Kitten
Chapter 4
Integral woke in her large king sized bed, for once not suddenly with worry in her heart but slowly and pleasantly. She allowed herself to bask in the warmth of the bed and her bed partner before opening her eyes.
One of the names she knew her soldiers used behind her back would have to be dropped. She could no longer be called the Iron Virgin any more, not that the soldiers ever need know that fact.
Reaching out she picked up her glasses from where she kept them on a stand beside her bed and slid them over her face and turned to look where she knew Seras was and with an uncharacteristic soft smile she found that Seras was lying on top of the covers of her bed totally nude in the morning sunlight streaming in through the windows.
Integral's eyes widen in concern before noticing that the sunlight didn't seem to be bothering the young half vampire / half cat woman at all. Indeed Seras was lightly purring in her sleep and as Integral watched she shifted slightly to bring her back more into the sunlight and arched her back in pleasure at the warmth.
While Seras was the fledgling of Alucard's and not some common chipped vampire that would burst into flames if sunlight touched them, sunlight should still have affected her to some degree. Integral remembered asking Alucard about how sunlight might affect him once.
For a mighty vampire like him the sunlight held no fears but it was painful to his eyes and limited his dark powers. For someone like his fledgling it should have caused painful burns on her skin and 'sun sickness', a general nausea and listlessness.
Since Seras was obviously not in any distress, Integral took the opportunity to study her by the warm glow of the sunlight. The soft downy like fur on her body was making her normal pale skin look almost golden. Integral reaching out a hand gently ran it down Seras's leg. The fur while not thick was silky soft to the touch and warm.
"Of course. The cat part of her is protecting the vampire part by the covering of fur." Integral said out loud.
Seras with a soft sigh awoke and pushing with her arms rose into a half crouch position on the bed and once again stretched. The sight of Seras's large breasts hanging down while her tail arched over her back as the young woman stretched made Integral's mouth water. Seras with a final purr of contentment looked over at Integral watching her.
"Good morning Integral." She said almost shyly.
Integral thought about pointing out to her that she was posing in bright sunlight as if she was some kind of American playboy bunny but decided that bit of news could wait a moment. Raising up she leaned in towards Seras. "Considering what we spent all of last night doing I think we can do better than just a simple good morning." She said right before deeply kissing the young woman.
Again that deep rumbling that was more felt than heard came from Seras and Integral felt excitement and stirrings of lust began to develop in her once again.
What this unusual creature could inspire in Integral both excited and worried her. What if Seras had been right all along and it was some kind of hormonal chemicals she was giving off that was making Integral act so out of the ordinary for her?
Integral pulled back from the soul searing kiss and staring into Seras's mesmerizing eyes she decided she really didn't care what was causing the unusual feelings inside her, that she just enjoyed them too much to ruin them by trying to over analyze them. Something else that was vastly out of character for the usually more cautious Sir Integral Hellsing.
Seras for her part was also staring intently at the other woman whom she was sharing a bed with at the moment but while Integral was staring at Seras's eyes, Seras was staring at Integral's lips. While everything that made up the package that was Integral was so perfect, why was it that the woman's lips made Seras feel weak in her knees and made her want to curl up in Integral's lap and just stare and kiss those lips forever?
Seras didn't know but at the moment she knew she was willing to spend an eternity finding out. Leaning forward she tried to capture those lips with hers one more time but Integral with a sigh of regret pulled back.
"Seras it is getting late in the day and I fear I have work awaiting me. We, or at least I need to get out of bed now."
A little annoyed that she was being denied the lips she craved so much Seras frowned and then processed what Integral had just told her. "Late in the day?" Seras turned her head to look out the window and saw the bright sunlight flooding in the room and bathing her it's golden glow.
With a cry that sounded suspiciously like a drawn out meow, Seras suddenly shot straight up out of bed and found herself clinging to the shadows of the ceiling high above Integral.
Integral blinked a few times.
"Seras Victoria what do you think you are doing?" She finally asked the woman. Integral allowed a rare smile to grace her face. "Not that you aren't by far the best decoration that ancient ceiling has seen in a very long time." She added as she admired the woman's sleek backside with her tail hanging down.
"Sunlight." Seras squeaked out as she clung to the ceiling.
"You've been lying in that same sunlight now for what I estimate has been several hours." Integral explained to her. "You show no signs of it affecting you at all. I suspect that the covering of fur you are now covered with protects you."
