. Then before I know it he is beside me think circles on my back holding my hair back out of the way. When I am finished he raises and grabs a glass from the side of the sink and fills it with water and gently places it in my hands. I sit shaking slightly on the bathroom floor as I sip the water. Only when the glass is completely empty does Jace say anything. "Clary are you alright? Are you sick?" I think about it for a moment I don't really feel sick apart from when I was throwing up only a moment ago. The stress is really starting to get to me I knew I felt nauseous after every nightmare but I have never been made physically sick because of them.

"No I feel fine now, it's probably just something I are" tell him because it is probably the truth, he looks at me sceptically before deciding that I am telling the truth. He catches my hands in his and pulls me to my feet, at first I still feel kind of Ricky but it soon passes. Jace seems to realise this and he places a hand in the small of my back still holing my other in his and guides me out of the bathroom and back onto the bed. I sit down and he sits beside me and I rest my head in his. He cradles my body until I relax and stop shaking. Rubbing his hand up and down my back in a soothing motion.

Afters a while we have both settled down and out breathing has become more relaxed. I let my mind wander a bit but not about all of the horrible things in the world but about the people I care about. Alec, Magnus, Izzy, Simon and Jace, all the people who have been with me through everything. That's when I realise since everything has been happening I have cast them aside, being caught up in my own world I have barely even left Jace's room for the past couple of weeks. Even then it's usually just to go and find Jace and return to my room.

That's when I decide I want to get out of my own little world and rejoin everybody else because even if something is going to happen I have to be ready for it not like the last time I was attacked. Laying in bed all day isI'm back now bitches :) anyways not going to keep me prepared.

"Jace, where are the others?" Jace seemed a little surprised I d spoken at all, and took a few seconds to answer. "I'm not sure but if probably say in the library at this time of day" he eventually says with a look over at the clock. After he replies I walk over to the wardrobe and pick out some clothes and move to the bathroom to put them on. When I take off my old clothes I look at my body and see just how much it has been affected by my depression like period. My face is sunken and my eyes are rimmed with dark unforgiving circles. My body looks even smaller and more child like than ever before any curves I had gained since training with the others has since been lost though my lack of eating. Deciding I didn't want to look at myself any longer I pulled in one of Jace's shirts and a pair of jeans and some converse. Not an outfit Izzy would be impressed with but the relaxed nature of it hides my unhealthy body somewhat and I don't want to worry everybody anymore than I already have.

When I walk back into the bedroom Jace is already dressed and sat on the bed when I walk in he looks up at me with worry and pain in his eyes. I walk over to him and take his hand pulling him over to the door after me. Then we both walk hand in hand over to the library. When we arrive no one is there yet but we know that they will be coming by soon so we decide to wait.

"So" Jace says as I looks over some of the books on the selves making me jump a little from the change in silence. " What's with the change of heart today?", in all honesty I'm not really sure I just woke up today and felt that is was going to be a good day maybe even a day of answers and that I needed to be here for that and when I tell him this he just nods and smiles at me obviously glad that I'm doing something other than just sleeping.

At that moment all of the others walked in they must have had a late breakfast together they all stop dead in their tracks when they see me and they conversations become silent. I decided to break the silence but didn't know how so I just said "umm... Hi guys" at first nobody moved and I thought that they might be angry with me because I just disappeared from them, I look down at my feet ashamed.

Until, suddenly I am almost knocked to the floor by a blur of long black hair. Izzy. I hadn't even heard her moving towards me but a quickly react and move my arms around her hugging her back. "Oh thank the Angel" muttered "Clary I thought we lost you" I feel even more ashamed when she says this and have nothing else to say apart from "I'm sorry". That's when she pulls back holing me by the shoulders and looking me dead in the eyes. "You have nothing to be sorry for Clary, don't ever say your sorry, not for this. But you can start by apologising for that outfit. It's a sad day when you resort to wearing Jace's clothes". At that I laugh and here Jace laugh to, that beautiful sound of his laugh that I haven't heard in so long, all because of me.

"Hey I happen to like the way I dress thank you very much" Jace quips back in his sarcastic voice. "Yes but Jace my modest shadow hunter nobody else really cares how you dress how could they notice you next to my magnificence" retorts none other than Magnus, as he holds his arm around Alec's waist.

Jace just pouts at how he was quickly diminished and I smile looking over the scene. I've missed this so much how could I have ever left these people behind my friends, my family.

It's gone silent again until I realise everyone is looking between me and Jace wandering what they should say. Then I realise the other reason I wanted to specifically come to the library other than to see everyone. And that's when I start to search for the book.

