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Ziva P.O.V.
So here we are, together, just Tony and me. Oh, and the baby, both of them that is.
I spent two days wondering and stressing over one baby. One embryo.
So in the end I decided to keep it.
I mean, what's the harm. It's my little baby. My own tiny little baby is growing inside me. Wow!
I can't see why I wanted to rid of it.
It's part of me.
It's part of Tony.
So back to what I was saying, we were sitting in the main room. As my sister wrote in her last letter, there was now a thick brown envelope sitting on the coffee table. It was from her.
Neither of us reached to open it in a hurry. I knew what it said anyway, she was dead and we both knew that. AJ was now our main priority along with our lives and the new baby on the way.
No one said it was going to be easy. They were right. If I have learnt one thing it's that life is never easy. It takes away the good people and it's not up to us who have fortune and luck and who doesn't, that choice belongs in fate.
It was time for fate to decided AJ's destiny.
"Do you want me to read it out loud, Tony?"
"Ziva, if this is too hard for you, you don't have to. I'll be your shoulder to cry on. I don't have to know."
"Thank you so much."
'Dearest Ziva,
It will only be a matter of time. When you get this letter I will be dead. I always knew I didn't stand a chance, but this is official. He is near and so is my end. I want you to know that this letter isn't easy to write.
Things are never easy.
Congratulations with your marriage, I know it's late. Two years late, but I've always wanted to tell you that no matter what you do, I always wanted to be like you and live the amazing life that you lead. I look up to you. I always have; I always will.
We are sisters; we share the same blood, which is why I am leaving you all of my belongings. There are some clothes and some of my darling's favourite toys. But I don't want her to be found. If this man finds her, or you, I am afraid that your lives would be put into danger. In the envelope there is a birth certificate, all you have to do is fill out the name.
I am so sorry to heave this burden onto you. I am awful.
I am not a bad mother. I love my child, which is why I am going to be killed. Please love her too.
I'll miss her, you know. I will try to kill the man who is after me before I die. I will die though. I have committed an act not even I can forgive myself. I do not want to speak another word about this. I have already said too much. Forgive me.
Sorry,
Sarah'
It was strange because I could feel the tears creeping into the corner of my eyes. It was getting harder to read. I felt one small warm tears make it's way down half of my cheek before Tony wiped it away with his finger.
"Don't cry, Ziva."
"I know, Tony, I know." I said it like I was trying to prove to him that I was ok, but really I was trying to prove it to myself.
It was now official. AJ had no one but us, and that isn't a proper family. Where is her mum?I suddenly felt a rush of love pour over me as he tried to comfort me, it was sweet of him to try and save me from drowning in my emotions.
Where was the Mossad Coldness within me?
Had it all run out?
I sure wasn't who I use to be.
I felt the unborn child within me. I felt suddenly aware of reality again. I was here, with my baby, with AJ, with Tony, without my sister.
The next several months are not going to be easy. That was a given!! But AJ was our child now. She was our little girl. My other baby. Baby.
Oh crap.
Tony P.O.V.
Oh crap.
Ziva's crying. This is all too much for her.
If I could, I'd be happy to take her pain and suffer myself. I hate to see her in this much pain.
I'd rarely ever see her actually crying only after.
But even with tears streaming down her face and her eyes all red and blotchy, I couldn't help but think how beautiful she is.
I would die for her.
She was the love of my life. As some would put it, the apple of my eye.
What can I do?
Ziva P.O.VIt's been three months now. A whole three months since I found out my life was going to change. And it has.
I am not almost in my 7th month of pregnancy and I am fat. I mean I am really huge.
So here we are, Just me and Tony. Abby has taken AJ off our hands tonight so Tony and I can talk about the baby which is now on its way.
"Ziva, you know I love you?"
"Yes Tony. I know."
"You know I will love you no matter what?"
"Yes Tony. I know."
"Ziva, you know you can tell me anything?"
"Tony, you have told me this thousands of time over this last month. What is it?"
"Why havn't you told me then?"
"Told you what Tony?"
"That you know more about these babies than I do."
"Tony. You can't be serious. Babies?"
"Yeah. On your last check up you had to go alone, because I was out on the field. Dr Marlow called yesterday to check up on you."
"Oh!"
"Something you want to tell me Ziva?"
"Tony. I know I should have told you. But the doctor said there could be some complications."
"Ziva having twins isn't anything to be afraid about. Why didn't you tell me, love?"
I couldn't speak.
I was crying so hard that I was unable to do anything.
Everything went all blurred due to the tears welling up in my eyes so I didn't see Tony swoop down and kiss me. Suddenly everything felt ok, I felt safe.
An hour or so later I feel asleep. I had the weirdest dream.
Where am I? I looked around. Gibbs house. I was crying. The tears were coming down so fast that it hurt my throat. Why was I crying?
I looked down.
There was a pool of blood.
I remembered.
Ari.
But where was he? His blood was there but he wasn't.
I woke up with a start and that's when I heard him.
"Hello Ziva."
Ari.
Hi Everyone. So sorry it took me soo long to write this chapter up bit I had some problems in my personal life I had to sort out before I went back to writing.
Love,
Crunchie xx