The sheets beneath James were crisp and freshly cleaned. The top sheet had been folded and moved to the floor. James' head rested on Kendall's pillow. He was laying naked with his hands covering his genitals. The room was silent while he waited for Kendall to come back in.

Kendall felt nervous, but he knew his envy would subside if he was able to top James. He had a quick drink of water and mentally prepared himself before he returned to his bedroom. The room was cool, the lamps next to Kendall and Logan's bed's giving off warm, dim lighting. Kendall walked into the room; he was also naked. He stood next to the bed and pulled a bottle of anal silicone lubricant and condoms from the bedside tables top draw. He had hidden them under a book he hadn't read in years.

He looked down at James who was naked and very quiet. "Why aren't you talking?" Kendall asked with a frown.

"Just waiting to see what you meant by submitting," James said with a bashful smirk. Kendall couldn't help but to smile at James.

"I'm fucking you tonight." Kendall said as he moved to sit between James' legs on the bed. James sat up suddenly and shook his head.

"No- I fuck you, that's my role." His voice was stern and certain.

"Well it's no fair that you get to top all the time. Let me put it in you for once," Kendall whined.

"No."

"Why not?"

"Cause."

"Cause why?"

"Kendall I just don't want anything in my ass okay!" James yelled. Kendall sat back and put the lube and condom down.

"Yeah, I won't ask again if you'd just tell me why. Like, I want to have sex tonight, but my ass hurts man. We've done it way too much my asshole needs a break," Kendall frowned. "Plus I really want to know what it feels like to be inside you…"

Silence fell between them. It was one of those really awkward silences again. The kind that made Kendall worried James would insult him and stop talking to him in general again. His brow puckered while he stared down at the bed. Kendall looked up when he felt James move.

'Oh no…' Kendall thought. He knew this was it. He shouldn't have even tried. James was leaving.

However, he never left. James put a hand on Kendall's ankle and sighed.

"I'm… I'm scared," James admitted in a small voice. "It's probably going to hurt, and you seem to really enjoy being on the bottom, so I thought what we were doing was fine. I didn't realise you were unhappy with the way we do things."

"I'm not unhappy, I just want to try do it a bit differently," Kendall put his hand on top of James'. "Trust me, I'll be gentle." He smiled reassuringly. James hesitated before nodding.

"I trust you," James said before laying back down on the bed. Kendall nodded and shuffled forwards. He looked down and noticed one of James' hands were still covering his cock. Kendall huffed and smiled shyly.

"Move your hands so I can prepare you," Kendall had learnt that preparation was important through James. He didn't think it was really all that necessary when he had thought about homosexual gay sex before, but now he knows much better. He knows that if he doesn't do this no one is going to be having a fun time.

James's eyes followed Kendall's hands. Kendall reached down for the lube and picked it up. James moved his hand off his cock and huffed.

"What? Not even going to arouse me first?" James' voice was now cheeky. Kendall hesitated for a moment before nodding.

"Oh yeah, hang on," Kendall put his things beside James. He shuffled upwards and laid down on top of James. He didn't weigh much so it wasn't much of an issue for him to be resting on James. He held both sides of James' face and leaned in to give him a kiss. James closed his eyes and allowed himself to melt into the wonderful sensation of Kendall's lips. Kendall sighed against James' moving mouth. James wasn't sure how he should be kissing Kendall. He didn't know if he could take control of the kiss and start making out, or if Kendall was meant to be the one in control of that too. He didn't need to think about this for long though because Kendall's lips started moving more feverishly.

Their kiss heated up and Kendall's hands moved to the back of James' head. He massaged his fingers into James' scalp and begun playing with his hair. James shivered, and Kendall kissed him deeper. Kendall's hands then moved to James' shoulders and he held onto them while propping himself up a bit. The only thing touching James now was his lower body and his hands. Kendall leaned in so that he could begin sucking and biting into James' neck. James gasped and closed his eyes. James hadn't expected to feel such a sharp bite. Of course, he had been bitten before, but this felt a lot different to how it usually felt.

