"The Sleepover"

Rated T for Teen.

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"Going to bed so early?"

"We're really tired from being in the sun all day," I call to her.

"Well make sure you both take a shower before you get too comfortable."

"Okay mom we will."

"You first or me?"

"You go," I insist.

She kisses my lips tenderly and grabs her stuff to shower. I lie on top of my bed so unafraid to be alone with Maya but then I think about what happened at the lake and, I have to admit, I really am afraid to be alone with Ben...

Chapter 4: Being Honest Isn't So Easy

Emily POV

I feel the warmth of her body as she snuggles into me, "Mmm, good morning."

I smile really big biting my lower lip trying to keep it under control, "Good morning."

"What I wouldn't do to wake up next to you every day except I'd insist we be naked."

"Maya!"

"Shh, you don't want to wake the parents now do you?" she nuzzles my earlobe and wraps her arms tighter around me.

"I like it too, waking up next to you."

I turn onto my back and she repositions herself to be half on top of me. I can feel her mini thrust against my hips rubbing gently against me. It's so natural for her. She doesn't even realize she's doing it I don't think. But I like it. I like knowing I do this to her. I can feel my own weakness so I have to say something to distract her motion.

"So, today's the day."

"It is," she's still rubbing and I'm still liking it.

"How do I say it?"

Her lips were kissing my neck but she stops and so does her motion against me, "Emily, there's no script."

"But what would you do?"

"I'd ask to speak with them and then I'd just say it. Don't give them time to draw their own conclusions about what you're going to tell them. You need to see how they react and go from there. And if they bring up Ben then you need to tell them what he said."

"What if they don't?"

"Then maybe start with that you're breaking up with him. But if you don't think you can talk about it anymore then, just, know that you have me and your friends to protect you. He'll look more the ass to his friends if he tries anything stupid."

"Okay. I can do this."

"You can and you will. And now let's celebrate your coming out before our sleepovers are forbidden," she says in a diabolical tone and giggles.

"Maya, thank you so much. I knew all this time but you, you're the one who made me face who I really am and I'm so grateful for that."

"Oh yeah, how grateful?" her eyebrow pops sky high.

I'm starting to feel a little adventurous while my parents are still asleep. Her head lowers to kiss me and I keep her connected to me with my hand at the nape of her neck. I can tell she likes this as I can feel her smile against my lips. She gets on top of me rubbing against my thigh. She pulls away looking into my eyes making sure it's okay.

"Yeah?" she asks to be sure.

"Oh yeah," I reply so she knows she can keep going.

She looks at me and kisses my lips while they're closed then maneuvers them open sliding her tongue against mine. Our mouths open wider as our tongues lead the kiss. My hands glide down to her ass coaxing her to keep grinding against me. Our breathing climbs as our temperatures rise…

Knock. Knock. Knock.

"Shit!" I whisper yell. I'm so pissed right now!

She falls on top of me, her motion stops and she giggles against my neck, "Your mom has the worst timing!"

"I know!"

"Girls time to get up. I'm starting breakfast so be down in fifteen minutes."

"Okay, we're coming!" I call back.

"You have no idea Emily," she says as she rolls off me.

"I'm sorry Maya."

"It's fine. Why don't you go do what you need to do in the bathroom so I can finish up," she winks.

Finish up? Ohhh!

"Yeah, why don't I do that."

I open the bathroom door but before I go in I have to look. She's on her back rubbing herself fast and deliberate. Her knees are bent and she leans forward but then falls back, her hand not relinquishing from its mission. I want to do that to her! And then she cries and moans and lies there silent as the orgasm flutters throughout her body. I feel a little light headed as I stumble into the bathroom and lock the door. I can see her masturbating like a movie in my head playing over and over. I stick my hand down my pants and I'm stunned to feel how wet I am! I want to feel that feeling too so I sit on the edge of the tub, one leg in it one leg out of it and lean against the wall. I find my clit and massage it quickly and determinedly. I can feel myself about to erupt. I pull my shirt up shoving the bottom of it into my mouth to disguise my guttural scream! I breathe heavy short breaths waiting for the feeling to come back into my legs.

