When we got of the phone, we sat silently as what just happened sunk into her smart, but very blond, head.
Suddenly she laughed " Well thank you I needed that. It boosted my self esteem a little bit. "
" No problem girl you know I got yo back, homee " I said sarcasticly sounding black.
" Ha black talk, plus you, no. I don't care how much I love you, I can't deal with you acting that way. It kills me inside " She said Completely unable to stop laughing.
" I don't see whats so bad about me talking that way." I just rolled my eyes.
" Ya well, your alone on that one Hun. But seriously, don't think I haven't forgot about what you told me in school the other day. This is completely serious. I haven't said anything because we haven't been in a private place. That's the main reason I wanted to come over here today."
She sounded like my mom does when she wants to have, the talk, completely serious, with that " I'm trying to sound completely calm but, on the inside in freaking out" voice. Not good.
" Ok. I was more hoping you would forget then I was expecting."
" Ya I would neverforget something like that, I don't think any good friend could, or would."
" Thank you, in a way, I'm glad you didn't forget. Now I have someone to talk to about it."
" Ya well. It can't be long before people figure it out anyways. So you will have plenty people to talk about it with then." She saw my face and added, " Sorry..."
" No, I'm sorry. It's true I have no right to get mad. It's my mistake. My mess I got into, and one I have to figure away out of."
" Sometimes it's easier to get your self into a mess, then it is to get your self out."
" Ya, I know. There is always away out of a mess, even one this size. I just have to get around the obstacles that are to come." Confidently, with a hint of a stutter I stated.
" Honey, your my best friend, do you wanna know what I think?"
I barley nodded wondering what she could possibly say that we haven't before.
" What I think is, it wont be that easy. But you have me and Penelope here for you and your mom, and sister. A lot of people, so don't think your alone in this." She gave me a wink.
" Ya well, they can't help me or be there for me right now." All I did was look away.
" You have told other people, haven't you."
My eyes started to tear up.
" Holly you have to tell some one! Who all knows?"
I blew my nose and told my self, no im not gonna cry. Not over this. Not now not ever. It will be fixed sooner or later. Then I said aloud " Just you. I figured you could help me fix this-this, this mistake."
" How do you expect me to help fix it?" She saw my face, instantly, " No Holly I would die for you but I would never do this. Not even for you."
" Rose, please im begging you. Even if not that way, some other way. I don't care. I just wanted you here for me."
" Ok, I'm here. When will you tell Penelope."
" I dont know. She will not understand like you do."
" What's different bout me than her?"
" You have known people in this situation before."
We sat silently. Neither one of us knew what to do or say. Then suddenly...