CHAPTER FOUR – I NEVER

(KAT'S POV)

Today I have spent most of the day running about on a wild goose chase only without the goose after getting bad Intel from an informant. Later on in the day we figured out that the case was all drug related so I called an informant who has some vital information but it is going to be a couple of days before he can get back to us so right know it is a bit of a waiting game. The only problem is that when I was under cover with narcotics I rolled with this gang and the can, they are pretty nasty bugers and there is also the possibility that we might run into Jarrod Veronica's father.

There is a strong possibility that my past is going to be revealed to everyone, a past that I am most defiantly not proud of. I did something that I had to do undercover in order for me to stay that way and I am most defiantly not proud of half of the things that I did and then there is the fact the one of the leaders grew up beside me in Kensington and knows my whole entire past all because we were best friends which is an a little advantage if you like because when I was undercover with acting as part of the gang he had nothing to with them since he was running with a different gang at the time.

About the case it's a twenty two year old girl named Ashley. She was killed out the back of an old house in 1998 and back then they police ha d lo leads but a kid that was playing out there on his bike waiting for his friends to arrive found her backpack with a diary in it which had a section in it about having bother with one of the gang member because she stole a couple of bags of blow (cocaine) not a very smart move. Why anyone would think about doing that is beyond me that is a one way ticket to getting killed.

We spent most of the day trying to find people who knew Ashley so that we had a background on her but not a lot of people did know her and the people that did said that she was a very secretive person and kept things to herself which is absolutely no help to us what so ver. We tried to find the people that she hung about with at school but couldn't find any of her class mates which were kind of weird. Finally we tried to find her family but the only thing they told us was that as soon as Ashley turned 16 she moved out and they never saw her again then in 1998 they were told that she was dead and that was it. Really today has been a complete waste of our time chasing the goose that wouldn't give us a golden egg or eggs at all.

When we are all back in the precinct Will orders Chinese for us all and since it is a Friday night and veronica is staying with a friend having a sleep over I don't have to be home tonight so I can stay as late as I like and an added bonus Lilly and I will get the house to ourselves so if we decide to engage in any adult circular activities then we don't have to worry about being quiet or her forgetting the door rule and walking in on us. Don't get me wrong I love Veronica more than life and I would do anything in the world for her but sometimes knowing there is a kid in the house and that they can hear you is a little off putting sometimes but it would be worse if she was right next door to me instead of across the hall from me. The one thing we won't be doing is unpacking boxes thank god for that. Three weeks ago Lilly moved in with Veronica and I and it has taken three weeks to unpack all of the boxes that have been sitting in one of the three bedrooms.

"Anybody got anything planned for the night?" Jeffries asked sitting in his chair at the table in the kitchenette.

"Toney's kid had a basketball game later tonight that I promised I would go to" Will replies smiling at the fact he actually has plans for a change.

"Wow things are getting serious then you know ever sink Frank Sinatra" Scotty remarked mocking Will making us all snigger.

"What about you Jeffries got anything planned?" Will replied changing the subject with a sour face.

"I have a dance recital to go to" He replied taking a sip of his soda as Will scrunched up his face then laughed.

"Yeah like any of us can actually dance like the pros" Scotty remarked with a grin sure Will has some move sin him but they aint no ball room dancing moves.

"Kat can, even had the chance to go pro as well and applied for Julliard and got in for dance and music" Lilly said with a smile giving them all ammunition for teasing me with.

"Lilly" I said turning to face her mortified.

"What I didn't know you haven't told them, you told me" She replied with a smile. I am so gonna get her for this later.

"You got into Juilliard, what for?" Will piped up.

"Dance, music and singing but I only applied I never went. I grew up in Kingston there was no way in hell my folks could raise that kind of money and I never wanted to do it. My father was the one who forced me into dancing lessons. I quite when I was 15" I said looking at them who all had smirks on their faces.

"What about you Lil, got any plans for the night?" Boss asks turning all the attention to her which I am more than thankful for.

"Spending the night in with the girlfriend" She smiles making me almost smile.

After we have all finished eating Lilly and I decide to call it a night while the boys stayed drinking beer. When we got to the car park and were both standing beside our cars that were parked beside one another's Lilly Looks around to make sure that no one was there before she leaned in and kissed me with a smile taking me completely by surprise before I kissed her back.

"See you at home buttons" Lilly said opening her car door as she began to get in it.

"What is with calling me buttons?" I ask wanting to know the meaning behind the nick name that she has given me.

"You have a button noise and its cute hence the name buttons" she says grinning before getting in her car and driving off.

My noise is not button and I am not cute I thought scrunching my face up as I got in my car before belting up and driving off home. I pull up in the drive way in front of the garage not bothering to park it in there since you never know when we're going to get called out for another case. Anyway I get out the car and meet Lilly walking up the garden path before I open the front door stopping to take the mail in with me.