I stand looking into the mirror above the sink and laugh at my dirty little secret! I shake my head, wash my face, brush my teeth and go to the bathroom. I wash my hands taking a deep breath as I reenter my room.

"It felt good didn't it?" she calls me out on it right away.

"How did you know?" I'm blushing.

"I saw you watching me and you were in that bathroom for quite a while. Didn't you hear Pam calling for us?"

"Oh my god no, I'm so embarrassed."

She gets up, "I'm not," and saunters into the bathroom.

When she comes out she kisses me long and hard with minty freshness, "I have to have you all to myself."

"I want you to have me all to yourself."

"Good. Then it's time for you to tell them."

"Right now?"

"We'll eat first, and then shower. I'll pack my stuff and go back home."

"I wish you could stay."

"It's better you tell them yourself."

We eat breakfast with my parents and then shower. Maya thanks my parents and leaves. I'm so nervous!

"That Maya is such a sweetheart," my mom says when I close the door.

Now you think so.

"Emmy, is there something the matter?" my dad asks. "You look like you have something on your mind."

"I do. I need to talk to you both. It's important."

"Sounds serious," my mom looks worried.

"It is and I'm not sure how you're going to take what I have to say."

"Okay, well, let's go in the family room and you can tell us," my dad suggests.

I nod and follow.

"So, you know how I've been dating Ben?"

"Well yes. He's such a nice boy," my mom smiles.

"He is but I don't want to date him anymore."

Okay, that was a good lead in. I can do this!

"Why's that?" my dad asks as they both look confused.

"He's not my type."

"Really? He's a good student. He's on the swim team. And he's so sweet," My mom gushes.

Maybe she should date him!

"Well, being on the swim team is probably what attracted me to him initially."

"But…" my father motions with his hand to continue.

I start wringing my hands nervously and my father notices.

"Emmy, did he hurt you?"

"No, oh no, not at all. He just doesn't want us to end."

"So you've spoken to him about it?" my mom asks.

"Yes, he didn't take it very well."

"Why? Is there someone else?" My mom figures out.

"Yes."

I'm so nervous!

"Who Emmy?" My dad asks.

"It's—it's," I lift my head looking them squarely in the eyes and say, "It's Maya."

"But Maya's a girl," my mother so brilliantly deduces.

"Mom, dad, I'm—I'm gay."

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

"You're what?" my dad asks me to repeat.

"I'm gay."

"And Maya's gay and your girlfriend?" he sounds a little upset.

"I invited Maya into our home, into your bed and now you're telling us you're both gay! What have I done!" my mother makes it about her.

"You haven't done anything. I've always known but it was Maya who helped me say it out loud."

"You slept together in your bed all weekend! Did you have sex in our home!" she freaks.

"No! It wasn't like that. It was Maya comforting me and telling me it's all going to be okay. I needed her to be there and I'm so glad she was. For the first time she made me feel proud to be Emily Fields."

"Emmy, are you sure these feelings you're feeling are who you really are?"

"Without a doubt. I've wanted to break up with Ben for a long time now but if I did then I would have to deal with who I really am. I wasn't ready for that until I met Maya. And don't even say it mom."

"Say what?"

"That she made me gay."

"She can't make you gay Emily. If you're really gay then you were born that way," she starts to cry.

My dad comforts her by embracing her with one arm trying to lend her his strength.

"Yes. I believe that's true. But I denied my true self so I could fit in and not disappoint you."

"Disappoint us? Emmy, you could never do that. We love you no matter what," he gets up and holds me in a full embrace. I collapse in his arms crying tears of relief and happiness.

"Thank you dad," I look at him and he cups my face wiping my tears away.

"I loved you when you dated Ben and I'll love you when you're dating Maya."

"That means so much to me," I rest my head on his shoulder.

"Pam, you're being really quiet."

"This isn't easy Wayne. Of course I love Emily no matter what too but for sixteen years I didn't know. I didn't know my own daughter," she cries.

I look up at my dad and he lets me go to her. I kneel down on the floor and hug her. She lets me at first but then pulls away. She looks at me, studying me, placing her hand against my cheek, "Are you absolutely sure this isn't just cool for the summer?"

