A/N I'm working on writing longer chapters, I'll eventually get it ;) Reviews? :) Thanks to the people that already did! :)

In all his years, Elijah had never know such a feeling of confusion. He was doubting everything he ever knew about himself. He was a monster trying keep what shred of humanity he had left, but being his harshest critic thought he failed at every point. Of course Elena knew better than that. Elijah was more compassionate and loving than anyone else she had ever met. He might have been an emotional vampire, but he was so good at hiding it.

But seeing Elena after that night 18 years ago, he was starting to crack just a little bit.

How could he have gotten her pregnant? He was a vampire. Vampires weren't supposed to be able to pro-create. Twilight was a stupid fairytale, this was not one.

Elijah spent the rest of the night brooding, certainly giving Stefan Salvatore a run for his money. He could not take his eyes off Elena or their daughter. She looked like him, though other people would not pick it unless they were told. Most people would not believe it. He finally got up and headed to the bar where other Salvatore was drinking himself away.

"You do know this the party of a 16 year old child" Elijah reminded Damon, even though he ordered a bourbon right afterwards.

"Oh go get stabbed again" He retorted. Damon usually did better than that.

"For lack of better words, what's eating you?"

"Elena is back, nothing has changed. But considering she has a seventeen year old daughter it's safe to say she moved straight away. Not that you care...Oh wait you do! You're just as much as in love with her as I am!" Damon was a little more than drunk. Elijah sighed walked away from him. He was not in the mood for a moaning session from Damon. The Salvatores brothers were pathetic when it came to the Petrova dopplegangers. Not that he was any better. Once he had feelings for Katerina which faded fast, he believed it wasn't love in the first place.

But with Elena Gilbert...She was so beautiful in a right of her own. Not just looks, yes of course she was stunning. But she was compassionate, loving, loyal and brave. That was only the start of course. But he was Elijah Mikaelson. He would never that he was going soft for this girl. One that his brother would kill if he saw the need.

"Excuse me,"

Eljiah turned and saw the girl standing there. This was all just too much.

"Yes?"

"You were talking to my mom earlier and I don't know what you said, but she's agreed to stay on longer. I just wanted to thank you." She sounded so sure of herself, she was definetly a Mikaelson.

"It wasn't any fault of mine, if you'll excuse me I have somewhere to be"

The girl just nodded, walking off smiling to join Elena. Elijah caught Elena's eye before he left. They would meet again soon enough, he had much to discuss with her.

…

Elena stood in the Jeremy and Bonnie's kitchen washing up with her daughter. Bella's curiousity was slowly getting the better of her. She wanted to know who the stranger was her mother was talking to the other night. She could tell that there was history, she wasn't stupid. But her mother seemed uneasy after seeing him. Bella did not want trouble.

Finally though she couln't hold the questions any longer.

"Who was he?"

Elena pretended she didn't know who she was talking about.

"Who?"

"The guy were talking to outside the grill, you did know him." Bella quipped back.

"So maybe I knew him, that doesn't mean we're going to talk about it Bella." Elena caught herself in the reflection of the window. It was still hard to believe that she wasn't ageing anymore. She just couldn't get used it.

"Is he my..."

"No"

Elena cut that cord before it could grow anymore. Of course Bella was curious about her father. But Elena couldn't have her getting involved with any of the Originals. It was just too dangerous. After all of these she finally knew how John and Isobel felt about Stefan. She wouldn't want her daughter anywhere near a vampire other than herself. That's not to say Elena wasn't a danger. She still had to mind herself.

Bella went off in a huff to join the others in the lounge watching TV. Bonnie came in and joined Elena shortly after.

"Are you alright?" Bonnie asked, wrapping one arm around her friends shoulder.

"Bella is curious about her dad, I should have known this would happen" Elena grumbled and complained. But this was no use, it was her fault for keeping Bella in the dark.

"And she'll never get over it so you might as well tell her and me for that matter" Bonnie added, laughing awkwardly at the end of her sentence.

"I can't though, then all of this protecting I did would be for nothing" Elena replied.

"This guy can't be that bad!"

Elena did not give up her answers. She needed to speak with Elijah first. He hadn't called in on them yet so she was safe to leave it for now. Though it was only a matter of time before he showed up.

…

Caroline Forbes and Niklaus Mikaelson. They were the most unlikely pair. Yet with all of her fiery passion and his tendency to not stop until someone says no...They fell in love. Caroline saw the side of Nik (as she called him) that no one else did. Not even his siblings.

But Caroline missed her best friends. She needed them back in her life and was determined to make that happen. They used to having girl nights out all of the time, why would 18 years apart change all of that?

She called them both to tell them that she was coming over and there was nothing they could do about. She was bringing nail kits, faces masks (though never ageing helped her and Elena quite a bit) and lots of booze. A pang of jealousy hit her when Elena and Bonnie reminded her that they had children there. Sure, Elena was a vampire and she'd never grow old. But she a child before she turned. She at least got to something to do with growing up.

