A/N - I'm terribly sorry for the late update, my PC is frickin broken and writing on my sister's laptop is just...bad. So this chapter will be short, and will surely suck, since i still have my block on. I must thank my iPod for temporarily letting me write something. This one is said from Nikita's POV. It will be split into two chapters, hope you don't mind.

Also ! Thank a lot for all your reviews, they're really helping me, and i decided to make this story a multichaptered romance Nalex stories, since you enjoyed my first two chapters. So, i will re-do a little some episodes from both season 1 and 2, and i hope you will enjoy them, because i had these ideas for very long in my head, but i never had the courage to write them, since i never would have thought that somebody actually likes my ideas. SO, thanks again. Keep the reviews coming so i can know what i'm doing wrong and everything...

And i want to say something to Poison Ivy - I'm sorry, but that's just my writing style, can't do much about it. Discovering and analyzing both Nikita's and Alex's thoughts are just something i wanna do, even if it takes the whole chapter. So, i'm sorry if you don't like this, but i won't change that. I'm glad you said your opinion, and since you said you "love my writing" i wasn't sure at first what to think about that. I hope you'll enjoy reading, and if not well...Sorry.

Anyway, enjoy and leave reviews. They are ALWAYS welcomed :P

When i opened my eyes, there was nothing but darkness. Lights were out, candles already burnt, and it was still early in the morning. Sun wasn't up yet. I woke up with a slight headache. Yesterday's activities took every bit of energy away from me, but at the end it was definitely worth it. I felt a small, tender body, lying against my own. Her chest raised up as she breathed, and i couldn't help myself but to smile. I never would have thought that this girl, Alex, will ever be with me like this. Naked, her head comfortably placed on my breasts, arms around me, hugging me. Protecting me. Even in her dreams, she was very protective. And this moment right here, made me realize that i indeed, truly and deeply loved Alexandra Udinov. At first, it was just lust. When we first began her treatment, her body was mostly destroyed and weak. It was nothing a normal person would lust for.

But with my knowledge, and her desire to change this, her body soon became a perfect tool, capable of both killing and seducing her target. Which was clearly me this time. My young Russian student. She wanted me too, that was evident. But back then, there was no time for this. She had to get clean. And i had to help her. It was my duty. She was my responsibility. But now, i have her in my arms, naked and satisfied. No, she was more than my responsibility. She was the reason i kept fighting. She was the person that saved me. Saved from becoming what i hated. Becoming Amanda, or Percy. After what happened with Daniel, i locked every emotion away. Every single one, except of hatred. My sole reason for living back then was destroying Division, but now... I had another one.

It took me long enough to figure out that the feeling i felt wasn't lust. Not only. There was something else creeping its way into my head. Something else that was poisoning my heart. It was not lust. It was affection. Love. That moment we had made me 100% sure that my feelings were true, and that this was not a simple crush.

One year ago

It was one of those moments when Alex had enough of everything. Her treatment was nearly over, and the need for a shot was getting more and more unbearable. Another evidence that Alex was almost ready to be perfectly clean. This was just another outburst, and i was determined to help her, even thought she hated me at the moment. "I know it's hard Alex. Believe me i do" i said as i desperately tried to calm the young and confused Russian girl.
"No, you know nothing Nikita ! I have enough ! Of you, of this place ! There's nothing going on, we should be fighting !" Alex yelled, staring directly into my eyes. There was so much hatred and fire in her blue eyes, i was actually afraid that her words were true. But i knew she wasn't in control. This was not her.

I sighed deeply, scratching my forehead. "Fighting what Alex ?" Alex's answer was evident, and i already knew what she will tell me.

"DIVISION !" Of course, that was her main reason to get clean. It was wrong, yes. But, at least she's trying. Division's being useful for once. But Alex was in no state or condition to fight them. She had no training, no experience. She was just a girl trying to clean herself.

"Look at yourself Alex. Are you in the state to fight Division ? Can you even fight yourself ?" i asked, very well knowing she wasn't. I hoped she would see reason. Even in this state, i hoped she would see it. She shook her head, pointing one finger at me.

"I'm more than capable to fight my battles Nikita. At least i'm doing something. Fighting something ! What exactly are YOU doing ?!" that one hurt. But i knew she was partly right. I kept reminding myself that i'm creating a perfect weapon to fight Division. With her help, we will take them down. But what was i thinking ? Bringing a teenager into this fight ? Alex was not a weapon, not yet anyway. She was just a girl, driven by revenge. Just a girl. She had no right to endure this. Drugs, abuse. This was not meant for her. And then the guilt rushed to my side. It was all my fault. I felt a lonely tear leaving my eye and i told her, leaving the apartment in the process. I knew she needed to be alone, and i had to come out for air.