Seras peering over her shoulder at Integral as she clung to the ceiling and blinked. "Really?" She asked and then releasing the hold she had on the ceiling she let herself drop back to the bed she had launched herself from a scant few moments ago. Twisting her body in mid air she managed to land facing down and with such grace she hardly bounced the bed at all. As if she was once again a mortal child on Christmas Day she scrambled out of the bed and raced to the window to peer out at the bright sunlit lawns below.
With a light chuckle Integral climbed out of her bed and went to join her new lover at staring out at the outside world. A sunlit world till recently that had been denied the vampire woman.
"I had forgotten how the sun makes everything seem so vibrant and alive and golden." Seras breathed out as Integral wrapped her arms around the nude cat woman from behind. Seras's tail brushing lightly against Integral's sex making her almost gasp out in pleasure.
"You do realize we are framed in this window don't you Seras?" Integral breathed into the twitching cat like ears of hers. "If any of my soldiers happen to be out and glance up they are going to get quite an eyeful this morning."
Integral could feel Seras stiffen in her grasp and try to immediately pull away but she tightened her hold on the furry woman keeping her in place for the moment.
"But sir! The men... If they see me in your room, like this, they'll talk. They'll start rumors!"
"And what rumors would they start Seras? That I'm sleeping with you? That's hardly a rumor." Integral whispered into Seras's ears and once again enjoyed the sight of them twitching.
"But sir, if this gets out to the Queen or the members of the Round Table?" Seras asked before she gave into the overwhelming urge to purr. Integral's hands were around her waist just below her breasts and Integral was starting to lightly pet the fur there, letting her hands wander lower with each caress.
Integral's hands stopped their delicious torment and became still. Slowly the arms lowered releasing Seras and Seras with an almost whimper at the loss stepped to the side and Integral quickly dropped the heavy drapes plunging the room into gloom.
"You are of course quite right Seras. It would prove problematical to explain our relationship to the Queen or to those idiot men of the Round Table."
Seras with her combination of 'cat's eyes' and vampiric sight could see Integral in the shadows of the room as easily as she could of in the bright sunshine of moments of ago and almost wept as Integral's youthful and happy face of moments ago settled into her normal stern cold visage.
"Get dressed and return to your room discretely." Integral instructed her. Even though Integral lacked a vampire's or a cat's vision she could still see Seras's tail droop despondently.
"Yes sir." Seras's voice weakly said.
For once in her life Integral deeply hated that official title of sir that her membership in the Knight's of the Round Table bestowed on her. She watched as Seras quickly and efficiently darted around the room gathering the bits and pieces of her clothing and with a speed that anyone would be proud of quickly dressed. She came up behind the cat woman as Seras struggled with tightening the ties of her corset and placed her arms around the younger woman.
"Don't think that I regretted what happened last night Seras or that I am not fighting the urge to take you back to bed right this instant. Its just that I have..."
Seras hands covered Integral's on her stomach. "Obligations and duties that could be endangered if this got out. I understand sir... Integral. You can trust me to keep this quiet." She finished as she turned in Integral's grasp so she could face her. "Can I at least get one more kiss this morning?" She asked hopefully.
Integral's stern face softened back into the young woman's that she really was. "I don't know Seras. If you kiss me now I can't be sure that I won't give into temptation and take you back to bed and say to Hell with my obligations this day."
"I'll take my chances." Seras breathed as she suddenly leaned in and captured Integral's lips with hers. Integral was just about to question herself on what obligations did she really have for this day that couldn't wait when Seras pulled back suddenly breaking the kiss and escaping Integral's grasp. "I will see you tonight, won't I?" Seras asked as she paused at the bedroom door.
Integral nodded her head. "Count on it." She was able to get out, her voice husky with want for the young vampire / cat woman.
Seras smiled and then using her sensitive cat ears she made sure the corridor beyond the door was clear before slipping out and sneaking back in the direction of her basement room.
Reaching the junction in the Hellsing manor that one side branched off towards the basement area and the other went towards the medical wing Seras paused. A strange fluttery like feeling was coming from her chest and as the young cat woman / vampire paused she realized she had been feeling it off and on ever since she woke up this morning. She debated with herself for a moment if she should just go to her coffin or make a stop and see the doctor and ask him if it might be something.
The thought of her cold coffin / bed waiting for her instead of Integral's warm bed she had just came from and a single sharp pang from her chest made up Seras's mind and she headed off towards the medical wing.
