Amy's POV:

I couldn't tell Josh I'm sick, I just couldn't. I know he would be scared, and I just can't bear that thought of hurting him with my words again. Just then I hear a knock at my door, I open it to reveal Donna Moss. This is the woman that got between Josh and me. She is an angel in his eyes, she could never be matched. That why I'm confused, why are they not together? I don't know what to say to her.

Donna's POV:
Amy is staring at me, I'm not quite sure why she has this sad look on her face. "Come in," she steps back and waits. I hang in her entrance way not sure how to begin. "Why are you here?" her voice is quiet and she looks at me her eyes expressionless.

"What is it Amy?" Sometimes directness is best. Her eyes shoot daggers, "Is that why you came?" "I came for Josh, he's worried."

"Why didn't he come himself?" She sounds pained.

"You brushed him off, and he doesn't want to get mixed up with you again. He cares about you though, and he's freaking out."

Amy gets it then. She understands why I came and her next words cut me, "you always are there to pick up the pieces, yet you don't have the guts to actually act on what you both know has been right for years. You're just going to go on taking care of him; you can't do that forever Donna, that's not how it works."

"You had a lot of success with him didn't you?" I can't believe I'm saying this.

She falls silent, "I have cancer Donna," her voice is resigned.

I knew it was something like this, but she's so young. "Amy, I…"

She cuts me off, "Don't, don't say you're sorry. Even if you are, don't say it." Speechless I wait.

"Are you going to tell Josh?" she looks down.

I don't know what to tell her, yes, no, will I? "If he asks I will." That's true enough; I would never lie to Josh. "You might as well tell him I'm pregnant too, just to avoid any name blame games." I feel my breath catch, she's pregnant too? She meets my eye, "Now you can say it," she lets out her breath. "I'm sorry," this time I mean it with all of my heart. "Amy did they…?" She shakes her head, "I can either have the treatment and lose the baby or wait on the treatment until the baby is born and hope for the best." I don't know how to respond.

Amy's POV:

I had come to ask Josh to look out for my child, but then I had second thoughts. Josh and Donna were not together, that would have better. Also if Josh did indeed get Matt Santos in the White House a child was not something he should be burdened with. Why Josh? Simple, for all our miscommunications, he treated me like no other man has, before or after. I knew his kind heart, his love and wanted that for my baby. I meet Donna's eyes and smile softly, "there you got what you came for," I sound bitter. She hesitates, "Amy I really am so sorry." I nod, "Thank you Donna, but I'm asking you, will you tell Josh?" "Only if he asks me," she hesitates, "but you really should, he deserves to know and hear it from you." "You think I owe him?" "I think he deserves honesty, he never asked for anything more from you," she sounds kind, not possessive. I nod, "you're right, it hurts to see his eyes when he's in pain," I know she'll understand that. "Yes it does, but you need to move on," she hesitates, "call me if I can do anything," she scribbles down her number and turns pausing at the door, 'tell Josh Amy, please." She disappears.

The next morning:

Josh's POV:

Donna walks through the door looking tired even though Lou told me she left early. I feel tired too, Amy kept me up.

Just then she appears, "Josh, I'm sorry I ran out. I know you're really busy, but can we talk?" I don't know what to say to her. "Sure, um, can you give me ten minutes, I just have some stuff to get ready for the day and then I can take about an hour."

She nods, "I'll wait outside," she walks slowly out.

I shake the cobwebs out, now at least my mind is content with the knowledge that I'll hear the story soon. I make my way to Lou's office, Donna is there with her. "Lou a friend is here to have coffee with me," I smile.

"Not coffee," Donna says finally.

Lou raises her eyebrows at me and I raise mine at Donna. "I'll be drawing up the briefing," she vanishes; how odd was that.

Lou nods, "you have the outline for the day, if you see any problems, let me know, and otherwise we don't need you until 10."

I nod and glance over the clipboard, things look fine. "Okay, it's good; I'll see you in about an hour." Amy stands as I make my way over to her, "coffee?"

She nods, "tea sounds good." Donna meets my eye just then and quickly breaks the gaze going back to work. She knows something, however Amy will tell me herself instead of Donna. Amy shoots Donna a smile as Donna walks out to the copier by us, "Hi Donna," she greets her.

To my surprise Donna smiles back, "Amy," it's quick, but friendly. Suddenly I feel out of the loop, and Josh Lyman does not enjoy that feeling.

Amy's POV:

Oh boy, here goes, this is hard. "Josh…" I can't continue, why am I doing this? "Yes Amy?" that trademark grin. "Josh I'm so sorry for what I'm about to tell you. Years ago Donna told me that people have to "get" you and I didn't. She told me how much you'd lost in your life and I realized then that we didn't really ever get to know each other. Josh, I have cancer."
She didn't just say that, not Amy, not my Amy. She's not mine, but when you've loved someone, they're a part of your life and I think it's safe to say some part of me did love Amy. I guess it just wasn't enough to truly count.

"Amy," I can't say more. "There's more," apparently she can. "I'm pregnant Josh." I get the implications in her eyes; she's going to have the baby. "Chemo would hurt the fetus," I whisper. "Yes," she confirms it with one word. "Josh, the reason I came to see you, that I now realize is completely absurd, is I wanted to ask you to be the godfather of my child."

I think my jaw has hit the ground. "Amy, I…"