James could feel himself hardening the more Kendall's mouth teased his skin. Kendall bit and nibbled along James' shoulder. James' hips thrusted upwards and he released an unsteady moan. Kendall's smirk grew, and he bit down on the sweet spot where the neck and shoulder meet. James' jaw slackened while Kendall teased this area. He then stuck his tongue out and licked a line from there up to James' ear. James quivered and released a breathless moan. He cried out and thrust his hips upwards again. He closed his eyes and bit into his bottom lip.

Kendall then dug his teeth into the sensitive areas of James' neck. This made James gasp and cry out rather loudly. Kendall was surprised to hear such a loud, sexy moan come from James. He pulled back and stared down. James' face was flushed a hot red, his eyes were lidded, jaw was slack, and his neck was red and beginning to bruise. Kendall licked his lips then moved to the other side. He leaned down and licked at James' earlobe.

"I wish I knew you had a thing for being bitten earlier," Kendall gruffly said into James' ear. An intense shiver raced down James' body. His dick twitched and stood to full attention; precum gathering at the tip. Kendall huffed a sultry chuckle before he begun sucking hard on the other side of James' neck. He evened out the bites and hickeys before he moved his lips to the nape of James' neck. He begun leaving light kisses before biting down hard.

His swollen lips kissed their way down to James' nipple. He naturally moved forwards to lick at the light bud. James gasped at the feeling of Kendall's warm, wet tongue flick his nipple. He covered his mouth with both hands when Kendall's lips wrapped around his nipple. Kendall smiled while he licked and sucked at the nipple.

This started to drive James crazy.

He cried out pathetic moans into his hands while Kendall's tongue and lips continued to move. He pressed his hands hard against his mouth and tried to keep himself calm. Kendall moved his lips over to the other nipple and looked up at James.

"Don't hold your noises back. We're alone," Kendall reminded him as his hand moved up to James' chest. He used his index finger and his thumb to roll and play with James' nipple. He pulled and tugged and lavished in every sweet moan that was released from James' slutty mouth. Kendall's tongue swirled, and his teeth nibbled on the nipple opposite to the one his hand played with.

After a while Kendall pulled back and looked down at James. His chest was heaving, and he was moaning unevenly. Kendall licked his lips before he rolled his hips and moved back to sit between James' legs.

"Aroused yet?" He asked with a cheeky smirk. James shot Kendall a stern glare before pointing at his dick.

"I don't know Kendall, why don't you ask my dick?"

Kendall chuckled then picked up the lube. He opened the bottle and poured some over James' cock, and then over James' perineum and hole. James twitched and hissed.

"Ugh- that's cold," he complained. Kendall rolled his eyes and wrapped his hand around James' dick. He gave him some gentle stroked before his middle finger poked at James' rim.

"I'm going to put a finger in now. Are you sure you're okay with this?" Kendall asked. James hesitated, which made Kendall stop moving his hand. He then nodded.

"I trust you dude," James nodded. Kendall nodded back before he begun pressing his middle finger in. James tensed and closed his eyes. Kendall sighed and wiggled his finger.

"You need to relax, remember? Otherwise it's not going to go smoothly." Kendall warned. James nodded and breathed slowly to try and calm himself. Kendall felt James' muscles relax. He then pressed more of his finger in.

James was taking Kendall's fingers surprisingly well. Kendall managed to prepare him by working James' hole into comfortably fitting at least three fingers. Kendall pulled his fingers out of James. He had been watching James squirm and cry out and it was making his cock a little too desperate for relief. He sat up and looked down at James' body. James' hands were in his hair and everything about him looked ready for a good fuck.

Kendall pulled a condom over his cock then pulled James' legs up. He smiled down at him and shuffled closer. "Ready?" He asked. James nodded quickly and closed his eyes. Kendall enjoyed how silently, and obedient James was being.

Kendall then held onto his cock and lined it up with James' hole. He stared down at James perfect cock before he begun pushing himself in. James huffed and held his breath. Kendall put one of James' legs up on his shoulder and held onto it. The other hand pressed into the side of James' face. Kendall caressed James' cheek. He looked way too tense. Kendall didn't want James being uncomfortable to ruin the feeling of finally being inside him.

He stared into James' unsure, scared eyes. "Relax James, it'll be okay," Kendall's voice was smooth and reassuring. James nodded again. Kendall gave James a sweet, chaste kiss before pushing his hips forwards a little more. His cock pressed into James and it made James quiver and release an uneven cry. His breath faltered, and his back arched.

