Chapter 4: The first meeting

Sam's POV

I was rummaging through my closet, looking for something to wear. Today has finally come; today was the day that she had been waiting for three months. She was going to meet Carly and Freddie back in Seattle in Spencer's loft.

I finally put on a tight black long sleeved hello kitty shirt holding an ice cream and green capris with black high tops.

I combed my blonde hair, trying to brush through the curls. I was thinking about dying my hair, but I wasn't sure yet. I grabbed my bag and headed towards the nearest airport.

The lady at the front desk was very smiley. She had short brown hair and dimples; she said with a big smile, "Hello ma'am, how can I help you today?"

"One ticket to Seattle." I said flatly avoiding her happy attitude.

Once I boarded I thought I was going to be sick, the trip was four hours that's why I left at four in the morning. I'll get there at eight and then I'll hang for a few more hours and then when it comes time for twelve I'll go meet Carly and Freddie.

Next to me was some fat guy holding a bear and on the other seats next me was two women holding their leather purses.

After the flight landed I was in shock, the plane had a four hour delay and it was time to get to Spencer's loft.

I ran to Spencer's house and finally got into the apartment buildings and tried to open Carly's door but I picked the lock and there they were…

My eyes were wide and I thought I was going to cry, my hands were fidgety and I couldn't believe what I just saw.

"I…uh…didn't mean to interrupt…" I said trying to not choke. Carly looked at me nervously. "Oh sorry Sam. It's ok."

I walked in slowly and sat on the couch, right next to Carly.

"So are ya'll an uh thing now?"

Carly nodded her head half smiling. My spine crawled with betrayal.

"Well let's stop being quiet and talk it up." Freddie announced embarrassed about what just happened.

Carly straightened her back, while I stayed slumped. "I'll go first."

She began her story, "I live in Washington, and I go to southern California state collage. I am currently living with my father and I work as an accountant for the Military base."

Her story was fascinating, she actually did something with her life. "But now I am going to switch from southern state to Oregon Baptist collage with Freddie and move in with him."

I was still in shock, "W-wait ya'll are moving into together." They nodded in happiness.

"I told you Carly would love me one day." I glared at him, "I told I was going to put a tarantula on your head." It was true I had slipped it on his head a few minutes ago when I walked in.

He felt his then jumped back and started to step on the spider. I bellowed at him, "Hey! I was going to eat that!"

They stared at me.

Freddie got chills, "Ok I have been going to Oregon Baptist Collage and I live in Oregon in a small two bedroom complex. I stayed at my cousin Ashton's for a while but moved out, and finally I am a GPS corporate.

They all turned to me, "Oh I…uh….I live with my friend Rebekah in Nevada and I go to Nevada State. I am currently single and I have no job."

Freddie just coughed, I looked at him and he decided to just be quiet.

I got tired of the silence and broke it with a suggestion, "How about we go get some smoothies?"

They nodded with smiles and we head out the door. I didn't really want to think about what happened, but I was. The whole ride towards Groovy Smoothies. Why would Carly do that? I had told her before that I liked him. Did she forget?

What about Freddie? Well he loves her of course; he wouldn't pass up an opportunity to suck face with her.

I sighed knowing I'll never get the chance with him now. They made it official. They went out, made out, and moved in.

I was quiet the whole time when we got to groovy smoothie. They were flirting and drinking their smoothies and I had my head on my hand and didn't even touch mine.

We rode home to watch movies, I missed watching movies with them but it was hard to watch when there cuddling and kissing on the other side of the couch. I thought it was about time for me to leave.

They started making out for like an hour, "Do ya'll ever come for air?!" I yelled standing up.

Carly looked hurt, Freddie looked annoyed. "Sam, I think it's about time you leave…"

I looked at her for a minute then nodded. I left with out taking a look back. They can spend their lives together, fine, but I won't be in them.

I walked towards the airport and just my luck, it started to rain. I huffed and proceeded to walk any way. I got on the plane and sat there for four hours soaked in rain water.

I walked home from the airport and Rebekah and her friends we're shocked when they saw my tears and wetness.

"Sam what happened----"

"No! Just let me go to my room and get dry and then I am going to go to bed and not wake up until three tomorrow afternoon…"

Rebekah sighed, her friends looked at her. It was about time they went home so she sent them home with an apology but they understood.

I sat on my bed changed into hello kitty pajama shorts and a grey T-shirt.

I had tears going down my cheeks but I was not sobbing, I am tough, just not as tough as people think. I have fears and I have weaknesses I just try to hide them.

I can get hurt, people won't see it. I guess I act so tough so when they put me down I don't let it out so it bottles up in me and stays there but one of these days it's going to burst.

I wish I could let out my feelings towards people, I wish I could've just flirted with Freddie like a normal girl would but no I had to torture him into despising me.

I just wanted attention. I knew if I didn't do that I would have gotten left out and unnoticed. I hate being the girl he thinks I am.

I hate him thinking I have no fears, no weaknesses, and no feelings, but I do! I have all of those things, I just don't show them.

I always hid my feelings, put them aside.

So they would never get hurt….