Nevertheless, Caroline was determined to push that behind her and enjoy the night. She had bought Bella and Miranda a multitude of DVDs and junk food if they would stay in their rooms for the whole night. That and one alcoholic drink each. Teenagers drove a hard bargain and she remembered exactly what she was like back then.

She finally arrived at Bonnie's front door with her best grin on her face. Bonnie and Elena couldn't help but smile back, Caroline's smile could do that to anyone. An original vampire fell in love with her for starters!

"I brought bourbon! Blame the Salvatore brothers for that one, they got me drinking the stuff" Caroline told them.

"I am not complaining" Elena grumbled, pouring herself a drink straight away.

"Elijah issues" Bonnie added, earning a swipe from Elena. Caroline stood there confused.

"You and Elijah?"

"No, maybe...once. It was never meant to be" Elena answered her question, clearly not wanting to talk any further on the subject. But this was Caroline and Bonnie she was talking about, they would never let get away with it.

"I could kind of see it, the way he looked at you..."

"The same way he looked at Katherine and Tatia" Elena finished Caroline who looked a little dejected.

"Oh come on, that's not it and you know it! You are neither of those woman!" Bonnie exclaimed.

"But it's not meant to be, can we just leave it?" Elena asked them both. All she got was a flat out no. So she poured another drink, downed that one and then poured another. If she was going to talk about Elijah then she plan on getting very, very drunk.

"He's back in town, maybe you could see what's going on between the two of you" Caroline suggested.

"He wants to talk, just not about..."

Elena was saved by the cliché of Bella walking down the stairs and knocking on the door. She walked in right after knocking, without waiting for an answer. Bonnie told her to treat this as her own home and much to Bonnie's delight she was doing just that.

"I just came to get some cans of Dr Pepper" She said, slipping between all to the fridge. Pulling out about 6 cans. Bonnie had stocked up since she now had 2 teenage girls living in the house.

"How are the movies sweetheart?" Elena asked her daughter.

"Great and thanks for getting The Breakfast Club Caroline, it's my favourite" She said, smiling sweetly and then turning away to walk back up the stairs.

"So where is Jeremy tonight?" Caroline asked, deciding to be nice and change the subject for her friend. Caroline despite being slightly crazy and neurotic was very soft-hearted for a vampire. Elena breathed a sigh of relief.

"At the grill with Stefan and Damon, those three became very unlikely friends" Bonnie said, she was a little weirded out by that fact, but at least they could protect her husband against most things.

"Stefan and Damon aren't so bad, well, maybe Damon can go crawl in a whole. But Stefan is lovely!" Caroline said. Elena didn't even blink an eyelid. She didn't blame Caroline for her dislike of Damon Salvatore. He was not an easy person to like.

Yes, Elena had once been in love with him...but not enough.

The three of them fell asleep late at night on the fold-out couch together. Elena's mind drifting back to when she had invited Elijah in...

He was too much of a gentleman, Elena thought. She was very eager to be rid of her clothes and finally know what it felt like to be with Elijah. Her feelings for him had been slowly creeping up on her, slowly taking over and she didn't even know it.

"We're not in a race Elena, let me treat you like a woman. You deserved to be worshipped like the goddess that you are" His brown eyes circled her own and drove her crazy. When he said those words Elena felt like she would finish then and there.

But Elijah had other plans.

He picked her up bridal style and carried her back to the bed. Before he joined her he took off his suit jacket and shirt, glad to be rid of the thing for once. Seeing Elijah like this made Elena go even more crazy. She dug her nails into his back and pulled him down, desparate for some friction. It was also so great to know that this was effecting Elijah just as much as it was effecting her. He let out a loud groan when she pushed her hips up towards his.

"You are making it impossible for me to take this slowly" He mumbled, kissing all the way down her neck. He then sat up and just ripped Elena's shirt off, tearing it to shreds. He needed more so he pulled off the bra too. She was too beautiful even for her own good. Elijah cupped one breast with one hand and kissing the other. Elena's mind hit a complete blur when he started sucking on her nipples. Though she regained enough of her senses to reached down and start palming Elijah through his pants. He growled this time, but she only felt him grow bigger in her hands.

Screw it, Elijah thought. He swiftly ripped off her jeans and his pants, the underwear went very soon after. He positioned himself right at her entrance and...

"ELENA!"

She sat up right and realized that Caroline was staring at her with eyes, looking slightly disgusted.

"You were dry humping my leg!" She exclaimed.
"Shhh!"

"Sorry, but that is just wrong"

"Whatever, I need to pee"

"No you need to get off and not do that on my leg again" Caroline replied. Elena sighed and got up, walking straight to bathroom. She splashed cold water in her face trying to get those images out of her mind. It was the best night of her life, no doubt about that.

Was it wrong to still want him amongst everything that was going on?