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Chapter 4

Act 1

1999/2000: It was new years; Janis was helping her mother to create the New Year's party she made for the club every year. "Janis, good to see you helping me with the cooking" Gemma said, the girl was trying her best to do an chocolate pie, she tried to do other things, but nothing worked, she was learning to cook so she decided to do the thing that was easiest for her. "Everyone will love your pie baby" Gemma said to her, kissing her hair. "Principally a blond guy" she added, making Janis blush and laugh nervously.

"I hope everyone likes my cook, having yours and Elvis' to compete with, it's hard!" Janis said, making her mother laugh. "I'll never be as good as you two" she added, with a hint of disappointment in her voice, she always thought cooking was easy, she now knows it's not.

"They will sweetheart." Her mother said, looking in her watch, it was already 6pm. "Now hurry, go take your bath and get ready, everybody is coming at 7" she said, Janis nodded to her mom and run to the bathroom. Gemma finished the cook when Clay arrived, "Hello baby" she said to her old man, giving him a kiss. "Everything is ready for our party" she said, as he looked inside the pans, everything looked delicious. "Who is coming?" she asked then, to make sure Kozik would come, she was going to try to make his New Year kiss, Janis.

"Bobby and Precious, Tig, Wendy and Jax, Opie and Donna, Piney are coming; and Kozik, if he remembers." Clay said, he didn't know about what Kozik talked to Gemma, if he knew, he would probably never let Kozik go anywhere near Janis. Herman was getting even worse in his addiction, Clay saw him using in the clubhouse, he gave the blond a warning, if he saw him doing that again he was going to be excommunicated. "I don't like that Kozik is getting closer to Janis. I think I'll have to end this." He said then, he was just trying to protect his baby girl.

Gemma looked nervously at him. Janis would hate that, she talked to her mom too, saying she didn't knew what she was feeling, but something really weird was happening to her, all she could think was Kozik, every day, all day. Gemma told her what she was feeling was normal; she was in love with him. Janis first fought the idea, saying all she had towards him was friendship nothing would ever happen. Gemma knew that wasn't true.

"I'll get ready for our guests" he said, sometimes he got annoyed with Gemma's traditions, but he knew, as queen, it was her job. "Everything looks beautiful, babe" he said to her, kissing her forehead, Gemma smiled at her husband as he went away.

Janis was at her room; it was white with a purple wall; her dresser was a mess, with cds and movies everywhere. Her mother always called her a movie geek, she had everything since 1910. She was dressed with a black plaid dress and high heels, something she never wore. She got out of the bedroom, straight to the kitchen, to see if her pie was ready.

She crouched to see if her cook was ready, when she heard someone behind her. "Doll, you look beautiful!" it was Tig. She thanked him. "Kozik is in the living room, he said he wanted to talk to you after the party" he said, he knew something was going on with his friend, he just didn't know what, and hoped he didn't want to have anything with Janis, Clay would flip if anything happened.

"Thanks Tiggy, I'll go talk to him now, he knows how curious I am!" she said, looking inside the oven, while Tig looked at her, amazed on how she changed in a year, she was wearing dresses, her hair grew, wearing heels and cooking, she was becoming a woman, he then thought about his babies, they were almost the same age as Janis, he wondered if they looked like this. "Luann, can you take care of my pie for me?" she asked Otto's wife, she nodded happily and said Janis was beautiful. "Thanks! Let me talk with that guy now" she said, leaving Tig and Luann at the kitchen while the others arrived. "You wanted to talk to me?" she asked Kozik, sitting in the chair next to his and taking a smoke to her.

Kozik looked even more beautiful than always, he was wearing a black pants, black boots his cut and a white shirt, which showed his muscles even more. "Doll, I said I wanted to talk to you after the parties, and since when you smoke!" he said to her, as she lit the cigarette.

"You know how curious I am and you ask me to wait until the end of the night?! You don't know me at all?" she asked him, he thought she looked so sexy smoking, but she was 15 years old, she shouldn't be smoking. He decided he was going to tell her, he was in love with her. He didn't know how she would react, so he called her to the garage, where they would be alone. "What do you want? I'm getting nervous" she said, her heart was beating fast; she wanted to jump in his huge arms and kiss him.

"I… I…" he couldn't say, was nervous. "I've been fighting with something for a while now" he started, to encourage him, she held his hands tight. "I love you, Janis" he said, she immediately led his hands go.

Janis loved Kozik too, she knew that, but she couldn't be with him, she wasn't ready, she couldn't get in a relationship that would require sex from her. "I love you too, Lemon" she said, knowing what he meant but acting like she didn't. He then looked deep inside her innocent blue eyes and put his hands on her cheek, he was going to kiss her. "Kozik. Stop." She said, not wanting but she had to. "I'm too young…" she said. Tears forming in her eyes as she looked up. Not saying anything else.