Reaching the medical wing Seras noticed it was empty except for the doctor sitting at his desk. There hadn't been any action lately and the men that Seras had scratched days ago had been discharged back to service.
She paused just inside the doorway and cleared her throat to gain the doctor's attention.
With a mild annoyance Seras noticed the doctor's eyes zeroed in on her chest as he looked up at her. Seras was well used to by now men looking at her chest rather than her face when they talked to her. She in fact doubt that outside of Alucard and Walter if many of the male staff of Hellsing could even describe her facial features if they had to.
"Agent Victoria? Is there something new to report about your condition?" The doctor asked as he moved from behind his desk and made his way towards her. Passing her by, he pulled the door to his office shut and studied the strange exotic hybrid creature in front of him.
"There might be doctor." Seras answered hesitantly. "I have this strange feeling coming from my chest and thought I would have you check to see if something else has gone wrong."
"Fine. Please remove all of your clothing." The doctor stated.
Seras looked at him and raised one eyebrow.
"Oh come on woman, I'm a doctor! I've seen it all before!"
"You are also a man, doctor. And I hardly think a feeling in my chest needs for me to completely disrobe for you to check it."
The look of disappointment was plain on the doctor's face making Seras regret her decision to seek him out but then he nodded his head. "Very well but then I at least need access to your chest then won't I?"
Seras said nothing but undid a few of the straps on her corset that were under her breasts and then pulled the black lacey material of her blouse down, but just enough to clear the center of her chest revealing the valley between her breasts but leaving her breasts still covered by the material.
The doctor nearly scowled but removing the stethoscope hanging around his neck he placed the earpieces in his ear and brought the other end to rest on Seras's chest. He expected to hear nothing, after all Seras was a vampire and the moment she had been turned her heart had stopped beating but he was humoring the woman and it did allow him closer to those magnificent globes she sported. Frowning he moved the stethoscope and listened again, after several long moments he moved the stethoscope minutely and listened again.
Finally he pulled back to stare at Seras but this time into her face.
"Your heart is beating." He told her.
Seras stared blankly at him for a moment. "That's not possible. I'm a vampire." She finally stated as if the doctor had made a mistake.
"Never the less, your heart is now beating again. Although very slowly." He studied for a moment. "You are breathing." He pointed out.
"Well yeah but that is just from habit. Master is always getting on to me about that. My silly human habits." Seras tried to argue.
"Stop it."
"What?" Seras asked in confusion.
"If it is just an habit and not necessary you should be able to concentrate and stop breathing. That is what I'm asking you to do. Just don't breathe for a few moments." The doctor instructed her as he turned his attention to her breasts once again.
Seras shrugged and closing her eyes she stilled her chest as she consciously ceased breathing. Almost five minutes passed and Seras was about to ask the doctor what the purpose of this was when she suddenly and involuntarily sucked in a huge breath of air and hyperventilated for a moment. Her eyes grew wide in shock as she realized herself what that meant. "I have to breathe!" She gasped as her lungs sought air.
The doctor nodded his head. "Your heartbeat and breathing are much less than a normal human but unlike a true vampire you do need to do them again."
"Does that mean I'm no longer dead but living again!" Seras asked in excitement. Of course she knew Alucard would be enraged when he heard but at the moment Seras was thrilled at a second chance at life, real life not the undead existence she had up until recently. At the moment it didn't even bother her that it would have to be as some kind of cat creature.
The doctor frowned as he pondered. "Well... I can't say yes nor can I say no on that. Yes, your heart is beating and you are breathing but far less than a human even in the deepest of comas would be doing. Technically breathing, heart beat and sentience do reach the medical standards of 'living' but yours? They are so minuscule. I would know more if you would allow me to do a full examination of you. Are you ready to take your clothes off now?"
Seras frowned. "No, I think I'm satisfied in just knowing that the strange feeling in my chest is just my heart beating once again and I was just not used to it after it being stilled for such a long time. Thank you doctor." She said as she allowed the material of her blouse to cover her chest fully again and deftly redid the buckles of the corset once again. Turning she left he doctor's office with a spring in her step.
The doctor continued to stare at the doorway to his office that Seras had swayed out of a moment ago and then walking over to his phone he picked it up and dialed a certain number.
Throwing down another bill for ammunition, Integral removed her glasses and tried to rotate her neck to release the tension building there. She knew she would miss Walter when she sent him along with Alucard to the United States but there had been no other she could trust to keep Alucard in line in a mission that far away. She just hadn't realized how much she had come to depend on her faithful butler / servant / friend till this moment. By this time in the day Walter would have brought her some coffee and a much needed break in her boring daily routine.