"No mom. It's so much more than that. I feel free. I feel like me."

"I can't tell you that I'm thrilled with this revelation. I need some time to let it sink in. Can you understand that?"

"Of course."

"I love you Emily. You being gay won't ever change that. I just need to rationalize that this is who you truly are. I had these dreams about your wedding day and having your first child—" she chokes up.

"I can still have all those things and I want you right by my side planning my wedding day but mom, I'm only sixteen. I think I've got a long time to go before that," I chuckle.

"I know. I just had it in my head a certain way."

"I understand."

There's a definitive pause.

"Emily, you—you had Maya in your bed. You knew you were attracted to her. You deceived us purposefully."

"I didn't mean too. I just needed her. I needed someone who knew what I was going through."

"Your mother's right but I can understand the need you sought in her."

"Wayne."

"Pam, what's done is done. I'm just happy she felt she could come to us and tell us. It couldn't have been easy for her."

"It wasn't. But Maya made me believe you wouldn't abandon me."

"Abandon you? Never! Oh Emily, I love you and your father loves you and that will never change."

We all stand up and hug.

"But I think it's safe to say no more sleepovers for you and Maya," my dad smiles but there's a seriousness to his tone.

"I agree with your father. Maya can come over but you'll stay downstairs from now on."

"Okay mom. Thanks dad."

This turned out better than I could've imagined.

"Mom, dad can I go to Maya's and tell her? Don't worry her parents are home."

"Go on ahead," my dad knows how important it is that I see her.

Narrator POV

"Wayne, are we really okay with this?"

"It will take some getting used to but we'll manage."

"Is it wrong for me to wish she never told us?"

"No. But it would be wrong for her to be someone she's not just to spare our feelings."

"I know. I just can't help feeling that feeling of why us. Why did it have to be our daughter? Am I an awful person?"

"No, not at all. You're just being a parent who thought you knew how your daughter's life would end up. She'll still have the same successes but as a gay woman."

"That's not easy for me to accept."

"You wouldn't be human if it were easy. But we'll be there for each other and stay strong. And I bet we see a new and improved Emily, someone we've been waiting for her to become, someone strong and confident."

Wayne hugs Pam who contemplates what her husband said. She will support her daughter but it will take some getting used to…

Emily POV

I knock repeatedly on Maya's front door until finally she answers. I leap into her arms practically knocking her over.

"I'm guessing it went well," she swings the door closed.

"It went as well as could be expected. But I'm here aren't I?"

"You are but let me guess—no sleepovers," she smiles.

"Pretty much. But I don't care. I'm free! I'm happy! I'm me!" I raise my arms towards the ceiling!

"Em, I can honestly say I've never seen you so relaxed in all the time that I've known you."

I take her hand and lead her to the couch. We sit down and I lace my fingers with hers.

"Maya, I want us to be a thing."

"A thing," she says like she needs more explanation as to what that is.

"You know what I mean."

"Hmm, I don't think I do," she teases making me say it.

"Okay, you win, I want to go to the movies and stuff with you."

"I think there's a name for that, when two people go out, what's it called?" she eye sexes me slowly waiting for me to say it!

"Date. I want to date you. I want you to be my girlfriend."

"Your girlfriend. Hmm, I'll think about it," she slips her hand away from me as I sit there in shock and runs up the stairs to her room giggling.

"Maya!" I run after her tackling her on top of her bed.

We giggle for a few minutes and then we just stop and look into each other's eyes.

"Hi," I say.

"Hi," she says back.

We kiss sweetly as I lay down next to her instead of on top of her and then we lie on our sides facing each other.

"I'm not afraid Maya."

"I know you're not afraid of me. But we still need to handle Ben and his bruised ego."

"I haven't told him yet. I've been so busy worrying about my parents."

"It's your call Emily. How do you want to deal with this?"

"Would it be okay if we nixed the hand holding and kissing in public until I have a chance to tell him?"

"I think that would be acceptable."

"Acceptable huh?" I tease.

She caresses my arm, "Emily, I don't just want to hold hands, you know that right?"