"Helping you to endure this"

I walked through the streets, thinking about my student. She left to the bathroom, and i knew exactly what she was doing. This was her final test. Weeks ago i somehow punched the punching bag much harder than i planed, and i pulled my muscles. I got myself some painkillers and i hid them discretely in the bathroom. I knew Alex was stalking me, we even had a talk about it, and she promised to never touch that stuff again. Now, Alex will surely notice them.

There were two outcomes available at this moment.

First - Alex will get high. Not by choice, since those outbursts were taking away all her mental health away from her. She was not in control, and she always felt regret after every fight we had. I knew it wasn't her fault. But, if she'll get high, all this was for nothing. The treatment could start over.

Second - Nothing will happen. She'll simply ignore them. And if she's able to resist them, even in this state, it was a bulletproof evidence that she was ready, and in control of her life once again.

Was she really ready to be thrown into that harsh world again ? World full of pain and death ? And drugs ? I kept my head down, thinking how everything was my fault. If only i had kept her safe somehow, this would never happen. She never deserved that awful fate she got, and yet Alex was still very strong. Her mind was not entirely broken, and she was ready to fight for our cause. She was the most strongest person I've ever seen. She might not have training, but she is special.

I've been walking for two hours, without a purpose or a destination. Since there was nowhere to go, i went back to the apartment. And as i opened the door, i felt fear washing over me. This was the moment that made me realize how much the young Russian meant to me. I opened the doors and entered the apartment. Then i saw her.

She was sitting on the bed, hands around her, her eyes focused on the empty tube of pills in front of her. I sighed, and went slowly to her. Her eyes were still fixated on the tube and she didn't even noticed me. She was high again, and i felt broken. She's not ready for this. She never was, what was i thinking leaving her alone ? I sit next to her on the bed, and threw the empty tube as far as possible. I took her face into my hands, and what i saw made me silently jump in happiness. Her eyes indicated she was crying. But there was absolutely no evidence of her being high. Her eyes right now was the proof that she won her fight. She's clean.

I wanted to ask, but she said first.

"I couldn't do it" she said, staring right into my eyes. There was fear and sadness. But also a little bit of happiness as well. Surely she was proud of herself for not succumbing to that weakness. "Why ?" I had to know the reason she stayed strong. I placed a hand on hers, gripping it tightly. She smiled.

"I kept repeating your words" My words. Those were not my words, those were Carla's. But that was not important at the moment. They helped Alex, as they helped me before. You might be doing this for me, but at the end of the day, it's your reflection in the mirror that you need to face, not me. I hugged her tightly, not wanting to ever let go of her.

"You have no idea how much i'm proud of you Alex. This is a great victory. One that will always be with you, it will always remind you that you don't need this" there was no response from the young girl, and i was confused. When i looked at her, she was fast asleep in my arms. A tear leaving her eye, and a smile on her face.

Sasha was officially destroyed. Her pain, addictions, bad memories. Gone. Everything was destroyed. In my arms, there was a brand new girl, ready to fight and avenge her family. Ready to take Division down. Ready to feel and love again. Ready to be happy. And her name, was Alexandra Udinov.

So focused was i on that memory, that i didn't noticed Alex's sleepy eyes staring at me. She yawned, and i smiled wildly. The angel was awake.

"Hey.." i said, kissing her forehead. I heard her giggle. Best sound in the world. "Mmh... Glad to see you're with me this time" she said, scratching her eyes, and stretching her muscles. I knew she was talking about yesterday. After our talk, i knew she was afraid of this being a simple dream. But i made sure she knew that it wasn't. I smiled, placing a small and gentle kiss on her lips.

"Can't believe you're still angry about yesterday, Lex" the kiss ended, and we both ended up wanting more. She was still a bit sleepy, i could tell that. She yawned again, and smacked me into my shoulder. "YOU try to wake up all alone after night like that" i laughed. She was so cute when trying to play angry. I saw the opportunity to joke.

"You mean, after a dream like that, right ?" Alex frowned, shaking her head in disagreement. "Not funny" she tried to raise up from the bed but i swiftly caught her, placing her on the bed again. I looked at her, a small sad smile on my face. She knew i was playing with her, since her hands were on my legs right now, making their way towards my now wet core. I let out a moan, it was an approval. I kissed her again, more hungrily this time.

"Oh, but it is baby girl" i went lower to lick her neck, my hands were tightly gripping hers above her head, and i looked at my prey bellow me. I licked my lips when i saw her perfect breasts again, and i lowered myself to give one of her nipples a teasing lick.