Thumbing through mail I decide that it's nothing important I place it on the side table along with my house keys and place my bag at the side of the side table along with my shoes as Lilly comes in behind me shutting the door behind her. She follows my actions by placing her bag and shoes by mine then hangs up her jacket behind the door on the wall beside mine as I turn to leave but she snakes her arms around my waist pulling me back then pining me against the wall placing one hand flat on the wall by my head and the other flat on the wall by my hip with a very sexy smile on her face making me just want to take her there and then.

Smiling I place my hands on her hips and pull her closer so that her hips are against mine while looking into her eyes before she leans in and kisses me softly but passionate at the same time. I hear her moan into the kiss as I slide my hands from her waist around to her lower back then down to her ass squeezing pulling her closer to me if that is even humanly possible which it was how I have o idea what so ever.

"Let's play a game?" Lilly suggests with a sly smile that is making me tingle all over.

"Like what?" I ask interested at her suggestion.

"I don't know I never thought that far ahead" Lilly admitted tilting her head to the side trying to think of a game.

"Alright how about adult never ever?" suggested with a slight dirty smile at the thought of playing the game with my blond bombshell girlfriend.

"Never played it so I'll run with it" she smirked.

"You might regret that in the morning" I add as she pushes herself off the wall.

I take her hand and pull her into the living room sitting her down on the couch then I make my way into the kitchen where I grab two shot glasses and a bottle of Tequila that hasn't been open since I don't like drinking around Veronica and if I do it is nothing stronger than beer but I am not going to tell you why just quiet yet, maybe in the future but at some point I am going to have to tell Lilly. With the two glasses and bottle of Tequila in hand I make my way back through to the living room and sit next to Lilly facing her with one foot tucked under me as I place the items on the coffee table.

"So how do we play this?" Lilly questions leaning against the arm of the chair facing me.

"Simple you say something that you haven't done it and if the other people playing the game have done it have to drink their shot and take off an item of clothing and the first person naked loses the game" I say with a shit eating grin on my face pouring the first shots.

"Alright sounds fun, who starts?" she questions sitting up straight ready to play the game.

"It's was your idea to play a game so you can" I respond hitting the ball into her court free for her to play with. She tilts her head again deliberating what her first I never is going to be.

"I have never ever been that drunk that I have woken up somewhere and not known where i was" Lilly say. Damn she has me there so I pick my shot glass and down the liquid with a small wince before I remove the sweater that I had on top of white shirt the drop it to the floor by the couch as she looks at with a smile that is slightly lopsided.

"I have never ever driven a motorbike" I say then Lilly downs her shot refills her glass and takes off her suit jacket that she never had a chance to take off when we got in or after that for that matter then places it on the back of the couch.

"Never ever have I danced on top of a table?" she said. God damn it she is good at this game for never having played it before. I unbutton my shirt slowly revealing my white lace bra as I watch Lilly bit her bottom lip as her pupils dilate a little and turn from their baby blue color to a deep ocean blue color, very, very sexy. I did mention well I meant to that I have a past something's I did when I was undercover for the simple fact I did what I had to do so that they wouldn't think that I was a cop and the others I did when I was a teenager and I aint proud of most of it.

"Never ever have I managed to embarrass my girlfriend in front of her friends by telling them that I could of gone pro with my dancing" I said giving her a known smile as Lilly gives a hearty laugh. She unbuttoned her blue shirt slower that I did causing me to bite my bottom lip. I'm pretty sure she is trying to kill me very slowly.

We're sitting here on the couch in our pants and bra's with the bottle of Tequila that was newly opened today but now is nearly finished no thanks to us by taking shots while the other one is speaking in-between turns. This in turn means that tomorrow morning we are going to be feeling the effects alcohol that we have consumed today so hopefully we won't get called in our luck we will.

I put my shot glass down on the coffee table and pour the last of the liquor in the glass then I pass one to Lilly before we drink them in one. Once Lilly had drank hers I take her shot glass and place it back on the table along with mine then I turn to face her with a smile on my face but not like my shit eating grin that I had on or like the one when Lilly had me pressed up against the wall in the hall way. I lean over so that I am on fours on the couch before I crawl over to Lilly pushing her down gently so that she is now lying on the couch with me between legs and my hands at either side of her head flat against the couch then I lean in and kiss her gently and sweetly.

She places her arms around my neck and her hands on the back of my head so that her hands are in my hair. Lilly then leans up and kisses me gently and sweetly before she runs her hands down the back of my head threw my hair down the side then she stops so that she is cupping my check and runs her thumb across my check not once leaving my eyes, no Lilly kept eye contact with me the whole time not once leaving my eyes.

"I love you" Lilly said with a smile still holding my gaze taking me completely by surprise at her three little words that she had just confessed.

"You do?" I ask smiling back surprised.

"I do"

"I love you too" I respond before I lean in and kiss her.

Getting up off Lilly so that I am on my feet I hold my hand out for Lilly which she takes then I turn the lights off knowing that the doors are already locked and lead her up the stairs to out bedroom. After we make love we lie in each other's arms listening to one another's heartbeat in the dead silence as our breathing begins to even out.

"Good night Kat. I love you" Lilly mumbled into my chest sleepily.

"I love you too" I respond kissing the top of her head as sleep over takes us.