Chapter 4

They sat in a clearing in the forest, hands entwined, not wanting to disturb the peace, but he knew he had to.

He knew that she was still thinking that if she had waited a little longer, she could have saved him so much pain, saved him from having to live the way he did, save him from the memories scared into his photographic mind. And she's right, if she had waited she could have saved him but…she didn't know, she couldn't know, she was just as clueless as he was and that is NOT her fault.

Jasper turned to look at Bella and squeezed her hand a little causing her to turn to him. He could feel what she was feeling and she could feel what he was feeling. He didn't blame her and he wished she wouldn't blame herself but he could feel it there…self hate and self disgust along with frustration, anger and love.

"Bella darlin', you didn't know, I didn't know, we couldn't have known. What happened to me was not your fault, understand? NOT your fault it was Maria's" he spat her name in disgust.

Bella smiled but it didn't reach her eyes.

"Sweetheart, it happened and it's over. All that is in the past, this is the present and we are together as we will be in the future. I love you and I'm here, that's all that matters" he said softly while sending her his love unintentionally causing Bella to gasp and smile a real smile.

Jasper leaned over and pressed his lips to Bella's once again and it was like something snapped inside of them both. They had both been through lots of fucked up shit over the past 103 years and hadn't been together through it all. They were going to make every second count, even if they did have forever.

Jasper's tongue flicked out and swept across Bella's lips begging for entrance. Bella opened happily and their tongues met in a passionate and desperate kiss. They needed to be closer, closer than possible but that didn't mean they wouldn't try. Jasper pulled her flush against his chest as their tongues tangled together, he trailed his hands down her sides grazing her breasts and then resting on her hips. Bella's hands ghosted up his arms and along his neck before tangling in his amazing blond locks and tugging slightly eliciting a moan from Jasper.

Jasper fisted one hand into Bella's mahogany waves and pulled a little guiding her to lay back. He hovered over her and began to explore her body. He caressed her thigh and hitched it over his hip while his other palmed her through her top. Bella's hand ran down his chest to his the hem of his shirt; Jasper lifted his arms as she pulled it off and threw it to the side. Jasper followed her example and took…rather ripped her shirt of causing Bella to giggle.

"I hope you didn't like it to much" he said into the skin of her neck.

"Nope, but the others will see me in nothing but my bra…that is if you don't rip it" she laughed. He smirked into her neck.

"You can wear my shirt, there's no way anyone is seeing you without a bra" he said and then ripped her bra off.

He claimed her mouth again and they explored every inch of each others mouths while Jasper's hand snaked down to the waistband of Bella's jeans. He popped the button easily and unzipped them before pulling them off at vampire speed. Jasper moved his mouth to Bella's neck as she followed him in removing his pants. She rolled them over so that she was straddling him in order to pull his pants all the way off, his boxers following soon after as she suck and nipped at his neck and earlobe. Jasper flipped them over again and ripped her panties off leaving them both naked. He sucked on her left nipple while palming the right breast pinching on occasion before switching breasts; Bella was pumping him as he bucked into her hand.

They bucked their hips together, teasing each other before Jasper had enough. He positioned himself at her entrance hooking her right leg over his hip and then thrust into her completely while locked on her eyes. They both moaned loudly at the feeling of being joined after all those years.

"Fuck, Bella baby…" he groaned.

"Jasper…I…more…" she whimpered.

Jasper complied with her wishes and thrust into her harder and faster each time. He filled her to the hilt each time hitting her sweet spot when she wrapped her other leg around his waist creating a new angle. He pulled almost all the way out and then slammed back into her causing her to scream out in ecstasy while he chanted her name like a prayer. They were both close so he reached down and began to circle her clit.

"Bella, come for me darlin'…come now!" he panted.

"Ahh…JASPER…fuck!" she cried out as she had her orgasm, milking him for everything he had.

"Shit…BELLA!" he moaned into the air coming deep inside of her.

He collapsed onto her when he came down from his high and they lay that way trying to regulate their unnecessary breathing.

When they calmed down he rolled off of her pulling her with him so that she was half on top of him. He ran his hand through her hair while his other drew lazy patterns on her hip. She had her hand resting on his chest and silently played with the small amount of hair there.

"That was…wow" he eventually breathed. Bella smiled at him.

"Yeah, it was amazing" she whispered as he leaned down and gently kissed her before sighing and pulling them both into a sitting position still tangled together.

"We should get back to the house now" he said disappointed.

She laughed a little and gave him a chaste kiss "Yeah, we should" she said.

They got up and found some clothes to wear. Bella ended up with her jeans and Jasper's shirt while Jasper had his pants but no shirt. She left the shirt behind as well as the panties; there was no hope for them.

Jasper was at her side as soon as they were ready; it was as though they needed to be near and touching, not a want but a need, a magnetic force.

He entwined their hands and kissed her on the head before they took off towards the house.

When they walked through the back door everyone looked up, took in their appearance and smiled knowingly.

"You guy totally did it!" Em yelled.

Jasper rolled his eyes as Bella played dumb.

"Wad'ya mean Em?" she asked and cocked her head to the side.

Before he could answer Jasper laughed and swept her up into his arms bridal style.

"We need a shower" he whispered into her ear.

"You gonna do it again?! Geez…" he started but Jasper and Bella ignored him.

"We'll see ya'll later" Bella Said and then Jasper darted upstairs as Bella took in a pouting Em for being interrupted and shouted

"Don't pout sugar, smile" and laughed as she caught a glimpse of Emmett's big smile creeping back in place.

Before she knew it Jasper had them both undressed and in the shower with his lips attacking hers.

Could they go another round?

The others would hear…

Who the fuck cares…

They both seemed to be thinking the same thing as they looked at each other for a few seconds before smiling simultaneously and crashing together with a quick

"Fuck it"