Hearing a knock at her door she quickly replaced her glasses and straightened her posture.
"Come in." She commanded and wondered who would be bothering at this time of the day.
The door pushed open revealing Seras carrying a tray with a coffee pot, small sugar cannister, a cream carafe and a single china cup and saucer on it. As she passed through the doorway her tail reached back and pushed the door closed with a click.
"I remembered Walter mentioned that he always served you coffee at this time when I talked with him once. I hope I got the coffee right, its been a while since I drank any or made some." Seras said with a smile as she made her way to the desk.
Integral had her doubts whether Seras could make coffee as well as Walter but she had to admit as she admired the sway in Seras's hips as she made her way to the desk that Walter would never look as good in a black leather as Seras did at the moment.
"Not that I don't appreciate the thought Seras but why aren't you sleeping? It's daylight."
Seras decided not to tell Integral what she had learned from the doctor quite yet and frowned as she placed the tray on Integral's desk after searching for a moment for a corner not covered in paperwork. "I can't seem to sleep through. I close my eyes to sleep but end up taking short catnaps..." Seras paused as she realized the irony of her casual statement and then continued. "But I find I wake within 30 minutes of sleeping fully energized. I've been pacing in my room until I grow tired and then take another ca.. um, short nap but wake again 30 minutes later. I finally decided to try and find something useful to do rather than sleeping. I was going to go down to the shooting range to practice but..."
Seras didn't need to continue. Integral knew that the next words would have been, "but the majority of the soldiers train during the day." And Integral knew that Seras was still worried that she was giving off some kind of pheromones and would rather avoid the male soldiers as much as possible.
"And then I remembered what Walter said about serving you coffee at this time of day." Seras said as she picked up the coffee pot and held it over the china cup. "But he didn't mention how you took it."
"Black with one sugar." Integral stated as her eyes came to rest on Seras's cleavage as the woman bent over to pour the coffee.
"What's wrong with me?" Integral thought in annoyance. "I'm acting like some horny teenager trying to peer down Seras's chest. I didn't act this way when I was a teenager!"
Seras finished pouring and putting down the coffee pot she deftly fished out of the sugar bowl a single sugar cube with her cat like nails and dropped it into the cup. Looking at the tray she realized she had forgotten to bring a spoon and reacting without thinking she extended a nail and sticking her finger into the coffee cup she swirled the hot coffee around to mix the sugar.
Her eyes grew wide as she realized what she had done.
"I'm so sorry Integral I just didn't think. I'll go get you another cup and this time bring a spoon." She said as she placed her finger to her mouth and gently sucked the hot coffee and sugar off her fingertip.
Integral's mouth grew dry as she watched Seras with her finger to her lips.
"That'll be quite all right Seras. I'm sure your hands were clean." Integral managed to get out and thanked her lucky stars that her voice hadn't broke with all the sudden dirty thoughts she was having watching Seras. Picking up the cup she took a drink. She had been right, the coffee wasn't as good nor as strong as Walter made but it was better than nothing.
Watching as Seras straightened a few loose papers on her desk, being careful not to move them from where they were located, Integral found herself admiring far too much the way the leather flexed and tightened in Seras's clothing as she moved.
Knocking over a folder from the edge of the desk Seras bent over to pick it up and Integral sucked in a breath at the view she was getting of Seras's butt with that beautiful tail on it.
"Turning my fledgling into a waitress now?" Alucard's deep voice boomed in Integral's mind. "I suppose that is all she is good for now?"
"Alucard!" Integral hissed in her mind immediately burying her less than pure thoughts of Seras deeply in her mind hoping the nosey vampire hadn't seen them yet. "Report. Have you made any progress yet?"
"We have barely arrived in this insufferable country. I searched briefly making use of the fact we arrived at night but it is now 6 in the morning and the sun is staring to come up forcing me to rest till nightfall again. I believe Walter plans to spend the day searching the 'occult' bookstores in town for some references but I shall wait to seek out any true masters of the dark arts for their assistance."
Integral sighed out loud and then thought back at Alucard. "I suppose that is all we can do at the moment."
Alucard using his link to Integral looked through her eyes at his fledgling as she fussed with the remaining papers on Integral's desk. "She looks more and more like a fat house cat and less like a true creature of the night." He thought in disgust to Integral. "I will regret having to destroy her never the less."