"Mmmh...tease" i heard her moan in desire, she tried to free herself from my grip but it was for no use. I went back to worship her neck, and she moaned again, this time she moaned out my name loudly.

"Yeah yeah...That's it love. Moan for me" i said, lust completely clouding my mind. She closed her eyes and went down again to kiss her fiercely. My tongue soon found its way into her mouth, and both of our tongues danced together. I let go of her hands and instantly grabbed her face, wanting to deepen the kiss even more. I could feel her hands on my back, holding me tightly in place. After the kiss ended, i rested my head in the crook of her neck, trying to calm myself. It was not very effective since i could already feel the pool of wetness in between my legs. And then the scent hit me. I could already feel her desire and want for me, since i was practically lying on top of her, but the scent. I could actually smell her from here. Which made my desire and lust for her even more greater, if that was even possible. I sniffed the air, and Alex immediately cleared her throat. I could tell she was embarrassed, but there was really no need for that. Quite the opposite. She smelled delicious. I raised myself on to of her again, and kissed her, cupping her face.

"You know...We should place my bed next to yours. This one is getting a little smaller for us both" she said, and i knew she was right. We can't sleep on this small bed forever, but she was also wrong. I had a much better plan for this situation. I placed my hand on her neck, massaging it and she let out another loud moan.

"OR, we could purchase another, bigger one. You won't need to sleep on a separate bed since we're together, hm ?" when i was finished, the joy and happiness in her look was evident. I was very glad that such a simple action could make her so happy. Something in me wanted..no..needed to make her happy. I needed her to be happy, no matter what would it cost me.

"Я тебя люблю..столько" she said in her native Russian, and i decided to let her know something too. "Я тоже тебя люблю" i said, then i continued to kiss her neck again, going lower and lower.

We made love the entire morning. Best morning of my life.

After our last round, i collapsed on her, unable to move a single muscle. This girl could really suck all energy from me. And i loved that. She kissed me tenderly, and i couldn't feel happier.

"So. What are our plans for today ?" she said, sitting up. Our bodies were covered in sweat and partly in our own juices. Which was hot back then, but now we were all sticky. "Shower first. Then..Well...I want to take you somewhere" i said, laughing a bit. I sat up as well, taking her hand in mine. I saw confusion and surprise in her look.

"Hm ? Where ?" i smiled, and she did as well. "You'll see" she went behind me, hugging me from behind, and i could feel her breath on my neck.

"Ah, but i don't want to go. I want to be in this bed with you the whole day" she licked my neck and i again started to feel the familiar lust crawling inside my head. I put my hands on hers, and i turned around just to see her.

"We can do that tonight baby. I don't want us to be locked here all day. Plus, i want you to see it" Alex made a familiar awww noise, and i knew she wouldn't go down without a fight. "Why not ? Think of the things i could do to you Niki" our hands slowly crawled their way lower my body, and i enjoyed it very much. But she had to know this was important. For both of us. I took my hands away and stand up. Dressing myself in an oversized T-shirt i used whenever i was too lazy to properly dress myself. She was still siting there, confused look on her face. I sighed, scratching my eyes.

"It's important Alex" she stand up as well, taking the covers with her, and hugged me. I could feel the comfort again, and it felt fascinating. "Alright, i can see that. When will we go ?" she let go off me, cupping my face. "An hour or so, it doesn't really matter. We should eat something first. It's a long trip" i said, going to the fridge to take a bottle of water. "Now you got me curious" Alex said as she went to sit back on the bed.

"Its a surprise, baby girl. You'll have to wait" i said, and Alex smiled, shaking her head. I went to switch the music on, and she looked at me with confusion in her eyes. "Since when do you listen to this...music ?" i was wondering when would she ask. But there was no time or desire to explain this, so i simply smiled.

"There's nothing wrong with oriental music Lex. I'll have to show you once we're back" Alex laughed, and i knew that was never a good sign. She looked at the bathroom doors, and i knew exactly what she wanted. Again. "What about that shower ?" she asked, innocence all over her face. "Hm ? What do you wanna do in a shower with me, i wonder ?" i sipped from the bottle and waited for Alex's reaction.

"I don't know, maybe eat your pussy all day long ?" she said and i spit the water all around me in surprise. She laughed and went to the bathroom. "I never knew my little Lex had such a dirty tongue" i stared at her backside, mesmerized by the beauty. Alex looked back at me before closing the door "Might as well use it, no ?"

Dat ending...But lol, never mind.. Im glad its done. Although im enjoying writing this sooo very much. Let me know what you think :)