A/N: So here is chapter four! I'm so proud of myself for actually posting when I say I will. This is a rare occurrence for me. Again, thanks to my reviewers. They are very encouraging and I love them mucho.

Disclaimer: nope, not mine.

Warning: slash and such. You know what that means. Don't like don't read.

Anyway, on with the chapter. I hope you like it.

IVxoxoxoxIV

Year Four

I stayed with James for all of August

So I board the train with him.

We find Peter quickly.

But I'm anxious to see you.

You went to France

So we didn't see you all summer.

It wasn't a vacation for you,

Your letters told me

You went to see a bunch of French healers.

To see what they could do.

We find you.

You look all right.

So I breathe easier.

We talk about nothing

And laugh.

I can't take my eyes off you.

You're darker

Taller

Freckles scatter under your eyes

Your hair is longer and lighter

I pretend not to stare.

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James asks Lily out almost every day

She hates him.

Peter gets a girlfriend

Pretty girl names Scarlet

She has very long curly hair.

Girls flirt with us a lot

I like their legs and hair

But when I kiss them

I think about you

Then I don't want to kiss them anymore.

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I think about you being alone

During full moons and afterward

Alone in that shack all broken and cold.

And it kills me.

I want to help

You say nothing will help

I'm fine. Don't worry

But I worry all the time

So I go to the library.

I've never read so much in my life

I don't know what I'm looking for

But there has to be something.

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James and I are creating a map

Something to help us with pranks

You help and so does Peter

You said we should pass it on

When we graduate

Share our secrets with someone worthy.

We agree.

We are now officially:

The Marauders.

The map is a work in progress

Every time we discover something

We add it to the map.

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We win the Quidditch Cup

You got so drunk at that party

You fell asleep on my chest

Do you remember?

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You seem so happy

You don't get those sad looks anymore

I think you trust us now

Because we won't ever leave you

Not ever.

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My parents don't write me

Sometimes Regalus gives me a message

But that doesn't happen often

I don't know what I did wrong

Other than be your friend.

If they knew you,

They'd love you.

I know they would.

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Did you notice Snape looking at you?

He does.

All the time

I think he hates you.

And that makes me want to kill him.

He's so awful to you

You pretend it doesn't matter

But it still hurts

You've got fight back.

You're so powerful

You could kill him with a look

So why don't you?

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You taught me how to do a back flip

How to use a Muggle telephone.

That I actually could be quiet for five whole minutes

(Even though you had to sit on me)

How to speak very limited, very sexy things in French.

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Do you remember when

Peter ate so much pudding

He threw up purple?

When James and I

Found the Room of Requirement

When I finally showed you

How to ride a broom.

And when we all went to James' for Christmas

And there was mistletoe everywhere!

We were talking and drinking eggnog

When James pointed out that

You and I were standing under some.

You turned so red

And said that mistletoe

Was for a boy and a girl.

But James was cruel that winter

And wouldn't let you get away.

I just shrugged

But my heart was pounding

And I kissed you

Very quickly

On the lips

They were soft and pink.

We both blushed

And drank more eggnog.

James laughed and looked triumphant

You looked ready to die

I was torn between

Wanting to kill James

Or snog you senseless.

So instead I got really, really drunk.

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I didn't want to get off the train

I didn't think I could bear

Another summer without you.

I knew I loved you

You didn't though

You just smiled

When I hugged you

Extra long and tight.

And you left

And I left.

I didn't even look at my parents

Because I want too busy

Memorizing you.

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A/N: I really like this chapter. I like how awkward their first kiss is…hmmm I'm evil. Drop me a review if you enjoyed this a lot. Or even if you only liked it a little. Or if you hated it but know how I could make it better. Reviews are a life force; they keep writers like me going. Ciao