"That is all servant." Integral nearly yelled at Alucard in her mind.
Alucard's laughter rang in her mind for a moment as then there was silence as he broke contact with her. Integral probed her mind to make sure he had fully left before risking another glance at Seras. She found the young woman was standing next to her chair and peering at her worriedly.
"Master was talking to you wasn't he?" Seras asked as she noticed that Integral's stare focus on her. "He still hasn't found anything yet has he?"
Integral shook her head no.
"He still plans to destroy me if I am not changed back into a full vampire by the next full moon doesn't he?"
Integral frowned. "I've told you don't worry about it Seras. I am his master not the other way around. I will not let him destroy you. It would take more than Alucard for me to let that happen!"
Seras nodded her head and once again thought about telling Integral the news about her now beating heart and her need to breathe but once again decided to wait. After all it might just be a passing phenomenon and not permanent. There was no reason to rush and tell her was there? Reaching out she placed her hands on either side of Integral's neck and began to massage the tight muscles she found there.
"Does talking to Master always make you so tense? Your muscles are like solid steel." Seras said as she kneaded Integral's shoulders.
Since Integral was sitting in her high backed office chair Seras couldn't get around behind her to do the job properly so she had to lean over slightly from the side to reach Integral's shoulders. This and the motion of kneading caused Seras's large chest to bob in front of Integral's face.
Integral growing warm debated whether to order Seras to stop that or suggest they retire to her room so they could make themselves more comfortable when a knock on the door to her study distracted her.
Seras immediately stopped her actions and quickly stepped several steps away from Integral's chair and slightly back as if she was a bodyguard and had not been so familiar with her just moments ago.
Taking a few breaths to calm herself Integral then called out, "enter."
One of her soldiers stuck his head into the room. "There are two gentlemen here to see you Lady Integral."
"That is Sir Integral." Seras corrected the man.
The soldier shot a glance at Seras but then corrected himself. "Sir Integral. There are two gentlemen here to see you. They arrived in a very fancy car bearing the Queen's crest on it."
Integral frowned. Visits by the Queen's advisors always meant trouble and she didn't relish their infrequent visits. "Please show them in." She told the soldier.
The soldier's head disappeared to be replaced by the door opening wide and two identical men come in. They wore expensive black suits complete with bowler hats and identical umbrellas.
"Shall I leave?" Seras turning her head to address Integral asked.
"That will not be necessary. We are here to discuss you." Seras heard. Turning her attention back to the two men she couldn't decide which one had spoken. They both looked so similar it was eerie.
"Discuss Agent Victoria? In what way?" Integral asked sharply.
"The Queen has been advised about your agent's new condition and..." The one on the right began.
"Is concerned that this creature is no longer an asset to Hellsing or the Crown and indeed may..." The man on the left continued his partner's speech.
"Have become an liability." The one on the right finished.
"Nonsense." Integral barked. "I run this organization and I'm fully capable of deciding when one of my agents are of use and when they are not."
"If you recall, when she had been 'recruited' by the resource known as Alucard there was some debate if Hellsing needed the assistance of another vampire..." The one on the right stated with no expression on his face.
"It was decided by her Majesty at that time that another resource with vampire strength could be permitted but we've recently been made aware of..." The one on the left with the same lack of expression continued.
"That Agent Victoria no longer has vampire strength or indeed hardly any of a vampire's useful abilities." The right one stated.
"Seras Victoria still has superior night time vision. Heightened reflexes and in addition her new condition allows her to walk in the sunlight with no loss of abilities. That is something that even Alucard cannot claim." Integral began hotly.
The two men turned as one to stare at Seras making her highly uncomfortable. "This ability is hardly useful when her very appearance would draw massive amounts of attention to her however. It negates any advantage she might have as a 'daylight' resource." Both men in a monotone stated.
Integral opened her mouth to continue to defend Seras but stopped as the man on the right stepped forward and placing his hand inside his jacket pulled out a single white envelope and tossed it on to Integral's desk.
The envelope landed face up and Integral could see the Queen's crest emblazoned on its surface.
"What is this?" She asked refusing for the moment to touch the envelope. Integral could feel her stomach drop and her skin grow clammy looking at the envelope but she maintained her normal poised and cool exterior.
"Orders from her Majesty. We have also learned that if Agent Victoria's condition is not reversed by the next full moon she'll remain in her decreased abilities from now on. Not too mention no one knows what other changes or possible dangers she may develop. If she has not been returned to the state that her Majesty permitted you to retain her in by the next full moon you are ordered to terminate her existence."