Even though I hadn't had a nightmare last night that didn't mean I hadn't had a dream I almost always dream and last night was no exception. But it was an unusual dream there was no sound or people in my dream, just a symbol, black against a shimmering gold background. A rune. Normally when I see a new rune or create one I can see what it means but with this one I had no idea. So I thought before I tried it out I needed to check in the grey book if it was a rune already known to shadow hunters. When I found what I was looking for I grabbed a hold of it and rushed over to the closest table and started to check through the book thoroughly. Until I reached the end and still hadn't found it at which point I checked again. Now certain that the new rune wasn't in the grey book I looked around for some paper and a pencil and started to draw. By This point I had noticed that the others had gathered around the table I was currently working at and watched me draw. When I had done I held up what I had drawn for them all to see. "Do any of you know what this means" I asked wanting to know if anyone could read the rune but they all just stared blankly at it my understanding what it could mean. I felt I little crestfallen usually between all of us we would be able to figure out what a rune meant.

Just then Jace pulled out his stele and started to draw on his forearm and before anyone could stop him and just as I had hit the stele out of his hand he was done. Then there was silence other than the sound of the stele clattering to the floor a sound that echoed and bounced of the library walls. We all just stared at Jace. "I don't really feel any different" is all he said. We all let out a sigh of relief. "Don't ever do that again" I said as I rushed into his arms "that could've killed you".

It's quiet for a moment as everyone watches us then Alec speaks up for the first time since they arrived "she's right you know Jace you can't just rush into these things without thinking, you have people who need you people who live you, you need to start thinking about what it would do to them if you were killed". Giving a specific wave of his hand to me as a means to make his point.

Jace responds by saying "well we know that the rune doesn't work on people now any way, any I it had killed me then you would have still known what the rune had did and not tried it on any of yourselves out of curiosity".

Alec looks a little angry now "yeah and what do you think that would have done to Clary that she made and showed you a rune that killed you, it's not just you against the world anymore Jace we are a family and we have to start acting like one". Jace just looks at me and runs his fingers through my hair as my head still lays on his chest. "I know your right I'm sorry" all the while still looking at me.

That's when Simon starts to speak "wow did Jace actually just apologise, I think we need a moment to thank the Angel right now and remember this moment" he says a little too dramatically to try and lighten the mood. It works everyone seems a little more relaxed.

That's when the questions start. "Where did you see the rune Clary?" it was Magnus who asked he seemed genuinely curious and a little concerned when he looked at me. "In a dream, it's strange usually I only see them when I'm desperate or in times of need or I can at least tell what they are meant for. But with this nothing, I just know that it's important". I'm starting to get a little frustrated with my oh so reliable gift (sarcasm overload). And I sit at the table holding the paper in my hands looking at it with so much concentration my eyes begin to hurt and still... Nothing.

It's Jace who finally take the paper out of my hands sensing that if someone doesn't then I will just sit here for hours or even days until I can figure it out and that would be no help to us at all.

"I just can't help but think it has something to do with finding out why those demons were sent to attack me" I said quietly. No one seems to know what to say to that since I haven't really talked about the attack since it happened and no one has really asked much.

It was Izzy who spoke "what do you mean sent to attack, we just assumed they smelled your shadow hunter blood and gathered together to hunt you down".

I had just assumed they knew as much as I did I know this was stupid considering they really had no other way of knowing this unless I had told them but my mind was a little preoccupied for a while. "They didn't come to the house to attack me they were already waiting for me there, they kept saying my name-" Jace interrupted "-which name?" I knew exactly what he meant but Simon bet me to it "what do mean which name you moron her name she just said that" before Simon could carry on his rant I replied to Jace "Morgenstern they used Morgenstern". Jace looked at me with a sad face only he could keno that this truly meant something bad. "Carry on Clare" he said. I continued "they said it's coming, that I was the reason their master had fallen to begin with and now that he has returned to them I must pay for what I had done".

I hadn't yet voiced this what had happened after I had screamed spent the phone to Jace before he had come to save me. I didn't want to actually believe it happened, but I have seen the attacks often enough in my nightmares to know exactly what had happened like it had only happened yesterday.

"That could only be..." Alec trailed of, probably not wanting to finish his sentence because that makes it all too real if he does. But I do it for him. "Sebastian".

Thanks for reading. Anyways if you have any ideas I would love to hear them I always want to know where you would like this story to go. Please review guys I always want to know what you think sorry for any mistake had to write this chapter on my phone which I hate doing but my laptop completely died and I haven't had time to get a new one love you all. Kisses xxxxxxxx