"You don't want this?" he asked her. She shook her head, hurting too much inside her, but she had to do it, if her dad found out about this, he would probably kill Kozik. "Its ok baby, I understand" he said, he was hurt and angry. Why did he do this, to hurt the girl? She was crying, so he held her tight. "Don't cry baby, not because of me!" he said, but she wasn't crying because of him, she was crying because he made her dream come true, but she had to say no.

"Please, don't hate me" she said, he laughed, saying he just said he loved her, he would never hate her. "I love you too, as friends, ok?" she said, he nodded, kissing her hair. "Now my makeup is ruined!" she said laughing as they entered the house from the back door, so she could go to the bathroom fix the mess that became her face.

Janis fixed her makeup, leaving the bathroom and going to the living room, where everyone was gathered, laughing and drinking. Even Lisa and her parents came to Gemma's New Year. She sat beside her best friend, and said later she needed to talk to her. Lisa nodded her head, knowing something was hurting her best friend. "What's wrong?" she asked a few minutes later, when they went to Janis bedroom and she told Lizzie about everything. "Doll, why didn't you give in?!" she asked, Janis replied she wasn't ready for that kind of relationship. "Then you did well, there are many things I don't know, but take this advice from me. Only do what you are ready for, and don't be hurt for that, Janis, he loves you, he'll wait for you, don't worry" she said, holding Janis tight, as she cried again.

"I didn't want to say no, I'm just afraid of what my dad might do" she then confessed. "That's my biggest fear!" she said, almost screaming, Lisa held her close again, Janis letting her tears go away. When Gemma knocked on the door, asking them to come, dinner will be served.

They got out, Janis knew well how to mask her feelings, and she learned that from the best, Gemma, but her mom knew something was wrong with her baby girl. They dined, everyone happy, laughing, even Janis, laughing at Jackson's jokes and Tig's weird comments. She then brought her pie, giving the first piece to her Dad and the second to Tig. They all ate; Tig said it was delicious, followed by a similar comment by everyone. The only one quiet was Kozik, but then he got closer to her and complimented her cooking skills, when they finished dining, was almost midnight and Janis went the balcony with Lizzie, waiting for the fireworks Opie set up.

Everyone had a midnight kiss, but her, Lizzie and Kozik, Tig found a croweater and everyone else had a pair. When midnight came, Kozik got close to Janis and hugged her tight; Janis pushed Lisa to the hug too, so she didn't stay alone. The lemonhead said to her again those three words that hurt her so much and she replied to him, only a smile.

"What's wrong?" Gemma asked Janis, who was already in her bedroom, almost asleep, everyone was gone and they already cleaned everything. "I know something is wrong, what did Kozik do to you?" Janis looked scared at her mother, Gemma knew all; Janis then told everything to her mom. "Baby, Lizzie is right. If he likes you, he will wait when you are ready." She said, as Janis' tears rolled her face. She almost couldn't cry anymore, she never cried about anyone in her life. "I don't want to see you crying because of this. I know you want to wait; I know you are afraid, of what might happen and of your dad. Now the wise thing to do is repress, until you can claim him to you." Gemma said, the girl understood. Talking to Gemma was always the best thing to do, she always knew the right advices, and Janis wondered if she would be like that when she grew up. "Good Night, baby" Gemma said, as she left Janis in her room alone. She cried herself to sleep that day, her deepest desire was saying fuck it to everything and claiming what it's hers.

Act 2

2000: Janis was blinded, guided by her dad, walking outside the clubhouse to win her birthday present. It's been two months since Kozik said he loved her, everything looked weird between them, she often caught him staring at her, and she often caught herself doing the same. They were repressing strong feelings, which made Kozik fall even more in his addiction. He was always seen on near towns, talking to dealers. He was in debt with the Nords, which made Darby fight with Clay more than once. Janis was drowned in her studies; she wanted to have good grades, for when she graduates, it was close, in two months.

Clay got her outside, and took off the bandana from her eyes. He thought she was going to be frustrated by the present he gave to her, because it wasn't a bike. He was wrong. "Dad, you are serious?" she asked, looking at him, not contenting her excitement. "You are really giving me a 69 Mustang Boss?!" she said, passing her hands on her red car. She loved it; she liked old cars as much as bikes. "Thanks dad, you are awesome!" she said. Janis knew how to drive since she was 13, passing most of her time in TM made her learn early, she just had to pass in the exam now.