Seras felt the just newly rebeating heart in her chest stop and she couldn't breathe. Her knees felt weak and she briefly thought it would hardly help Integral's argument that she wasn't weak if she was to pass out in front of the Queen's advisors. She wanted to protest that all of this wasn't fair. She hadn't done anything to deserve a death threat from the freaking Queen of England! That if anyone deserved to be threatened with death it was Father Anderson for doing this to her, not her! But she knew it didn't matter to the identical twin advisors. It didn't matter to the Queen. It didn't even really matter to her Master Alucard, so she remained quiet and stared forward as if they weren't even talking about her.
She wasn't even aware as the men with a bow, their job done, walked out of the room and left.
She only became aware once again when she heard Integral break the crushing silence of the room.
"Do not worry Seras, we won't let you..."
"What?" Seras asked with a trace of bitterness in her voice. "You will refuse a order from the Queen?"
Integral remained silent. They both knew the answer to that one.
"Hey, we still have a couple of weeks left before the next full moon, right? Who knows what can happen during that time? Maybe something will come up..." Seras said with an attempt at optimism but couldn't finish it without her voice breaking.
"If you will excuse me Sir. I feel the need to rest again." Seras stated and made for the door.
Integral opened her mouth to stop the young cat woman but after a moment closed it and allowed Seras to make her escape. Reaching down she picked up the hated envelope and opening examined it and found it stated exactly what the two advisors had said it did.
Picking up her now cold coffee cup she sipped for a moment and then in rage threw the bone china cup across the room to shatter and covered her face with her hands.
Integral refused to cry.
The last time she had cried was when she had lost her father. The only other person she had ever allowed herself to love completely.
Seras bounded down the staircase and into the hallway leading to the basement at a breakneck speed. Using her full cat like grace she even ran a portion of the way along the wall instead of the floor. Reaching her 'room' she leapt in and slammed the door as if she could bar her problems from following her.
Her empty cold sterile looking coffin waited her but it offered her no comfort. Just a reminder that in a very short time she maybe facing 'final' death.
Racing into the bathroom Seras could see the light covering of fur on her face was matted with slightly pinkish tears. She no longer even cried blood tears like a normal vampire but like everything else they were a watered down hybrid mixture of normal tears and blood.
It was bad enough facing possible death. Seras was not a coward. You couldn't be a coward and join the police force and work your way into a special unit like she had when she was mortal.
You couldn't be a coward and face a fearsome specter like Alucard and make a decision to let him shoot you through the chest and then turn you into a vampire.
And no matter what thoughts Alucard had on the matter, you couldn't be a coward and try to hold on to your human side as you spiraled downward into darkness.
Seras laughed a almost hysterical laugh at herself in the mirror. "Human side? Yeah that worked out well didn't it? I'm not human any more am I? I'm not even a vampire any more! And I can't really be called a cat either? Just what the hell am I any more?" She cried to her image.
Unfortunately her image had no reply for her.
"Just when I found love. Just when I started to think this existence may not be as bad as I was beginning to think it was. I get a death order from the Queen?!" She continued to ask of her mirror image.
Taking a deep breath she asked her image almost normally. "She'll carry it out you know. No matter how she feels inside she'll give the order when the time comes. Integral can no more refuse to follow the Queen's orders than I can stop loving her. And Master?" Seras laughed again.
"Oh Master won't have a moment of hesitation in following out the order. He'll look at me in disappointment and reach into his jacket and pull..." Seras paused. "No, strike that. Master wouldn't waste the ammo on me. He'll look at me in disgust and say something like, 'I regret the mistake I made in choosing to gift you with the gift of immortality' or something like that and then just plunge his hand into my chest."
Seras considered for a moment.
"Do you think he'll be cruel enough to pull my own heart out and show it to me before he crushes it or will he just be merciful and crush it inside my chest?"
Seras nodded her head as if the mirror had answered her. "Yeah I think so too. He'll pull it out and hold it up right in front of my face and slowly squeeze it to ashes in front of me."
Seras nodded at her image one last time and removing her clothes she walked over and got into the shower and turning the water up high she curled into a ball in the corner and cried. Not for herself but for how she suspected her death would affect Integral.
"She'll be all alone again." Seras cried. "All alone in this house of death growing colder and more distant till she'll be exactly like Master."