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AU Ben hint: Hey, Kevin is still alive in this AU world. Though he doesn't go by Kevin Levin, he goes by Kevin 11.

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May-23-2010 ! *cheers*

P.S. The chapters will get longer in a few chapters time, this is just to explain a few things because you need these! THEY WILL BE THE MAIN BASIS OF THIS STORY!

"June 13, 2010

Gwen got some medal from school she's getting so much praise while I'm getting all the disapproving looks. At the moment I only can look down at the omnitrix and assume that I'm doing everything I can to do what's right. Yeah, so I'm not some smart ass like Gwen, some karate and that black belt… I only have soccer and even that is starting to be a problem.

Kevin came over to pick me up from school, I was talking to Cash (he's not that bad actually once he stops beating you up) and Kevin messes up my hair before telling me to hurry up and get in the car so we can go to the 'party' for Gwen. I saw the look Cash and JT gave me when I'm sure; my mask slipped.

'You know what, Tennyson, I don't understand how you stand them.' At first I was confused as Kevin honked his horn. 'They're only using you, they really don't care about you… are you really just going to stand for it?' I become a little finicky but I said the same words I say to myself, Julie, and the whole population who slowly realize that I'm being used and a third wheel… 'They're my friends, Cash, their all I've got.'

It was the farthest thing from the truth; over the last month talking to Gory I realized that Kevin and Gwen were not my friends anymore. Cash was more of a friend than either of they have been. As I made my way to leave Cash stopped me. His eyes were hard as his grip tightened, JT seemed angry also, 'Ben, you can't keep letting them hurt you, we're not the only ones in school who've seen you in pain, the whole soccer team knows.' That's why soccer is a problem now.

You know what; I guess I understand what they think. 'If' I stress that all the time now 'I'm hurt, it isn't your problem, I won't die from a few bruises.' Cash gripped my arm hard at those words; I could see his anger at me.

'That's what a lot of people say, Ben, look at what happened to them then tell me that.' Kevin's yelled at us, JT and Cash glared at him then at me again before letting me go… I think they know that I'm in danger and no one's doing anything about it, not even me.

I wonder what Kevin would say if he heard Cash's words. 'Yeah, right, like Tennyson's in trouble of being hurt, he has the-fucking-omnitrix! THAT takes the beating, not him'.

Off to bed,

Ben Tennyson"

Your eyes widen as you shift on the bed and grip the cell in your back pocket and flip it open dialing the number of Cash's phone.

"Cash." His voice came in with a pinch tone, he was angry.

"Hey, Cash,-." You don't get to speak as he growls on the other end.

"What the hell do you want, bastard." You blink a few minutes before sighing, resigning to your fate.

"Was Ben really hurt?" the words are only whispered on your end. Slowly the times ticks by before Cash responds, obviously he was trying to hold back an unwanted aggression.

"Yeah, he was. What's it to you, huh? Finally grew a heart!" you flinch back as it suddenly dawn on you as to why he was never playing on the field when he had a game, though you never went Julie always told you. "Hey, if any of us learn that this is your fault, you're more than dead, got it." A shiver is all that comes as you slowly come to the conclusion that Ben's whole school knew of his condition.

"Everyone knew, didn't they, Cash."

Cash didn't say anything before shuffling on the other end came and your surprised to hear a voice of the school's football captain, "Yeah, we all know, every fucking teenager in High School knows… Stay away from us all; tell Gwen that for us also." The phone clicked to show that the line was dead as tears flow from your eyes as he lean back into the pillows that still smelt like the brunette. You slowly shake as the wailing comes from your lips and you turn to bury you head into Ben's bed.

It was your fault that this happened. This was all Gwen and your fault.

You take your time to stop the shuddering tears before you slow sit back up and glare at the clock, focusing it. An hour had passed since the phone call. Slowly you pick up the cell and push one, Gwen's speed dial, and listen for her to pick up.

Ben had a phone and you never even bothered to put it on speed dial, even though you're was on his. He believed he didn't have any friends, but from what he knew of Cash and JT… the soccer team… everyone in High School… Ben had a lot of friends; it was way too late for that information.

"Hey, Kevin." You hear the cracking in her voice, she had been crying… was if because of her cousin or because of the rejection from her friends due to what they believed is the true reason of Ben's injuries and 'death'.

"Gwen, I have some bad-." She cuts you off as she begins crying again.

"Kevin, my friends, they all told me they hate me… they don't even want to be my friends anymore! I… what did I do that would make them hate me!" you blink before your mouth drops.

"Wait, you're not crying because of Ben?" you wait for an answer and you hear her gawk.

"Why would I? He has the omnitrix, he'll be fine." He'll be fine, I'll be fine, you're fine, you can't get hurt, the omnitrix keeps you safe. "Kevin, why is everyone in my school-."

"I can't believe how shallow you are." Gwen shuts up at your words. "Are you really this pathetic just because your friends 'don't like' you anymore. Gwen, your cousin has been missing for nearly two months! They found HIS BLOOD on HIS JACKET in the ally which WAS FUCKING COVERED IN BLOOD!" you shout in anger, you don't care that you're yelling because Ben's parents were out of town spending time together… even though… "I can't believe it, not even his parents… not us… not Max…" you slowly feel sick. "Ben has been in pain for who knows how long and all of us just sit back and just screw him over; hell, look at his parents their on a 'retreat' and their son's funeral is in TWO DAYS!" your hands dig into the blankets and you fight back the tears.

"Ben was never in pain, Kevin, he was always happy and don't you dare say anything like that about my aunt and uncle!" you slowly see red as you close the phone. Was this really true, was it everyone's fault… His parents… Gwen… His grandfather's… even you? Yeah, it was, it still is.

"I helped kill him. I helped kill him and now I have to pay the price."

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