Kendall tried to keep himself calm. James' asshole felt warm and comforting. Kendall pressed deeper into James' hole and released another cry.

James was being stretched in ways he had never felt before. He grunted and looked up at Kendall. Kendall was sweating and moaning while he moved his hips. James felt physically uncomfortable but still enjoyed looking up at Kendall. He loved when Kendall rode him because he was able to feel him more and stare up at him. He figured this was kind of the same, except he was the one being fucked. Kendall's hips moved in a smooth, steady pace while he made love to James.

James' arms raised, and he wrapped them around Kendall's neck and shoulders to pull him closer. He now realised that even though he wasn't feeling too good with Kendall fucking him, having him close meant so much more. He held onto Kendall and it threw Kendall out of his rhythm for a moment. James moaned hotly, and it made Kendall speed up. He pressed deeper, feeling his and James' balls meet. He blushed and pressed messy kisses to James' shoulder.

Kendall felt hot and extremely horny. He was already so close, but he wanted James to feel good. James' hands ran down Kendall's body and it made Kendall shiver. He moaned deeply then broke out of James' hold. He grabbed a hold of James' cock and begun stroking it while he moved his hips upwards.

James' back arched, and he cried out louder than he had earlier. His moans were breathy, and full of uneven whines. James whined, and tears pooled in his eyes. Kendall's hot hand slicked its way up and down James' thick member while he penetrated his hole. Kendall's dick rubbed up against James' prostate, causing millions of nerves to send pleasured signals up and down James' body.

James panted and closed his eyes as he finally understood why all of this was a good feeling. Kendall fucked himself into James while stroking James' dick. They both moaned, their bodies connected like it had never been before.

The orgasm that Kendall had into the condom inside of James was one of the most intense he had ever felt in his life. Fucking James had set off every nerve and sense in his body. He felt weak and pleasured.

His lips felt dry and he knew he was desperate for a drink. His asshole, now that it had been cleaned from the lubricant, was throbbing and sore. The aches ran up his back and through his hips. Kendall re-entered the bedroom with two glasses of water. He sat down on the bed and handed a glass to James while he sipped his own.

James held the glass to his lips. He was laying down but had propped himself up for the drink. He was sore and needed a sleep. He sipped the drink and thought about how much they had fucked in that one night. He had lost count after the third or fourth round. Kendall took a final sip of his drink before putting the glass down.

"Did you enjoy it?" Kendall asked. James swallowed the rest of his water; his dry throat thankful for the drink.

"Yeah, it was actually pretty good… I don't think I'll be moving around much tomorrow though. Might pretend to be sick again," he huffed. Kendall sighed with relief.

"Good… look James… I, uh…" Kendall took a moment to collect his thoughts. "I really wanted to top you. It was really bugging me that you were the only one to do all the fucking…"

"So, you envied how good I fuck you?" James asked with a cheeky smirk. He put his glass down and stared at Kendall knowingly. Kendall blushed lightly and rolled his eyes; giving James a playful little shove.

"I suppose…" Kendall admitted with a shrug. "At least I didn't get all grumpy for envying an ugly dude's face."

"Hey!" James exclaimed with a deep blush. "That was just a temporary misunderstanding…" He said in awkward self-defence.

"Yeah, yeah okay, whatever James-I'm-so-perfect-Diamond," Kendall teased. He laid down next to James and sighed. He rested his head on James' shoulder. That brief spark of electricity that always passed through them still felt strong and intense. Kendall closed his eyes.

"So, when are you going to ask me out on an actual date?" Kendall said playfully. James snorted and rested his head on Kendall's head.

"Soon, I promise."

"Cool…" Kendall leaned up to give James a quick kiss. Whatever happened between them next, Kendall looked forwards to.

He held onto James and found satisfaction in this moment right now. Everything else to do with their relationship would eventually fall into place. But right now? He and James were happy. And that's all that mattered.

[ A/N: So yeah, that was my fic for the Emotions Challenge. My emotion was Envy and I found it really difficult to think of a good plot and story for this particular emotion. I apologise if it got sloppy towards the end, I was running out of time to submit the story but I do hope you enjoyed~ ]