Chapter 4:

Bella's POV

I feel something small and warm pressed against my forehead. I slowly open my eyes to see Edward placing light kisses on my face. Quickly I close my eye hoping he didn't notice that I am awake. His kisses further down my face from my hairline to my eyebrows. Very gently he kisses my right eye, the tip of my nose, the corner of my mouth.

As much as I wanted Edward to be my first kiss, I didn't want my first kiss to be while I was pretending to be sleep. I stretched pretending to wake up. I looked up at Edward, he was smiling down at me. "Did you have a good nap, beautiful?" He asked, his sparkling green eyes. Damn he is so beautiful.

"Yes, did you?"

"I didn't take one I was too busy watching you sleep."

"That's disturbing,"

"How?

"You show up at a woman's house, by get the address from your mom and bribing the guy at the security desk to let you in. You knock on my door at six AM, I open the door you just walk in without a care in the world. And I have a huge dog, you sit on my chair. You remember what I ordered yesterday, even though we were ready to kill each other in a Starbucks. You ask me out, without know a thing about me. Then to top if out you hold me while I slept. I wake up to find out you watched me sleep."

"I told I like you. I'm going anywhere, until you give a real and honest chance."

"And I don't give me a chance?" I asked out of curiosity.

"The only way to get me out of your life is to give me a chance."

"Or I could just get a restraining order." I said smugly.

"You wouldn't do that." He said confidently. I knew I wouldn't do that to him unless I felt he was a danger to me. I feel too safe with Edward to ever get a restraining order on him. But I want to know what made him so sure.

"What make you so sure?"

"It's one o'clock in the afternoon, I've been here since six this morning. You could have called the cops on me but you didn't. You want me here just as much as I want to be here. You are just afraid. I can see you fighting it, you can you can be in a relationship with me. I know you can."

He can't possible know that, can he? I've been pretty good at hiding my feeling from him. "You don't know that." I whispered.

"But I do,"

"How?"

"Because you aren't fighting me as much as you would if I was just some stranger. You're sitting here on my lap, holding on to me." I looked down at myself and my arms are wrapped around his torso. "Plus, you talking in your sleep clued me in."

Oh shit! What did I say that made him so confident? "What did I say?" I asked mortified.

"I'm not going to tell you, you'll probably fight it more if I tell you."

"Please tell me," I beg. Sitting up, straddling his lap.

"Under one condition,"

"What?"

"You admit that you have feelings for me."

I drop my head on his shoulder, disappointed that I'm too afraid to admit my feelings for him. "I can't."

"Yes, you can."

"No. I can't."

"Yes, you can."

"You don't get it everyone I've loved or cared about died. I just can't."

"I'm not going to die." He said rubbing my back gently.

"You can't know that."

"I know,"

"Everybody, dies Edward."

"I won't leave you."

"You don't know when or how you are going to die."

He was about to argue back, but his phone rang he reached around me and grabbed his phone out of his front pants pocket. He looked at the screen and smiled at it. "Hello" pause. "I'm busy" pause. "Can't we reschedule?" pause. "Fine, I'll be there in a hour." pause. "I love you too, Alice." Then he looked at me as if didn't just get off the phone with his girlfriend.

Who does that?

Once again I roll off his lap, I walk to my bedroom to put on some clothes. I pull on a pair of jeans. I grab a midnight blue bra, from the drawer and slip it on. In my closet I grab a shirt and a random pair of shoes. Walking into the kitchen I grab Oreo's leash, then walk into the living room. Edward is sitting right where I left him. Whistling, Oreo jumps up and runs over to me his tail wagging one hundred time a minutes. I know he is excited to go outside, he hasn't been out all day long.

"Are you about to leave?" Edward Asked.

"Yes, I need to walk Oreo." I said not looking at him.

"Here, I'll go with you." He said.

"No, I got it. I'm sure you have plans."

"Yeah, it can wait. I'll walk with you." He said getting up walking over to me. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

"No, I got it." I said forcefully, I shrugged his arm off my shoulder. I walked over to the door, I opened it and waited for Edward to step outside. He walked out, I stepped out and locked the door and walked down the walkway with says a word to him.

"Bella!" He yelled after. I just kept on walking ignoring him. I guess he ran after me because he appeared on my right. "Did I do something wrong?"

"No, Edward you did nothing wrong." I could hear the emotion in my voice. I will not cry in front of him. I will not cry in front of him. I will not cry in front of him. I chant to myself over and over.

"Then why aren't you talking to me, why are you being like this?"

"Bing like what?"

"Like you don't want me here anymore," I could hear the hurt in his voice. It really is too bad that he has a girlfriend, because I can see myself falling in love with him.

"Because I don't, Goodbye Edward." I said, looking into his beautiful green eyes that were filled with hurt. I did what I had to, and walked away.