"Great that you liked it sweetheart" The pres said, Jax helped out to make it perfect to her, putting leather everywhere it could and a sick stereo. "Jax put a great speaker, so you can hear those screaming people you like to hear so much." He said, she laughed, remembering how much her dad hated her punk bands.

Everyone was there, to see her receiving her first birthday present. "Sweet little sixteen, baby" Bobby said to her, she loved that song, principally the version with Jimmy Orion and Jerry Lee Lewis. She hugged Bobby as he handled her his present, another one she loved. "This guitar was one of the first I had, I know how much you love music, I thought you would like this one" she opened the case; it was his black guitar, with a rose craved in the neck of the guitar.

"I loved it Uncle Bobby, it's beautiful!" she said, kissing his cheeks. She thought she would only win kisses and hugs like every birthday, but this one, she was getting presents, she liked the kisses and hugs as much. "Are you sure you want to give me this amazing guitar?!" she asked, he nodded his head, she hugged him again thanking him.

She got inside SOA clubhouse again, she had to study of her finals, but all she could do is play on her new guitar, the tuning, the wood, everything was perfect. When Tig sat besides her, watching her play Stairway to Heaven, from Led Zeppelin, "Hey Doll, my turn to give your sweet sixteen present" he said to her, she turned to him immediately, he never gave anything to anyone, and he then gave to her a little box. "It's a family thing, I hope you like it." He said, as she opened the tiny box, inside was a ring, with four tiny diamonds carved on it. "My mom gave to me, to give to one of my girls. They never liked jewelry, so I kept to give to you." He said smiling.

"Tig, it's beautiful." She said, her eyes sparkled as she looked at the ring, she took it from the box and put in her finger, it was the perfect size to her left ring finger. "I love it" she said, hugging him and kissing his cheeks. Tig was her best friend, he was the one that took care of her, even more than Clay ever did, they were really close, but not everyone understood their friendship. Bobby and Piney always joked with Tig, saying he was going to fuck her, the day she turned 18, and Gemma, until Kozik and Janis talked to her, believed the same.

"Glad you like kiddo." He said, he saw how happy she was, she then joked if everyone got close to her, she would say she was married, it looked like a wedding ring. Tig laughed at that. Janis then asked where Kozik was, he didn't go to work that day. "I don't know, doll, he got out of my house, we are not talking" he said to her, she asked him what happened, afraid to be about what Kozik said to her two months before, "One day I tell you, doll, now let's just celebrate your birthday" he said, Tig looked sad, something serious happen.

Janis didn't want to think about sad things that day, it was her birthday and she loved birthdays, although she worried with Kozik, she was afraid he was using drugs again, that one day would kill him, if he didn't treat it fast. She then went back to her guitar, playing like there was nothing else around her. She played it for hours; her fingers were hurting already when she heard a bike parking in the lot. Janis rushed outside, to see if it was Kozik, he was trying to get off his bike, he looked high. "Kozik!" she screamed, while running towards him. "What did you do?" she asked him, he didn't answer, so she helped him out, and led him to inside the clubhouse. Clay eyes were burning in anger, as he saw, from far, his daughter helping the Junkie.

She got him seated in a chair, and made him drink water, she believed that might help. "Janis, doll, I'm fine!" he said to her, although he didn't look fine, his eyes were fuzzy and bloodshot, his spiked hair, messy and lip opened.

"You are not fine, you are high!" she said, feeling bad for him, seeing the man she loves like this, hurt her, even more than saying no to him. "Come here, I'll put you in the shower." She said, passing his arm behind her head, so she could support him up.

Janis led him to the dorm, and then to the bathroom, where she started taking his clothes off, so he could go inside the cold shower. "Why did you say no to me?" he asked her, his fuzzy eyes now filled with tears. "I fucking love you!" he said to her and that still hurts. "I could have any girl I want, any!" he said, she then realized he was doing this, because of how hurt he was, because she said no to him. His drugs were her fault.

"Kozik, stop!" she screamed at him, she was crying, how could he do that to her, she loved him and was hurt too. Janis wanted to kiss him, make it all go away. "Come on, let's go inside the shower." She said, after leaving him in only his underwear. He looked embarrassed; the teen was seeing him like this. Janis put him inside the shower. "Now I'll let you alone, if you need anything, scream, I'll be waiting in the dorm." She said, kissing his damp cheeks.

"Thank you, Janis." He said, holding her hand before she left, "and sorry for ruining your birthday. By the way, happy birthday!" he said, she laughed at him and thanked. Janis left him in the bathroom alone and sat on the dorm bed. The only thing she could think was that he didn't ruined her birthday, just seeing him, made it even more perfect.