"Yeah, I could feel it this morning."

"Touché."

"I know how you feel about me. I know what you want to do with me. I want it too. I just don't want anything getting in our way."

"You mean anyone."

"Yeah."

"So, do you want to walk to school tomorrow?"

"I can't."

"Oh?"

"Ben is picking me up."

"I'm not sure I'm okay with that."

"Well, I figure when we get to the student parking lot I can tell him. There'll be lots of people around so I feel pretty safe."

"I'm calling Hanna. I'll pick her up and we'll be close by in case he doesn't take it well."

"I'd like that."

"Emily, are you going to tell him you're gay?"

"I don't see how I can't. I mean my parents could say something to his parents. And he's going to see us together anyway."

Maya sits up and leans against the pillows propped against the headboard. She motions for me to curl up with her.

"I don't like it Emily. I don't think you should tell him in the car. Tell him in the courtyard where there will be a lot of people in an open space. If he tries anything we'll all be there plus other students and faculty."

"I just wanted to get it over with but I think you have a point."

"It's settled then. We'll all be in the courtyard before school. Tell him you're meeting Spencer to borrow notes and ask him to walk with you."

"Maya, I'm not afraid anymore."

"I know baby. I know."

Rosewood Courtyard

Narrator POV

"Emily, you got the notes now let's go hang out."

"Ben we can't."

"Why not?"

He has no idea what she's going to say.

"There's something we need to talk about."

Ben gets really close to Emily's face and threatens, "If this is about breaking up with me then we have nothing to talk about."

Maya wants to charge him but Hanna holds her back, "Just let it play out. He's too much of a pussy to do anything in front of everyone. Hmm, maybe that's why Emily thought she liked him."

"Hanna!"

"What!"

"Ben," Emily straightens up peering over her shoulder making sure her protectors are nearby. "We can't be a couple because I'm—I'm…"

"You're what Emily?"

"Because I'm gay."

He laughs a hardy fake laugh, "Really? You expect me to believe that! We dated for months! There's no way! I would've known!"

"No you wouldn't have because I didn't want to accept who I was. I played the faithful girlfriend out of necessity."

"Necessity? What the fuck does that mean?"

The students, some his jock friends, take an interest in their conversation as his voice begins to rise.

"It means I needed you to keep up appearances. I needed you to hide who I really am."

He lowers his voice, "You're not gay."

"I am. We're over. We're over. And I'm sorry Ben. I wish I had the courage to tell you sooner."

As she begins to walk away he grabs her arm, "Over? We're far from over."

Emily yanks her arm back, "I'm going to be hanging out with Maya a lot. Everyone knows she's gay and they're going to put two and two together. So I would tell your friends before they find out some other way."

"Some other way? Like what, the two of you making out?"

She stares him down, "Yes."

"Don't do it Emily. I swear to god you'll regret it."

"The only thing I regret is dating you for as long as I did. It wasn't fair to you and I truly am sorry. But Ben, we're over."

Ben watches as Emily walks back to her group of friends and the first thing he sees is the hug Maya gives to her. His fists clench and his eyes narrow as the fury within him begins to formulate a plan to get back at her. He will not be made a fool of, least of all, not by his ex-girlfriend who suddenly decides that she's gay. His friends gather around him as their curiosity has been piqued. He tells them Emily broke up with him because she decided that she's gay. His friends bust out laughing.

"Shut up!"

"Ben, did you do that to her!" One of his buddies jokes.

"You can't make someone gay."

"No wonder you never got in her pants!"

"Ha ha ha!" Everyone laughs except Ben who decides that maybe it's time he did!

Emily hugs Hanna and then Spencer. She takes a deep breath to calm her nerves.

"Emily, are you okay?" Maya asks.

"Yeah, but I don't think it's over yet."

"What do you mean?" Hanna asks.

"I feel like he hasn't had the last word and I'm really afraid of what that last word will be."

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To Be Continued…

I didn't want to focus on the parents' reaction to Emily's announcement. I tried to make it like they accept it but it's going to take time to get used to it.

And Ben was made the fool so he's definitely going to try something.